SANA'S POV

I stared deeply in his glistening eyes. I let go of his collar that I wrinkled and lowered my face. This is such a shame. Why am I doing this? For him to love me back?

Wake up, Sana! He already said that he doesn't love you! Now, stop dreaming!

Go back to reality, Sana. The reality where you and him will never be together.

I sighed and wiped the escaping tears. You're being too pathetic, Sana. Stop dreaming that the two of you could still be together. There's no hope for the both of you.

I stood up and wore a fake smile, "Thank you for today, Taehyung." I said. He looked at me and held my hand. "Please let go of my hand."

"No, I'll hold your hand tight. I will never let go of it." I gulped. Why is he so stubborn?

"You'll get hurt." And I don't want him to get hurt. Especially if I'm the reason why.

"Sana," his voice is pleading. "I love you."

I froze. I looked at him. I don't want to believe him, "You're just forced to say that, Tae. You're just forced because of the kiss."

"This kiss?" He pulled my hand and my lips directly met his. I backed away. His lips are tempting me. "Look, Sana, do you think I will do this if I don't want to?" My mind went blank. I can't find any answer because what's he saying is fucking true.

He looked at my lips and bit his. I gulped because of the temptation I am feeling right now.

Why do I feel like I want more? This is not good, I should stay away from it-

"C'mon," his voice is hoarse and it's tempting me even more. He smirked and...

This is where all my innocence will be erased.

*

TAE'S POV

I looked at Sana who is sleeping by my side. Her body is covered with a blanket and the lipstick from her lips were removed. I can smell her scent inside my room.

I heard my stomach grumble. I'm hungry, I have not yet eaten lunch. Well, my lunch became Sana. I want to eat something besides her.

Naughty Taehyung.

I stood up and dressed up. I will buy some food. I took my wallet and went outside.

There is a near mart here. I will go there and make spring rolls. Or maybe some spicy food for the both of us. That's great, right?

*

"Thank you," I told the cashier and went back too the apartment. I figured out that I just want to cook. I opened my room's door and I was hugged by Sana as soon as I enter.

She's crying.

"T-Tae," I put the grocery bags aside and carressed her back. "I-I thought you left me."

I cupped her face and kissed the tears that are falling. It's salty. "I will never do that, Sana."

"You will never leave me?" She pouted.

I chuckled, "I will never do it."

"Then why are you outside? What did you do?" She asked and escaped from the hug.

"I want to surprise you when you wake up. So I bought some ingredients for the food I would want to prepare for you." I explained.

She cried harder and hugged me tighter. Okay, this is not the reaction I am expecting from her.

"Hey, why are you crying?" I asked her.

"Because... y-you're such a husband material." She told me while sobbing. I laughed softly because of her nonsense reason.

I cupped her face and kissed her nose, "I'll just cook. I will be back." She nodded and I went to the kitchen with the grocery bags.

I changed my clothes, but I didn't wear anything for the upper part of my body. I am much comfortable that way. I took the apron and wore it. I started cooking.

*

SANA'S POV

I seriously don't know what my problem is. It's just that... I don't know!

I rubbed my hands against my face because of frustration.

FLASHBACK

I woke up with my abdomen aching. It really hurts. I sat on the bed, but I noticed that I am naked.

Fuck.

I took the blanket to cover my body. I am nervous right now. I looked around the room and realized that Tae isn't here.

D-Did he run away from me?

Tears started to form in my eyes. Tae left me. So this is the feeling of being left. It hurts.

Tae has the right to be mad at me after all. For all of those years.

I stood up even though my abdomen hurts. The sheet has blood stain and after seeing that, I realized what I lost.

I cried harder. My legs weakened and eventually, I sat on the floor, crying. I look like an idiot.

Although it hurts, I made my way towards the bathroom and bathed. It took me a lot of time while showering.

After all of those, I'm still crying. Sometimes, I just sit and stare somewhere and cry.

Until I heard the door's creak and I Tae.

END OF FLASHBACK

Here I go again. I'm just staring somewhere, caring for nothing. I didn't even notice that Tae has been calling me for the nth time to eat.

"Are you alright?" He asked me and I nodded. "Let's eat?"

"Okay." I stood up and we walked towards the kitchen area. While we were eating, it's just him that is talking. He's asking me about some things and that's the only time that I get to talk.

Something's off.

"Something is not right." Tae said. "Are you really sure that you're okay, Sana?" I have been thinking lately.

What if I'll get pregnant? We used no pills or anything when we did that thing. What will Tae do if we ever find out that I'm pregnant?

It's not that I am confirming that I'm carrying a life inside me, but I'm just thinking of the possibilities that could happen.

Will he take me as his responsibility? Will he marry me for it, not for love? Would he be forced to marry me? Will he be mad and refuse to be a father?

"Sana, you're crying again." Tae said and wiped my tears. I looked at him sadly. "What are you thinking, huh?" He sat beside me and held my hand.

"I-If..." I trailed. "...you ever find o-out that I'll b-be pregnant, what will you do?" I can see shock in his eyes when I asked him that.

He chuckled, "I will thank God for giving me another princess." He then smiled. His answer overwhelmed me. "Well, are you?"

"N-No," I shook my head. "I-I just want to k-know if--"

"Stop doubting, Sana." He cut me. "I will always be there by your side. I will never try leaving you. I don't want to hurt you."

I hugged him and buried my face against his naked chest. "Thank you."

"Anything for my queen."

*

"Nakamoto," I called Yuta. I have something important to tell him.

"Good evening, Minatozaki. Why'd you call?" I'm hearing paper noise. I bet I disturbed him from reading contracts.

"Is there any chance that we could transfer the headquarters here in Korea?" I bit my lip while asking that. I've got this feeling again. The feeling of not leaving.

"Why?"

"I-I don't want to leave here anymore." I answered him honestly. Really, I don't want to leave. Tomorrow's my last day here and I'll be back in Japan in no time.

"What's keeping you from leaving?" History is repeating itself. This is almost the same question that dad asked me before. When I was in high school.

"You know who." I sighed. "Could we?"

"There's a lot to fix before transferring, Sana."

"It's fine. I'll wait. I just don't want to." I heard him sigh on the other line.

"Alright. I'll ask Ryu."

"Thanks, Yuta." I imagined him nodding before he hung up.

I felt guilty. A lot of paperworks will be fixed. It may take months, but it's alright. I just want to stay here... and be with Tae.

I can't afford losing him for the second time. I've hurt him enough. I don't want him to experience that again.

At that time, I also called my assistant to search for a free lot for the headquarters. And another lot for the house.

Okay, this is legit. I will live here in Korea. There is no turning back.

For your future, Sana.

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