Yeol's POV

I didn't get much sleep last night as I was haunted with the nightmares of my past.

Being with Baek made me feel normal for once in my life as I forgot the past but it has all come crashing down on me.

I wanted to hate what the pack members said and tell them they were wrong but a part of me knew they were right.

I was a monster who killed for a living.

I remembered how I killed a whole innocent town over anger and grief but that's not an excuse.

I might have lost Maya but I caused grief for many other families who lost family and friends from my outburst.

I deserve all the pain I am getting because I caused too much pain for a lifetime.

Killing is all I know and that's why I became a hunter. I had always been good at it. It's what Maya trained me to do for my own protection.

I had two options. To run or to kill to survive and I chose the latter.

Kyungsoo was already a hunter when he took me in and I blended well into the lifestyle.

This is why I was the best hunter in history. It's the only life I know and I do it well.

I can't all of a sudden be and alpha and be responsible for a pack when all I know is violence.

I don't blame them for fearing me considering my reputation.

The don't even know half of my story. What more when they find out the whole book.

Some people might even leave the pack and that's not what I want.

I didn't come here to destroy my family's pack and home.
Zander took a bath in the river before heading back to the pack house. We masked our scent so that no one would know we were around.

An ability I get from my vampire side.

Kyungsoo was a powerful vampire prince and so having his blood had its advantages.

I watched from the shadows as everyone had settled in the backyard.

It seems a few pack members had visited. It looked like the family members of my friends mates.

I finally saw my beautiful mate and he looked so happy as he gazes into the eyes of my brother.

It pained my heart how he could be so happy even without me around.

I guess he didn't miss me. He didn't need me. They all didn't need me. I was just trouble and would only bring them grief.

Because of me a whole army of my enemies were joining hands with Cyrus to come and take Baekhyun away.

It was my fault Baekhyun was in danger again.

Right after he escaped out of the hands of the devil I put him back in the spotlight in worse danger than before.

Because I am a trouble magnet. Because I only bring trouble. Now the whole pack was in danger.

Everyone would be better off without me.

I'm a terrible mate. Terrible brother. Terrible friend. Terrible Alpha.

I will do everything in my power to protect everyone even if it means losing my life. It's the least I can do. The only way I can be of use.

I will give my life for my family and mate.

I shifted and got in through the front because I didn't want anyone to see me.

As soon as I took a hot shower and changed my clothes I stood by the front door still debating whether to join the others or go for a run.

All of a sudden, loud screams were heard in the distance and by reflex I ran in that direction.

I found five huge rogues attacking some young pups and teens who were trying to defend themselves but were not strong enough.

The teens already had bite marks from trying to protect the younger pups.

I jumped into action and ripped the rouges apart without even shifting in my vampire form with my eyes a darker shade of red with my long sharp claws and teeth.

I literally ripped them into pieces.

When I was sure none of them were still breathing I turned to the pups and teens and they looked at me with terror in their eyes.

By this time Chan and the others had arrived along with other pack members.

Mothers ran for their pups and took them away along with their injured teens.

Then the whispers started again.

'Did you see what he did to those rogues'

'He is a monster. Look at how traumatized the children are'

'Look at those eyes. It's like looking into the eyes of the devil'

I shut my eyes and tried to block them out.

'We just saved their pups and this is the thanks they get' Zander lashed out.

I tried my best to control my anger and emotions.

When I opened my eyes, Kyungsoo was right in front of me.

"Breath, Yeol. Just block it all out," he said.

In the past he was the one who could calm me down and his soothing words seemed to be working.

Well that was before the whispers got worse.

Monster

Freak

Devil

I couldn't take it anymore and my anger took control along with Zander as he forcefully shifted.

It felt like the time I shifted after Maya's death. The anger and bitterness was too overwhelming. Kyungsoo must have senses my emotions and that's why he tried to calm me down but it never worked.

Our body was covered in flames and he released a loud dominating growl that silenced every single person as well as get them all on their knees in submission.

We were too angry and too out of control to care that it only made us look even more terrifying.

Before Zander did something we would both regret I took control of our wolf and ran deep into the forest leaving a trail of ash along the way.

Away from it all.

Because I'm a monster andall I do is destroy.

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Edited: 10-09-18