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"I really like you, Scar. Will you be my girlfriend?"

**************Chapter-4*************

I was caught off guard at the moment. I didn't realize what he said for some moments. But when I brought to my senses, my eyes got widened to the extent where they were going to come out of my sockets.

I didn't know how to respond to his sudden confession. He was just a friend to me. I didn't even think about him that way. It was so sudden. We just met a month before.

My heart was beating so hard in my chest and I got so nervous in an instant. My hands started sweating. The feeling of rush and panic entered in to my body.

What should I do? He is my good friend though. But I don't feel for him the way I feel for Sean.... Wait!! How the hell he comes into this conversation? Shit! I'm nobody to him so why I am thinking about him at this crucial time?

I didn't know what the hell my inner voice was thinking at this time but thinking about Sean made my face blushed so hard. I sure was looking like a strawberry at this moment.

Charles was staring at me like to know what was going on in my mind. He was standing four feet distance from me waiting for my reaction but I was standing there silently panicking thinking how to respond to Charles without hurting him.

But after the silence of five minutes, we both opened our mouths together to say something and we both gave a small nervous laugh to each other on our stupidity.

Then he gestured with his hand for me to continue first.

"I....I need some time Charles to think about this. I hope you don't mind." I said stuttering with my pleading eyes.

"Don't worry, Scar. If you want to take some time to think it's all yours. I don't want to force you into this. Even if you say no I don't want to ruin our friendship. I want to be your side forever." He said it all ease and grace. He had his genuine smile and his body was relaxed.

When I saw his eyes, I saw something dark but it was suddenly replaced with light and smile.

I am thinking too much I guess.....

We both said goodbyes to each other as he walked with me to my apartment after our small talk.

When I entered my apartment I sighed very heavily with relief and tiredness. Today's day was not that good. First Sean and then Charles. What had gotten in everyone's head?

I changed myself in a loose sweats and a loose triple sized t-shirt of SpongeBob. I really loved it. I cooked some dinner for myself as I was not feeling that much hungry but I had to eat to live.

Yeah for some torture which I'm gonna get at college tomorrow!!!! Uhhhhh.....

The night flew very fast. All night I was thinking about Charles and his proposal but Sean always popped in that. Always!!. I didn't know why I was thinking about him. But whenever I thought to accept the proposal, some strange feeling in my gut arose. I didn't know it was bad or good but something was there which I didn't know yet.

The morning was there before I even realized it. All night I couldn't sleep properly. But thanks to this I had prepared my mind what I was gonna say to Charles, what would be my answer.

I hope everything would get alright today in college but a small teeny tiny voice was saying today would be a huge day for me.

I shook my head and tried to think positive and shrugged that thought.

In all this mess, it was already 8 o'clock on the clock and I had to hurry. I didn't want to late for college. I had half an hour walk to college.

My thoughts were again going to the same direction, my answer to Charles. I was thinking of giving him a chance though. I knew he was a good guy as he had been very nice and sweet to me from the very start. Shouldn't I give a chance?

No and you always think about Sean like that way not Charles......

This stupid voice!!! Why it even answered.

Cause u asked idiot!!!

Arghh... I was not gonna think about this stupid voice and I was gonna give chance to Charles.

(Fist in the air with determination)

In no time I was standing in front of college building with a lump in my throat and nervousness in my gut. My hands again started sweating. It was such a horrible feeling.

But I controlled myself and entered in the college hallway, started walking towards my locker. My decision was already final but I didn't wanna meet Charles yet. But for these types of things to happen u should have luck on your side and mine was not definitely on my side.

As I arrived at my locker, Charles was already leaning against the wall beside my locker and was looking at the floor with deadly eyes if you asked me.

I hesitantly opened my locker and started placing my books in my backpack. Charles stood there all silent as if he didn't notice I was there.

But when I shut my locker with bam he suddenly looked up at me with the wide eyes like I had given him a heart attack.

I know I'm awesome hehe....

I tried to ignore him while controlling my laughter. He made a 'What the hell' face and I just couldn't control my laughter.

But I didn't stop and started walking towards my class. He was following me with four feet distance like glaring at me nonstop.

When I turned to corner of the hall there I saw my living nightmare coming to me. Guess who? Yeah yeah....Samantha London.

"Hey Bitch" She said with her dirty smirk which every guy of the college thought was hot and sexy.

I didn't know what they saw in this bitch literally.

When Charles saw why I stopped at the corner, his face became all cold and dark.

"What do you want Bitch?" he said in his cold tone to Samantha which was enough to give me chills in spine.

I was wondering how she was even standing there with her confident look with hands on her hips.

"Now she is your new toy?" She said with her dirty smirk in a sarcastic tone.

I tilted my head with 'huh' expression. I didn't understand what she was talking about.

"What do you want?" he said again with a cold tone.

"You should improve your choices Charles" she said by pointing at me sarcastically.

Charles didn't reply to her and grabbed my hand and pulled me in the direction of my class. I didn't understand but I didn't protest after seeing Charles angry face.

We were standing in front of my class.

"I'll meet you in the cafeteria", he said without even waited for my reply and walk away.

I had a confused look as I was entering the class. When I sat on my chair, I was really snapped by questions from my bestie, Belle.

"What with your face today? Huh..."She said in a commanding voice.

"And what happened yesterday with you and Charles?" she continued.

"Did he say something wrong to you? Huh..." she said with an annoying voice.

"Calm down dragon. I don't want to see this college burning in flames right away in the morning" I said sarcastically.

She rolled her eyes on my reply.

"Now tell me what happened and why your face is like this", pointing at my face.

I rolled my eyes and said," I will tell you everything after the lunch when I will have a talk with Charles and you will have to listen to me patiently."

She made a 'why' face and had a scowl but seeing my frustrated face she nodded like 5 year old kid.

After this everything went like a blur. I didn't even realize bell for lunch had already rung.

When I entered the cafeteria, I was already dragged by Charles out of the cafeteria. I tried to ask him where we were going but he didn't utter a word.

We entered an empty classroom where no was gonna entered for at least 50 minutes so we were gonna be alone for that much time and this was already going me insane. Charles locked the door behind him.

I gulped nervously and my hands were already started sweating. I was mentally hyperventilating at the thought of what was going to happen.

Then Charles said with a soft expression and relaxed voice," What's you answer then?"

He was looking here and there, not directly in my eyes looked like he was nervous too like me.

I took a deep breath and took a step towards him. He took another step towards me. in a moment we were standing in the middle of the class. The lights in the classroom were very dim so we couldn't see each other's faces properly.

I held his hands in my hands and looked straight in his eyes. There was some fear, hope, hurt all mixed in his eyes. But I held my courage and starting speaking patiently.

"Yes", I said. It was like a mere whisper. I didn't think even Charles had even heard.

"What?" he said with a confused look. As I expected he didn't even heard what I said.

You are a moron u know that. You should not do this. You don't have feelings for him. You are just being nice. It's not bad if you reject him. It will be painful but not that much when he knew you don't feel same for him.

Again my wisdom voice was kicking him. I ignored it and remind myself which I had already decided in mind.

Charles shook my hands to snap me out of my thoughts as I was zoned out for a minute.

"Are you alright?" he said with some concern in his voice.

I felt some warmth and shook my head and said," I'm alright"

"So what were you going to say?" he said impatiently.

"I was saying that yes I'm willing to give you a chance. A chance to us if it's possible. I really hope this all will work out because you are a very nice guy and my best friend too. I fully trust you so I thought it can work out between us." I said with a small smile and with a hope in my eyes. I was seeing directly in to eyes.

When I finished, I saw happiness, excitement, hope, in his eyes. But for a bit I saw a hint of darkness in them but I ignored it.

I am thinking too much.

I mentally shook my head.

Surprisingly, Charles pulled me into a tight cute bear hug and picked me up in the air and moved me around the room very happily like a kid had got his candy. I was happy seeing him like this.

After putting me down on my feet. He suddenly kissed me on my cheeks which made me blushed so hard that I knew I was looking like a cherry and my heart was beating so hard in my chest.

"Thanks. I will not let you down." He said in my ear in soft voice and looked straight in my eyes.

I smiled warmly at him which he returned with a full grin on his face.

He interlaced his fingers in my fingers and started walking out of the class.

We walked towards the cafeteria and when we opened the door of cafeteria, everybody was looking at us straight.

I really got nervous at that time. Charles put his hand on my waist and gave me a warm smile after seeing my nervousness.

While we passing through the benches, everybody was looking at us. Some girls were also glaring at us and making very scary faces at me if you asked me. Horrible!!

We walked to our usual table where Belle was sitting looking at us with a smirk giving me an 'I knew it' face. I blushed on her expression. She laughed very hard seeing my expression.

Everything after that went very smooth. We as usual did all the chatting on our table and Charles was being nice and cute which was making me blush from time to time as Belle was passing me glances with her flirty smirk all the time.

All the lectures after that went very fast. Time was looking like someone had pressed the flash forward button.

I know my imaginations....

My mind always kicked in these types of situations.

The last lecture was also over. Everybody was going out of the class to their lockers then I saw Sean. Sean was so distant today. He was not in his usual self today. He didn't even say hi. No smile even. I was worried what happened today to him that he was so sad but I didn't ask him

It's all your fault you idiot. He is always different around you. Why you didn't notice it. He likes you idiot... he is upset because of you relationship with Charles. The news had already spread in the whole college like a fire. So why do you think there will be another reason.

My mind could be insane sometime. It couldn't be true. He couldn't like me. He was so famous, bad boy of the college. Why would he even like me? It was all in my mind. I shrugged the thought and went out of the class.

Charles told me to meet him after the college in the parking lot. He wanted to act like a nice boyfriend but I told him he didn't need to but he didn't listen to me and told me in a commanding voice that he would drop me at my apartment and also picked me up in the morning instead of Belle.

When I was walking towards my locker, Sean was leaning on the wall beside it looking at me already with a small weak smile like was already saying sorry for his today's behavior. I smiled back warmly like it was not a big deal. Then I saw his face which was all dim a while ago lighted up and he had a very big smile on his face.

I didn't realize ever that how we could even talk without saying a single word like he could hear me and I could hear him just with our minds. It was fun but suspicious too. But I didn't give it a much thought.

As I reached my locker my foot slipped because of slippery floor and Sean in quick seconds hold me in his strong muscular arms. I didn't realize before that his arms were so strong and toned properly like these were made in heavens. OH GOD!!!

He was holding me in his arms against the lockers. My head was touching the lockers but my body was not fully supported on lockers. My face became all red in seconds. My face was so hot. The warmth of his arms was giving me tingling sensations and my body was heated up.

Our faces were so closed. Some inches apart. Our eyes were seeing directly into each other. His eyes were full of emotions that I couldn't understand. There was hope, warm, care, hurt, anger, happiness, love.

Wait did I say love? No no... It can't be. I am making a mistake. It can never be love.

I mentally shrugged that thought was again looking in his deep blue eyes which attracted me at the very first time.

We stood in that same positions for a very long time I thought. The hall was empty until then.

Suddenly somebody bumped on the back of Sean and didn't realize we were standing there in that position. The college was almost empty. He went in the same direction from where he came.

But because of him what happened was not expecting at all. No one was around.

When he bumped into Sean, he was pushed forward and our lips which were few inches a while ago were now pressed on each other.

Sean had a surprise look on his face. My eyes got widened but in a few seconds my eyes got closed automatically like they knew what to do.

Sean gently initiated the kiss. It was so soft, gentle, nervous, desperate, happy, sad, and urgent.

Everything was in there. At first I didn't respond because of this sudden moment. I sensed some hurt in Sean actions. My mind automatically went blank.

I couldn't think what to do, How to respond to this. But my lips started moving itself like they had a mind of their own.

Our lips were moving in sync. My hands automatically went into the Sean's smooth chocolate hair and his grip on my waist got tighter.

He licked my lower lip asking for entrance and I didn't protest and did it the way he wanted. Our tongues were moving in sync and perfectly. It was giving me so much pleasure that I moaned in his mouth which made me more embarrassed and blushed.

Sean smiled against my lips like he already knew how much I was getting embarrassed. His body was also getting hot. My stomach was full of butterflies. No, not butterflies. It was like the whole freaking zoo had been released in my stomach.

The feeling was like I had never felt in my life before. It was like no one existed in this world except us. We kissed I didn't know for how much time but it was looking like forever.

When Sean pulled back and rested his forehead on mine, we both were breathing heavily like the whole air was knocked out of me.

His lips were all swollen and he was seeing directly in to my eyes. His eyes had so many emotions in them that I couldn't understand.

But when I realized where we were and what we did, my face got more blushed as if was possible. My heart was pumping so hard in my chest that I couldn't hear anything else except my heart.

But when my mind thought about Charles, a sudden pain arose in my chest like someone had hit me with a dagger in my chest. It was so painful that today I accepted him and the same day I kissed another guy.

Tears welled up in my eyes at the thought and Sean's face had changed from smile to worry. He cupped my face with his hands but I shrugged them away and ran away from him to get some fresh air. I didn't want to face him. He knew I was in a relationship but again I kissed him.

He would think I was a slut who only wanted to hang around all the famous boys of the college even If I was not hot and sexy compared to all the hot chicks of the college.

I went in to the washroom and locked it. I saw my reflection in mirror. My lips were all red and swollen from the kiss.

I touched them with my shaky hands.

My first kiss!! My first kiss was Sean Kingsley.

Hey guys....., I am back. I know I am late but I hope u will like this chapter. I put all my heart and soul in this chapter as it was my favorite as u knw now why. It took so much time to write it but it's done now. I hope u'll like the song in the link. I thought it matches with the Scar's situation.... And plz vote and comment nd wat do u think will happen next....guess?? but i have surprise........ If u have any suggestions then plz tell me......... thnx and enjoy.....

~Stela~