Sean's POV:-

It was lunch time and I was usually sitting in cafeteria on our usual table when the doors of cafeteria opened and I saw her. I furrowed my bros in confusion when I saw her with Charles hand in hand.

Then it struck me, she was with him now. When they entered, all eyes were on them. Some girls were even giving death glares to Scar as Charles hand was on her waist. Charles was the famous jerk of the college with whom every girl wants to lay down. So it was obvious.

But this thing was not bothering me as much as the feeling that was arising in me was.

It was a very weird feeling that I had never felt before. It was a very bitter feeling and anger was all there in me. I didn't know why I was even angry to this scenario. I didn't know what was happening to me.

You are jealous you idiot!!

No, but I couldn't be jealous. Why would I be jealous?

Because you like her!

No she was just a friend or even not that I guess. We hadn't talked outside the literature class but I really liked talking to her. It just gave me a warm feeling every time I talked to her. But I didn't know why?

I just shrugged this thought because my inner voice could be dumb as any person who could think shaving cream as an eating cream. Seriously Yuck!!

When they both passed beside my table, I felt my anger was at its peak because I warned Scar that Charles was not a good guy. Ok, not literally but I gave her the hint. I should have just told her because I didn't feel right the way he looked at Scar. Something was definitely wrong and I had the feeling that it was gonna be proved right soon.

They usually sat their table in the corner of the cafeteria and everyone was staring at them but I guess they didn't bother it.

But this feeling of anger and restlessness was something new and I was confused. Because I had never given this type of attention to any other girl like Scar. Because she was different from any other girl and my feelings towards her were again so different.

My best friend Ronny Mcfield tapped at my shoulder. He was my childhood friend. Blond with brown hazel eyes and 6 feet tall with a body like mine. He knew me from in to out completely.

"What's wrong buddy?", he said with a frown after seeing my expression on seeing the newest couple of the college.

"Nothing, bro", I lied easily because I myself couldn't understand my feelings.

"Are you sure?", he said with concern in his voice.

"Yeah man, I'm fine", I said in low voice.

He knew something was off but he knew I would tell him when I would be ready.

My appetite was lost and I was not in the mood of eating. I just walked out of the cafeteria in the ground where cool wind was blowing to clear my mind.

I sat on the bleachers and thought what was going around me. This feeling was new I was sure of that. I just had to find its solution. But my anger was not going down whenever the scene of their holding hands came in front my eyes. It was just so frustrating seeing them like this. I didn't know why but totally frustrated.

I sat there for some time when the bell rang that the lunch was over and I didn't even eat much.

Lectures after lunch went in blur. I was zoned out in every class and some I didn't even bother to attend. That frustrating feeling was there all along.

Then came the last lecture of the day which I was not in the mood to attend but I had to. I didn't know why but had to.

When I entered in the class, everybody was as usual sitting on their seats. Scar was there on her seat reading a book. I guess she didn't notice I was there. When I walked by her seat to sit on my chair, she looked at me tried to smile but I didn't respond. I just simply walked by her seat and sat on my usual chair behind her.

I saw some pain and confusion in her eyes but I couldn't respond to her. I just couldn't. My anger was so big at that time that I couldn't even realize I was hurting her.

The whole lecturer we didn't talk at all like usual. I was zoned out all time. My frustration was there all along. Even if I tried to talk to her, her picture with Charles came to my mind I just stopped everything I was going to do.

Was this feeling jealousy? I didn't think that was it. Why would I be jealous? I didn't even like her. She was not my type.

I was the bad boy. I really liked to do illegal things, annoy everyone. I didn't even listen to anyone. My ego was everything and there she was. So shy, kind, humble. Always helping everyone with Down to earth nature. Always in books. Totally opposite.

You like her Man! And that what you are feeling is Jealousy. Even if you don't accept it this will always be there. So just don't exaggerate it. Don't think too much!! Accept it. Be a Man!!

The bell rang and the lecture was over. I walked out of the class without even glancing towards her direction but suddenly I felt guilty. It was not her fault I was like this.

I didn't like the thought to not talk to her. She made my day better whenever we talked, made me happy. I didn't know why but there had always been a feeling of warmth whenever I saw her smile, her voice, that excitement in her eyes whenever I told her a new story. I always felt different around her.

I went into the direction of her locker. I knew she always went there after college for her things which were in locker.

I waited for her at her locker and stood beside her locker by leaning against the wall. When I saw her coming, I felt a little self conscious and gave her a small weak smile hoping to say I was sorry for my today's behavior and she suddenly return that smile with her genuine sweet smile which I really liked to watch if I got to see her everyday first thing in the morning, already saying she forgave me, like it was not a big deal.

One second, I just said I want to see her everyday first thing in the morning, why?

My face automatically lighted up and I felt there was a very big smile on my face. I didn't know why but now I was feeling light weighted like there was no tension now.

It was weird that we could talk without even saying a word always. I really liked it. It was fun but weird too but I shrugged the thought.

I saw her walking towards me. When she arrived near her locker her foot slipped. My body automatically responded and in quick seconds I held her strongly in my arms like she was a delicate piece and if I lose a bit she would break. Her head was touching the locker but was not fully supported on them.

Our faces were so close than ever. My heart was beating so fast like it was running in the marathon. Her lips were some inches away that I could feel her sweet breath on my face.

Her eyes were of dark chocolate color which were looking at me straight with so much emotions in them which made my heart race faster than ever if that was possible like I would die with heart attack right now.

Her soft pink lips were so beautiful that I thought I had never seen something that beautiful in my life. Her face was becoming red with the passing time which made her cheeks blush so hard, making her so beautiful that I couldn't even take my eyes away from her for a second.

I didn't know how much time we stood there like that. Suddenly I heard a sound from my back and I suddenly felt a jerk on my body like someone had bumped into me but he didn't see us and went there back from where he came.

But because of his push what happened next was not expected at all. No one was around.

When he bumped into me, our lips which were inches away were now pressed on each other. Her lips were so soft against mine.

I was really surprised first. My mind went blank like I didn't know what to do next. But the urge to taste the lips was there always when I first saw her in the coffee shop.

My lips automatically started moving against her like they had their own mind. My eyes got shut and softy I initiated the kiss and all the emotions were there in it which I felt for her from the very first day. The kiss was soft, gentle, happy, sad, and somewhat jealous from the morning, urgent, love. It was all there in it which I ever felt for her.

Wait, did I say love? No it can't be. How it's even possible? I never fell in love with anyone before.

Then at that very moment, I realized something which was there always but I didn't want to accept it. I really fell for this shy, nerdy but sweet Scar. My Scar!!

Scar didn't respond first. I fell someone had punched me in the stomach so hard. That feeling of rejection was so worst like she didn't want to kiss me back. I was going to pull back but at that instant, she started kissing me back with same force and passion.

Every emotion was there in it. Our lips were moving in sync. Her hands went into my hair which was giving me so pleasure I had never felt before in my life. My grip on his waist got tighter like she was gonna disappear in any moment but I would not let her go.

I licked her lower lip asking for entrance. She didn't protest and did what I wanted her to do. our tongues were moving in their rhythm like they knew what to do.

Then she moaned in my mouth which filled my insides with unrecognizable warmth. She suddenly got embarrassed for what she did which made smile against her lips.

A strange sensation of happiness and warmth was going through my body which I never felt before. We stood there like that forever. It was feeling like everything had stopped and we are alone in this world for each other. I didn't know how much time had passed.

When I pulled back and our lips got apart, I was already missing the warmth of her lips already against mine. When I looked into her eyes, she was looking back into mine. We were both heavily breathing and our foreheads were resting on each other. My heart was very loudly beating in my rib cage like it was gonna come out at any instant.

Her face got redder like she realized what we did and where we did it and I knew she was embarrassed because she was a good girl and I was a bad boy.

But suddenly her expression change from pleasure to pain which made me so worried. Her eyes suddenly filled with tears. I cupped her small face with my hands to ask her what was wrong but she just shrugged them ran away in the opposite direction.

I tried to stop her but I was so shocked at that very moment. Did I do something wrong which I shouldn't? Why there was pinch of guilt in her eyes in the last? Should I not kiss her?

What would she be thinking right now that I was man-whore, a bad boy who just wanted to toss all girls around me? Was she thinking that I was using her like any other girl?

I kissed her even if I was in relationship with Samantha. Now she would be definitely thinking I was some jerk just wanted to kiss her from the very start and the conversations we had was all fake. Nothing was real. My friendship, my feeling, my concern for her was all fake.

I stood there running hands in my hair in frustration. What I had done.

The night was already there when I arrived home. I was not in the mood of going in. My home was as usual like any other rich body in the town. White, big mansion with everything big. Big gardens, big garage, big rooms, big backyard.

When I was sitting in my car in garage, my phone vibrated with a message of Ronny on it. He was talking about some party in some guy's house in across the street which I really needed at that moment to forget all these thoughts and feelings and just enjoy for a moment.

When I arrived at the party house after an hour, the party was already going insane. Everybody was drunk. Some were making out on the front door. Some were already passed down in the lawn and some were dancing on the beats of music.

When I entered the front door, people greeted me with their usual hellos and bro greetings. But today I was not in a mood to respond to anyone. I was already filled with my own thoughts and worries.

I straight went to the kitchen and brought a bitter taste drink to my lips. It really had a bitter taste which was not good for health I guess but who cared. But it filled some warmth in me.

After some minutes, I was already down 4 glasses of that beer and totally drunk but could stand on my feet. Ronny came to me with a worry expression. He knew I never drank this much until there was something serious going on inside my head.

He patted at my shoulder.

"What's up, Man?", he said with a concern look.

I shrugged his hands from my shoulder saying, "Nothing Man."

He knew I was lying. "Man, if don't open your shitty mouth in two minutes then you are going straight to you home in front of your parents and you know how they react when they see you in this condition." He said with his dirty smirk on his dirty face. I really wanted to punch this guy on his face right now if he didn't my best friend.

I knew I just couldn't hide anything from him and now I was drunk I had the courage to admit feelings to anyone except her.

I started in low voice so no could her us,"I have fallen for some girl, man. I don't know how. Sean Kingsley doesn't fall for anybody. Everybody fall for Sean Kingsley." I started blabbering when Ronny stopped with a hand signaling to just shut up.

"Is that Scarlett?", he said with an obvious tone. I looked at him with shock. How did he know?

Before I asked another question, he patted at my shoulder and said," It was obvious, man. Whenever she is around you act really differently and the way you look at her is like a kid waiting so long for his ice cream. I know at the very second you talked to her a month before but you didn't knew your feelings then so it is good now you admit your feelings."

"But she is with someone else, man and I know she really likes him.", I said in the tone defeat after remembering Scar's impressions after our kiss.

"I don't think that, man. A flinch of hesitation was there today in her eyes when she entered the cafeteria. The way she looks at you is so different then the way she looks at Charles. It does not gonna last and you know that, man. That guy is just a dickhead who know how to take advantage of these types of girls. You just have to be careful if you want to save your girl." He said with some concern in his voice.

I nodded at his statement.

My girl... it feels so right to hear that.

I was totally drunk at the end of conversation between me and Ronny. Even if he said some positive things but the hurt in her eyes which I saw today was somewhat different which were inflaming my anger and frustration now.

I knew that when I was in anger, I could do anything. Anything means anything.

So with the fury in my eyes, I took a hand of a girl from the dance floor I didn't know who and started dragging her towards one bedroom. She was so drunk that she didn't even protest.

I went into one of the bedrooms on the first floor with my burning anger and frustration and put her on the bed. I threw my shirt off in one go and when I bent on her to kiss her.

Suddenly, the innocent eyes and the innocent look on her face came to my senses. That girl really had corrupted my mind. Totally! That sweet Scar....

Now I couldn't have even sex with anyone. I immediately pull myself away from that girl on the bed and starting putting my shirt. I ran fingers in my hair in frustration. That girl looked at me in confusion.

I quickly went out of the room with my hands in hair. When I reached downstairs, Ronny was looking at me in shock.

"Wow, man. She really got into your mind. You really fell head over heels for her", he said in a high pitched voice like a melodramatic girl.

I slapped at the back of his head." Shut up, you dickhead.", I said rolling my eyes.

"Wanna have a ride for home, I'm sober you know." He said with a smirk knew that I really need to get out of this place.

After some minutes, I was in Ronny's Black BMW going home. I was looking outside the window on the pitch black road and was thinking about today's events.

One thing was sure that I fell for that girl which I least expected ever. But what if she didn't feel the same way. What if she really had feelings for Charles? What if Charles is better for her than me?

All these doubts were lingering around in my mind but one thing was sure that now I couldn't stop loving Scar even if she wouldn't feel the same.

Yeahh..... I'm back guys and yeah I'm late too. I really wanted to write Sean POV for a while so here it is... I hope you'll like it. Excuse for the mistakes. there is a song of one direction above which I know you all know and there is picture of Ronny on the right...... so plz vote and comment..... I really need you support here..... I started feeling a few days ago that I should stop writing because there is not much response but I hope in future I'll get............... so my Sweet piessss...... we will meet again in few days..... till then enjoy reading....

Muaahhhh.....

~Stela~