I was again staring outside the window at the greenery of our college like for thousandth time today when our French teacher Ms. Adalyn was giving us lecture on our mistakes in the test. It was held on Tuesday after when all this shit happened with Charles and Sean.

I didn't swear ever. Why now? What the hell this place has done to me......?

I was running my hand in my hair in frustration for hundredth time today. What was happening was not good because of the distraction on that day I didn't score well in my French test and Ms. Adalyn was also furious with me because I was one of her A-one students. It looked like cheesy but I really liked it and now I made her furious. I really put all my efforts in my studies. No one was worth my attention except my studies.

Ms. Adalyn was in her late twenties. She had tanned skin with dark brown hair and sleek figure with long legs.

She was like every girl's dream in her twenties with all the natural beauty and intelligence. She had always been nice to me and always encouraged me and I really was thankful to her for that. And now because of that stupid distraction I had made her mad at me.

Not fair!

The bell rang and the lecture was over finally. All the students grabbed their things and walked out of the class as usual. When I was walking out of the class Ms. Adelyn suddenly called my name with her sweet melodious voice with some concern, "Scarlett Wait, I want to talk to you."

I instantly stopped and turned around to see her face. It was serious but the concern was there in her eyes. I was mad at myself for that but ready to listen even if I didn't want to.

I walked to her desk and stood in front of her.

"What is the matter with you, Scarlett?"She said with some concern.

"Nothing" I suddenly blurted out. It was too quick but I didn't want to discuss some 'guy problems' with my teacher. Note the sarcasm.

She looked at me with the look of disbelief but didn't say anything.

Instead she said, "If you ever need any help or want to discuss anything I'm always here to listen but don't let any problem suffer your studies. You know why you're here right? " And patted on my shoulder.

I was very grateful for her concern for me, caring and nodded and said thank you in return and walked out of the class.

It was already four days passed after my and Charles relationship and me and Sean's kiss. After the kiss I practically ran towards the Charles' car. He asked me I was okay or not, something's wrong but I said I was fine but actually I was not fine at all. I was on the verge of crying and shaking and fully nerve wrecked. But I controlled myself and when Charles dropped me at my apartment I didn't say anything and ran in to my apartment and cried on my bed for hours.

I didn't know why I was crying. Was it because of Charles or because of Sean? All the time I was thinking of Sean and Charles and my feelings for the both of them. I was more worried about Sean. Now he would be thinking that I always wanted to kiss him and all those moments we had in class were nothing. Would it be like that now? I didn't want to face him. I didn't even have that much courage to face and talk to him was not in my options now. So I decided not to talk to him at any cost.

I ignored him all these days. In cafeteria, in class. Even if I saw him in halls coming to my direction, I always changed my direction and tried to disappear like I didn't even exist on this earth.

Belle also saw the difference in me these days. She always tried to talk to me but I always changed the subject or just ignored her questions. I didn't want to tell her.... Not yet.

Charles was okay to me. In all these days, he did all those cheesy boyfriend stuff like those in movies and books. He said all sweet things like to compliment me in my ear and I always giggled even half heartedly but for his sake and walked with me to my lectures even if we had different lectures, kiss me on the cheek whenever saw me, ate lunch with me and picked and dropped me at my apartment. I didn't give much thought to these things. Instead of Charles, my mind was always engulfed with Sean.

I didn't know why but whenever I saw him in hall, in cafeteria, in lectures I really wanted to talk to him and wanted to apologize and wanted our friendship back where it was. I really missed talking to him these days. Even for a few minutes I wanted to talk to him. But I didn't have the courage so I just shut my mouth whenever he was around.

Today was Friday, so I was free for weekend and away from this mess. I couldn't wait to get away from this place right now. My mind was already tired from all this mess I had created.

In all these things in my mind, I didn't notice that I had attended my two lectures in daze and now it was my favorite and most torturing lecture of the day. Literature!

I was ten minutes early and the class was almost empty. I placed my books on my table and sat on my usual chair. Again I had to ignore Sean which was getting difficult day by day. I didn't want to ignore him. It was hurting me for sure. But I couldn't say same for Sean.

I didn't think he even noticed me for not talking to him. Eventually he was the famous boy of the college whom everybody wanted to talk. Why would he notice me?

Because he kissed you and maybe want to kiss you again?

Now I really thought my mind has gone mad. I was no one to Sean. So why would he want to kiss me again. He had Samantha with him and I had Charles. So I didn't want him.

Liar. You too want to kiss him and you know that very well.

I had attractions and crushes on the boys in high school so what even I had a small. Titsy-bitsy crush on Sean. It was just a mere attraction nothing else. I didn't know the guy so I would get over it in a week. It was nothing special.

At last, you accept it that u have a crush on that pretty boy. But I don't think it's just simple crush but you will see what I'm trying to say because you are too dumb to even understand me and listen to me....

My mind had really gone insane. It was no doubt now. I sighed in frustration on my own thoughts. It was also thinking it was smarter than me. Oh my God, now I was fighting with my own mind about intelligence. Man!! I got really messed up now.

I didn't notice that the whole class was filled with students till now when I was wandering in Scar world. Note the sarcasm really.

When the warning bell rang, the prince of the college entered. Guess who? Yeah you are right. Sean Kingsley who has really messed up my sane mind which is now insane because of him....

I sighed in frustration. He sat on his chair behind me. I didn't know what possessed me today but I actually looked at him when he was sitting at his chair. Usually I ignored him. But he didn't even take a glance in my direction. Ok I deserve it but it's not totally my fault. It's your fault too.

I groaned internally and then Mr. Walter started his lecture by informing us to read a new book from now on. I was so bored. I didn't think it would be so boring without Sean. The time when I started ignoring Sean, this class didn't remain interesting as it was. I thought the class seemed interesting to me because of Sean's stories.

Not fair!!

After a very boring hour, the class ended and the students were leaving the class as soon as the bell rang. Me and Sean were also leaving when Mr. Walter called us.

"Sean, Scarlett, Come here I want to talk to you both", Mr. Walter said with strict voice.

"Yes Sir", we both replied in unison. We both looked at each other. It was the first time after the kiss I really looked at Sean with this close. Our shoulders were brushing with each other and our hands brushed with each other a little which was giving me goose bumps. His eyes were blue but not that bright ocean blue which I saw when we kissed. His eyes had black bags beneath them which were looking like he hadn't properly sleep these days. His hair was also a mess. Not a good mess they always had been but a bad mess. It was not a good look for him. He was not in a good condition. I was wondering the cause of this look on him. He was not even looking like his usual self.

"What happened to both of you?" Mr. Walter said with a strict voice when he never used with us before. Our faces snapped in unison towards Mr. Walter. He was looking at us with frown.

"What do you mean, Sir?" we both said in unison with a confusing look. We both glanced at each other again.

"You both got B in your test. What is happening? I thought you both were one of my A-one students with a promising future." He said with some anger in his voice.

"And I see you both are not talking to each other. What's the matter? Is this the reason for your poor result? If it is then sort out all your problems and I don't want any poor result because of any childish reason. Got it?" he said with a frustrated tone.

We both looked at each other and at Mr. Walter sheepishly.

"Sorry Sir and yes Sir", we both said in unison again.

"Now dismiss", he said with a stern tone.

We both quickly left the class and didn't give a second glance to each other. I went towards my locker and Sean went towards the college exit. I tossed my things from locker to my bag and started walking towards the college parking where Charles was waiting for me in his car.

"Late again?" , Charles said with an amusing tone by kissing me on the cheek. I sighed tiredly.

"Mr. Walter", I said with a frustration tone.

"Ok ok", he said with an amusing tone with a smirk. I was really frustrated with this situation and now Charles was making me madder. I really wanted to erase that smirk on his face. It was so frustrating.

"Can we go now?" I said with some anger.

"Yeah, yeah", he said with hands in the air surrendering.

In the whole journey, Charles was silent and I was looking out of the window. I was thankful to him for comfortable silence. When we arrived at my apartment building, I kissed him on the cheek and said thanks to him.

When he disappeared on the road and entered my apartment building. By saying hello to the Jane, I entered my apartment room. I made sandwich to eat and started cleaning some mess in my apartment with some music on the radio for distracting myself from all this mess.

After 4 hours of cleaning and doing homework, Belle called me.

"Hi bitch", Belle said with a cheery tone.

"Hi Belle", I said with a sigh. My dear friend was really insane and it was also proven now. After 4 hours of trying to distract myself, I was not at all successful and here Belle was going to add something on already going on headache.

"You're free tomorrow!", Belle asked not like question but a statement.

"It was more like statement than question Belle", I said with another sigh.

"Yes, I know because we are going shopping tomorrow." She said with an excitement.

I hate shopping. It was not like I didn't want to go for it bit I was not in the mood and I didn't have money for it. I should have a job first. It was already month and a half since I came here and my money was also going to be finished. Dad was helping with my education but for this apartment I want to pay for myself.

"I don't want to go", I said with a softly.

"You are ignoring this for a week now Scar and now I don't want to hear anymore no's. So you just have to go with me tomorrow." She said with a strict tone.

I knew I was refusing this for a few weeks now but I couldn't go now because of money.

"I can't go Belle", I said with a sad tone.

"Why? Why can't you go? Tell me the reason. Quickly!" , she demanded.

"Belle, I don't have a job and no money now so I can't waste any more money on shopping. I'm sorry Belle but I can't go." I said with me a pleading tone.

"Oh, so money is the issue. No problem. I can pay for you. I really want to buy you a sundress now-a-days." She said.

"No Belle, I will not take your money. I will certainly not." I immediately refused.

"But I'm not asking you to take my money; I'm just asking you to take it as a gift from me. Don't friends give gifts to each other?" she asked with a questioning tone.

"Yes, they did. But..." I was again interrupted by my nosy friend.

"No buts, I'm going to buy you a dress and that's final. You just can't argue with me now." She said with an ordering voice which I don't like but can't deny it because I don't want to die young!!

Hush!!!

I sighed, "Ok, your highness. Do you want anything else?"

"Yes, you have to be ready at 10 A.M. sharp. And don't get late and don't get clumsy. I want my friend alive when I'll come pick her up at 10,"she said with an amusing tone.

"Ok, your highness. She will we ready for you and you only" I said going on with a joke in an amusing tone.

"Oh Scar, Don't get cheesy. You know how much I hate cheese" she said with a scrunching nose although I couldn't see her but I knew how much she hated cheese.

I laughed in reply.

"Ok see you tomorrow, Belle" I said with a smile.

"Bye. Don't dream too much of me" she said jokingly.

"Oh God then how will I sleep tonight!" I said in a dramatic voice.

"Oh don't be dramatic my dear Scar, you will soon find your Prince Charming." She said with her sweet laugh.

At this, the smiling face of Sean got in front of my eyes. I didn't know why but at this my heart started beating wildely.

His shining eyes, his genuine smile, they were all looking so right but so so much right

You like him. It's final.

I certainly not. My mind had gone insane. And yeah it was final.

"What happened?" the confused voice of Belle took me out of my reverie.

"Nothing, nothing," I quickly replied.

"So then bye?" Belle asked.

"Yeah, bye" I finally replied and hung up the phone.

I was certainly not thinking much pleasurable things.

Phew!!!

I sighed a long breath and starting preparing my dinner for myself. In an half an hour, I was done with my dinner.

Soon, I got in to my bed and thought of the day's events. It was hectic though. The face of Sean was coming again and again in front of my eyes. The look on his face on that day and today. There was so much difference in it. His face was so dull and sad today. I didn't know but I was feeling sad too and was thinking about the reason for it. But I couldn't point out what it would be? With all these thoughts, I got drifted away within deep sleep.

Next day, in morning, I got up late, it was already 9. But I didn't know I was feeling so tired last night. I quickly took the shower and got ready. I quickly went to the nearest coffee shop Blue Cafe which was few blocks away from my building where I always go and where I first met Sean. I blushed at the thought. I shrugged the thought and quickly got cheese sandwiches and a Frappuccino. I saw a notice on the bill board about a vacant job of waitress. I wanted a job too. This restaurant was also very famous and thy also knew me for some time now as a regular customer. It could have some benefit.

I quickly ate my breakfast and went back to my apartment for waiting for Belle.

At sharp 10, Belle was here in her car in front of my building and sent me a quick message. I quickly grabbed my things and a small purse and some money which I had left. I hoped it would be enough.

I quickly left my apartment and hopped in the Belle's car. She was looking as stunning as she always was. She was wearing light orange sun dress which was hugging her curves properly with the light brown wedges and a light side braid in the hair. She was looking perfect whereas me. I was wearing skinny black pants with a grey V- neck top and with worn out white black converse. Yeah simple. Couldn't help it. It was me.

"Hi sleeping beauty", Belle as usual greeted me.

"Good Morning, Princess", I said in British accent with a smirk.

She just smiled and said "And now we're off to mall."

"Yeah", I said with sigh thinking about money.

"Don't worry Scar. You're just over thinking this money issue. Ok?" she said with a sigh.

"Yeah, I know." I said in a defeated tone.

"So, All good?" she asked with thumps up.

"Yeah" I replied with a smile.

Then we were off to the mall. The mall was very big if you asked me. It was the most famous and expensive mall in NY. Belle parked her car in the parking lot and then we hopped out of the car. First we just did the window shopping. Then after an hour, we started the real shopping. I knew it was insane for an hour for window shopping but even Belle was very rich but she just didn't buy anything unless it caught her eye. So then she bought me that Sundress she was talking about on the phone last night. It was very pretty, elegant and classy.

It was yellow color sleeveless with high neck and a sweet bow on the waist. It was small skirt beneath the waist up to mid thigh. It was very cute. And when I put it on in the try room I fell in love with it. Belle squealed when I showed her. She was very proud of her choices. We bought that dress at once and Belle bought two dresses for herself. That Fashionista!! Then we bought some matching sandals and some handbags. I was having so much fun. I really forgot all my worries but I guessed I spoke too soon.

When we were heading to the next shop, I saw someone with some familiar blue eyes. He was also staring at me with blank face. Some blonde was with him who was pulling him to some nearby shop but he didn't budge and was continuously looking in this way.

I didn't know but my heart started beating loudly again on his sight. At the sight of that blonde, I felt some strange feeling in the pit of my stomach. It was a strange, very strange feeling but I didn't know what it was. I felt it for the first time.

Jealous!! You are jealous, you idiot!!

I was not an idiot but my mind was. Jealously!! No, it couldn't be jealously. How could it be? I didn't feel this when any girl flirted with Charles. Why? I didn't know. I knew it. It was just happening because of that stupid kiss.

But you enjoyed it. Stupid!!

I knew I enjoyed it and because of these stupid feelings I didn't want to regret it. I wanted it real but I couldn't because it was delusional. It was not even logical. Why would Sean choose me over Samantha? She was way better than me. And he could just have any girl like that Blondie.

No, I just should not think about it. This was all absurd. It was all pointless. I was Charles' girlfriend. So I should not over think it. I didn't what Sean was thinking about me in these days but if I just clear all these things to him that kiss was a mistake and it was meaningless. I didn't have any feelings for him so I could have some peace of mind. I could move on. It was possible. I should really do this.

Belle was also pulling me to go into next shop where we were heading but I really wanted to clear all these things to Sean. I should really talk to him. I told Belle to go on. I lied to her by saying that I just saw my old friend from San Francisco and I should talk to her. I would meet Belle in a minute or two. Belle just nodded and let go off my arm.

I started walking towards Sean. He was just staring towards this side. When I was walking towards him he said something to that Blonde and she just let go off his arm and walked away.

Sean started walking towards me. His face now was not that emotionless like before. Yesterday, he was also looking like zombie, dead. Today he was looking somewhat different. He was wearing a grey V-neck with black Leather jacket and black jeans. Yes, he was looking a titsy-bitsy hot. I should not think about it. But my heart was beating so fast. Why this thing couldn't control itself?

When we were in front of each other, I said with a nervous smile in a low voice, "Hi".

"Hi", he replied with a small smile but there was pain in his eyes I didn't know why.

"Can we talk?",I asked nervously playing with my fingers.

"Sure", he replied with a smile.

There was an ice cream parlor in front of which we were standing. I nodded towards Ice-cream parlor and we both started walking towards it. He didn't say a word about anything. We just sat on an empty table and ordered our ice cream. We both ordered a chocolate ice cream. I didn't know Sean also liked chocolate ice cream.

After giving order, I didn't know how to start the conversation but after taking in a long breath, I just ready myself to clear all the misunderstandings between us. The air was so tensed around us. I wanted it to go away. I want my old easiness around Sean and his smile. I really missed that smile these days which was always there whenever he told me any story and that sparkle in his eyes, I really missed it.

"I wanted to talk to you for a while." I said in a nervous voice.

"Hmm" Sean replied in a low voice.

"About Monday..." I said in a low voice. My heart was hammering against my rib cage like it was going to come out but I had to say these things to clear the air around us.

"About kiss, I'm really sorry about that" I said after half a second looking at the table. When I looked up towards Sean's Face, there was something in his eyes and at the mention of the kiss, his facial expressions also changed. I didn't know what it was. I couldn't quite put a finger on it. His body was also get tensed.

"I didn't know what I was doing..." I was saying when Sean interrupted me.

"No, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have done that. I didn't know what I was thinking." He was saying when the waiter came to give us our ice-creams.

After eating ice cream for a minute, I continued, "No, I'm sorry. I was not thinking straight that day too. So, it's my fault too. That kiss was a mistake." I felt a little pain in my heart at this statement. Why? Didn't know.

Because it was not a mistake. You liked it. You like him. So don't be stupid.

I really should ignore my mind. It had gone mad, totally.

"I'm also sorry for my behavior in these past days. I was acting like a kid. I shouldn't avoid you. I didn't know why I was doing it." I continued shrugging that stupid thought.

"No, it's ok. No problem." He said with a smile but it was not reaching to his eyes. In these past days, I hadn't seen Sean smiling at all. He had this same dull expression all the time. But something was not right in his smile. I couldn't put a finger on it. His eyes were saying something else. They were looking sad as compare to his eyes. It was weird though I didn't know why.

"I really am sorry. But I really want to say Literature was also getting so boring these days without your stories." I said shyly. I didn't know why I said it but my face got red with embarrassment. I shouldn't have said that I guessed.

"Me too, actually" Sean replied by scratching back of his neck. He had this pink color on his cheeks. Oh, he was embarrassed.

I started laughing at this. Then Sean joined me too.

We laughed and were looking at each other while eating our ice creams.

After eating ice cream, I said, "ok, then Bye."

"Bye. See you at college" he said with his genuine smile. Now it was reaching to his eyes. The air was so light around us now. Now the weight had lifted off my heart. I was feeling so easy.

I waved at Sean and went back toward that shop where I left Belle. I didn't know how much time had passed but when I arrived where Belle was, her face got all red. She was angry.

"Where the hell were you?" she snapped.

"Uh... I was talking to... my friend. That friend I was talking about you" I stuttered with nervousness. She was looking really scary.

"I'm sorry. It really get late." I said in a low voice.

"Yeah, yeah. Don't worry. We should eat something now." She waved his hand dismissively.

I nodded and then we went for something to eat. After 4 hours of shopping, Belle dropped me off at my apartment. After sometime sitting alone in my apartment, I remembered about the job in Blue Café. I took my resume and went to apply for a job.

Luckily, no one had applied for it and I got the job very quick. They asked me very basic questions like my name, what I was doing, where I lived, what I knew about the job. They told me about some instructions for the job and about my work hours. I had to do 5 hours shift a day starting at 4 pm. I agreed and they also told me about my pay. It was enough for paying out my bills. It was based on an hour payment. And the dress for job was also suitable to me. A white shirt with black tie and black pencil skirt. I could wear it with black heels. It was Ok not so fancy like other coffee shops and it was also nearby to my apartment. So in the end it was a win-win situation. I could start from Monday. I thanked them in the end and went back to my apartment.

At 9 pm, after doing chores of the house, studying and some writing, I prepared myself some dinner and quickly went to bed.

I thought about today events. About the shopping, about Belle, about my new job, my studies and about Sean. With his smiling face in front of my eyes, I drifted away in deep sleep with a smile on my face.

So yeah guys as I promised.... Hi again and I'm so sorry for this late update. I know its my fault but because of college and studies, I couldn't concentrate and because of some silly writer's block it all become worst. So I'm sorry. And the song above I guess match to this situation of Scar and there is also a pic of Scar's dress. And plzz guys I entered into Wattys so plz vote and comments...... and plz try to promote it too. I know its embarrassing to say it but plz plz.............thanks again and what do you think happen next? Give your suggestions in the comments. Excuse my grammer so yeah..... thnks for ur patience and I love u allllll.......... Muahhhhhhhhhhhh

~Stela~