To me, what I believe suicide is, it's just hating yourself.

Hating: such as showing horrible side of you, thinking about deaths, falling abused.

Suicide: killing yourself for feeling horrible. Thinking that no one loves you.

Get help whenever you feel like this. It may seem it may not help, that's when you need more. More and more. Until you reach your happiness.

Drugs and alcohol don't work. To me,they do worse. The more you do, the more,and more,and more you rely  up to them. Drugs can lead to abuse, and even worse.