[TRIGGER WARNING: Cursing]

I woke up feeling warm. I felt like I was wrapped in a hug. Then I opened my eyes and realized I was in a hug and my face was only a few centimeters away from the other half, Will Solace. 

My cheeks went red. "W-Will?" I whispered. My boyfriend stirred. "Huh...?" He said, "Nico?" Then his eyes got wide as he realized how close we were, but he didn't pull away. (Which I didn't really mind too much.)

"D-Did I sleep here the whole night?" He asked.

"Uhmm... Yes." I replied. At first I was too sleepy to figure put why Will was in my cabin but then the memories of last night came flooding back. I pushed myself away and sat up quickly. "I'm sorry!" I said, rather loudly.

"What?" Will said, "Why are you sorry?"

"Last night, I didn't mean to act like that and I didn't want you to see me like that, so I'm sorry about... All that..." The events of last night were flooding my mind. Would I have to explain things to Will? I didn't even know how to explain them! ... What would he think of me if I told him?

"Nico," Wills eyes softened, "You weren't feeling good. I want- I need to know when you're like that so I can help."

"But these are my problems and I don't want to put them on anyone, especially you."

Will put his hand on my shoulder, "You aren't forcing them on me, I want to know what they are. What's bothering you?"

"I... You wouldn't understand, and I feel like it would effect us strongly, and it's hard- really hard- to understand-"

 "Nico. Please, talk to me. I wont get mad, whatever the cause may be. I just want to help."

I looked down. I was panicking internally. I had 1,000 thoughts racing around my mind. 

"Please, Nico, you're my boyfriend-"

Boyfriend  "No! I'm not!" As soon as the words left my mouth I realized how terrible it must have sounded.

Will pulled his hand away. "W-...What? I... Am I the one making you feel... A-Am I c-causing t-this?" 

I tried to answer, "W-Wait, I didn't mean- I sorry I-"

"No." Will cut me off, tears forming in his eyes, "I'm sorry." He ran out my cabin.

I sat there too shocked at what just happened to do anything else. "...Will?" I asked as if that would make this whole thing just not have happened. "Fuck!" I screamed. 'Will thinks I just broke up with him, and also thinks he's been the sorce of... WHATEVER I'VE BEEN FEELING!' I would've cried, but I was too busy putting on my shoes to go find Will.

I ran out my cabin. If Will was running as fast as he was on the lava wall he would already be where he was going. I knew for a fact the Will always feels calm in the infirmary so I went there.

"Will!" I pushed open the door, practically braking it down.

Will turned towards me. The sight of him crying made me want to punch myself for making him sad. "N-Nico? Please, just leave. I-I don't want to hurt you..." His voice cracked.

"Will, look at me, you could never hurt me." I said, "It... It was the word that hurt me."

"B-But how can-?"

"I don't know, it just did."

"I... Is it my fault..." Will said, quietly.

I took his hands, "It could never be your fault."

"But what if, one day, it is my fault? What if this happens again? What if-"

"Will." I looked into his eyes, the only thing on my mind was how the only way he could hurt me was if he left me like he did today, but for real. "If ever you you think you could ever be the cause of my pain I want you to think about this moment." I then kissed him.

It wasn't our first kiss, but it felt like it- soft, a little hesitant, uncertain- but, for gods sake, it felt right. Like we were meant to be together.

When I pulled apart it was only because I needed air, if I could've survived on the taste of Wills lips alone I would never have stopped the kiss.

"You could never be the cause of my suffering." I said, "I know we love each other too much for that."

Will looked down, I could tell he was still thinking about how he might be hurting me. I cupped his face, gently pushing his head upwards to look at me. "You're my sun."

Will smiled lightly, "You're my moon."

I gave him another kiss, "You're my everything."