So indecisive.
Life changing decisions? Deciding where to get food? I can always be sure I'll be filled with some kind of regret. What if...but I guess that's normal. Normal people feel it too, but the wild Libra agonizes over it.

Every single day. Since that day.

What if this was wrong? It felt right...it felt wrong. It feels like I'll never know for sure.

It feels like a knife twisting into my chest, it feels like a weight lifted off my shoulders, it feels like an empty place in my soul, it feels like a chance for a new beginning.

It feels like it was meant to be, it feels like I was the only one who thought that.

I can't tell if i regret it or not.

I can't tell if I wanna be alive or not.

Everyone can see my happy face but me.

Thank god no one is seeing this...but I have to get it off my chest. I quite literally want to take my heart out of my chest and disconnect it from my brain. I don't wanna think about it, I really don't wanna think about it. I can't stop thinking about it.

It feels like I'm at risk, it feels like I feel better, it feels like I don't know what to do anymore...

xx I know you think that I erased you, you may hate me but I can't hate you xx