SANA'S POV

"What is taking Ryu so long?" I whispered to myself.

"Sana," I gulped when Yuta called me with a sober face. "Why do you love Tae?"

"Do you really have to ask an obvious question?" I sarcastically said. "I don't know why I love him. I just love him."

He sighed, "Me too," he looked at me. "I don't know why I love you."

"What?" I asked him again. I honestly heard what he said. I just want him to repeat it again.

"Am I stupid for loving someone who already loves another person?" He asked me with an innocent face.
"We're all stupid when it comes to that," I answered him. "But I am very sorry for not loving you back."

"I-It's alright." He smiled. A fake one. "As long as you're happy, Sana." He touched my heart. I usually don't see this lonely Yuta. I'm not used to it. I'm used to that loud and annoying Yuta. "But, do you think, if you don't love Tae anymore, you'll love me back?"

"I think there is a good chance," I nodded. "You're too good to be true, Yuta."

"Thanks," he chuckled. I smiled softly. I pity him. He's been a strong person in front of me. I admire him for that.

"Hey," Ryu came with a basket of fruits on his hands. "You're awake." Ryu said and placed the basket on the table. "We can go back already."

"He has to rest, silly." I told Ryu.

"Are you fine?" Ryu asked Yuta.

Yuta nodded, "Yeah."

"I already called my men," Ryu faced me and crossed his arms. "After the farewell party tomorrow night, they will go back to Korea to start the headquarters and your house."

"Really? That's good." I smiled sincerely. "But I don't know where will I stay."

"I already bought a unit for you. You can use my place," Ryu said and smiled.

"Jinjja?!" I stood up and hugged him. "Thank you, Ryu!"

"Yeah, whatever." I looked at him and pouted. "Ya, Nakamoto."

"What?" Yuta faced him.

"Be better. We'll leave in three hours." He said. What? Is he fucking serious? "What? I'm serious. My plane is waiting."

"You're so rich. I can't even buy a plane." Yuta pouted. "Thanks for the concern, though. I appreciated it so much."

"You should."

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Tae has been bothering me the whole hour. I still have 2 hours before we leave. I want to go to him and apologize.

I stood up, "Sana! Where are you going?!" Ryu asked me and held my hand.

"I'm going to Tae. I want to apologize to him!" I grabbed my purse and ran towards the elevator. I want to go to him and ask him forgiveness. I don't care if I will be beaten up or what. I just want to say sorry.

I called Mina, "Hello?" She answered.

"M-Mina," I called her. I am outside the hospital. I am walking towards the bus station. "D-Do you know where Tae is?"

"He's on way his to the park by now." She said. "Why?"

"Thank you." I ended the call and rode the bus. I can't wait to see him.

I got off the bus and searched for Tae inside the park. There are so many people inside. A lot of kids running around and couples having fun. There are other people that came alone and I think they just want to be alone.

I felt light raindrops on my head. I looked up to the sky and it started to shower. I have no umbrella, nor this coat that I am wearing has a hood, so I searched for Tae faster.

People started going home because of the rain. I couldn't find him, not until I saw him ride a bus.

"TAE!" I yelled and tried to catch him. He didn't hear me. The bus moved on, so I did my best to catch Tae. I'm seeing him through the windows. He's leaning on it and there are no expressions painted on his face.

What kind of monster I have created inside him?

The rain poured heavily. I don't care if I look like some girl in a drama, catching her true love. People started looking at me. I ran with the bus until Tae gets off. I was about to go to him when a bunch of people rushed towards the entrance of the bus. They crowded Tae, causing me not to see him in the crowd. Even if he's tall, I can't find him with my eyes.

The bus once again left the station and I was expecting to see him, but he wasn't. I turned my head around and searched for him in the rain. He's wearing a trench coat, I am sure of that.

I looked around and then I saw him. He rode his motorbike that is parked in front of the convenience store.

I held my chest, I am really exhausted from running. I held to the post and yelled again, "Tae!" But he didn't hear me. He wore the helmet and rushed.

Even though that I feel like I am giving up, I followed him and I realized that he's going home. I tried catching a cab, but no one would take me because I am wet. From my head to my feet.

Luckily, Mark saw me. He assisted me as I ride his car. He's with Wendy, I suddenly felt embarrassed. I ruined their moment.

"What happened?" Mark asked me and continued on driving. "Where do you want to get off?"

"I-I tried catching Tae." I answered him. "C-Could you turn the air conditioner off?"

"Sure." He turned off the aircon. We stayed silent, probably because he knows that I'm not into talking.

"I'll get off here." I told him. He and Wendy looked at me. I gave them an assuring smile. "Thank you."

"Wait, Sana, I have an umbrella here--" I got off the car and ran towards the street where Tae's apartment is located.

And finally, I saw his motorbike infront of the building. Tiringly, I made me way infront of the building. I'm still wet because it's still raining.

The landlady opened up the gates with her mad face, "What are you doing here?!"

"I-I want to talk to Tae," I answered her. "Please." I begged her. I saw in her eyes that she felt symphatized from my look.

She opened the gate wider and I thanked her for that. I walked upstairs and made my way in front of his room.

My heart started beating abnormally fast because of the nervous. I raised my hand, preparing myself to knock.

This is it, Sana. No turning back.

I knocked and waited for him to open the door. I knocked three times more and then I saw him aggressively opened the door.

He looked at me with no expressions on his face. No one dared to talk.

"T-Tae," I tried touching him, but he stepped back. I heard my heart crack for the first time. "Talk to m-me, please?"

He snickered with sarcasm, "Why would I? Oh, you came back, why? To say sorry? Are you nuts, Sana? Do you think after hearing your apology I'll take you back again? Do you think I am that stupid and weak?" I lowered my head down. Tears raced down on my cheeks. "Why do you always leave me, huh? Am I that unlovable? You already made 2 attempts on trying to do it! And you're succeeding after every attempt! So I will never believe you and your apology anymore. You had broke me twice already. I will not accept you anymore."

"B-But..." I looked at him and wiped my tears. "...I will not stop, Tae. Y-You know that I will not stop from catching you."

He laughed sarcastically, "You're wasting your time. Go home. I don't want to see you ever again." He shut the door to my face and again, I was left crying outside his door.

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A/N: I would like to apologize for the 42nd chapter. Readers didn't like it and they are starting to get mad at Sana. I am terribly sorry for that. *sad face*

Also, I changed the book cover since Christmas time is near!

However, I think I can't update chapters that fast bcos of personal reasons + mental block.

Mianhae, if the chapter isn't good enough. I'll try to make a good one. Hehe ✌

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