Ahh, finally, the tour is over. We're on break. My god, I need this!' J-Hope sighs with relief.

As he approaches his car, he thinks, No hyungs, no dongsaengs, only you.   He looks behind him, If I don't count the bodyguard.

As he starts his car, he releases a sigh that he feels he's been holding in for a year now. Trying to maintain the persona of 'sunshine' for his members and Army was hard sometimes. 

There were days he just wanted to let the storm clouds rage, but he had a persona to show to the public. He felt obligated to tamp down any feelings of negativity. Occasionally, those pent-up feelings of anger would explode. The members felt the brunt of his dark storms but wouldn't let it upset them. 

 He felt he was getting burnt out. He wanted to be himself without anyone following him, touching up his hair and makeup, or telling him what to do and when.

He never felt so free as he did heading home to you. No matter how he felt, you loved him no matter his mood, and he loved you deeply and with all his heart.

When he arrives at your home, he can feel the tension easing from his shoulders as he approaches the front door.

Suddenly, the door swings open, and you excitedly run out to him. He drops his bags and holds out his arms as you leap on him, wrapping your legs around his waist. You have been watching at the window most of the day for his return. He holds you in his arms, and you put your arms around his neck. You are smothering him with kisses.

 "I have missed you so much, girl," he says as he releases a long, held-back sigh of emotional release.

"Jae, I've been so sad without you. I'm happy you're home," you say, pouting cutely at him. The last time you saw him was over three months ago when he had you fly out to be with him during a short two-day break while on tour. It was well worth the time flying and the jetlag.

He leans close to your face and whispers, "My god, I love you so much." He kisses you, and you deepen the kiss, wanting more from him and wanting to give him more.

He carries you, still wrapped around him, into the house. His bodyguard carries in his luggage. He smiles, saying, "Annyeong (hi) Jeni."

 You give him a little wave, and then he tells J Hope, "See you tomorrow." He puts the luggage down and closes the door on his way out.

J Hope sets you on your feet but hasn't let you go. He rests his forehead on yours. He sighs, "I feel I could sleep for days with you beside me." You feel his warm breath caress across your face.

You grin up at him, your voice full of desire. "Sleep? Just sleep?" You run your hand down the side of his face towards his chest, letting it slip under the open collar of his shirt.

He takes your hand from his shirt and says as he leads you to the bedroom, "Never just sleep." then he reluctantly adds, "But first, a shower." he releases your hand upon entering the bedroom.

Knowing he needs to unwind and distress, you follow him in. He drops his clothes along the way into the bathroom. You pick them up and hear the shower start. You walk into the bathroom and put the clothes in the hamper.

You playfully ask, "Do you need any help?"

He laughs, "I wash and rinse. You dry,"  he replies, and you can hear the bliss in his voice.

"With pleasure." You say, grinning mischievously.

You hear his massive sigh of relief as he steps into the warm water of the shower.

"I'm so happy you're allowed a break. I was worried about you." He doesn't respond, his head submerged in the running water of the shower as he shampoos his hair.

Once finished, he steps out of the shower, and you begin to dry his body. You can tell he has lost weight, and as tall as he is, it worries you. 

He smiles at you, takes the towel from your hands, and tosses it in the hamper. He pulls you into a deep kiss, undoing the zipper down the back of your dress as he does so.

 As your dress slides down your body, so does his hands. His mouth never leaves yours, and he lifts you in his arms. You can feel his arousal pressed against your hip, and you moan with longing. 

A deep growl rumbles from his chest as he lays you down on the bed and pushes his knees between your legs, giving him access to the warmth waiting for him there. 

"You are ready for me, and I need you now, Nae Sarang (my love)," He looks into your eyes, hovering over your body, pulsing with want. 

"Please, now, baby. Now." You pull him down for a kiss as he settles deep inside you. You both gasp, and then he begins moving hard and fast.

 "I have waited so long for this," he says as he lifts your hips so he can feel every inch of your softness.

You both explode, reaching the peak together and falling off the edge. You grab his shoulders tightly, and he gives a final thrust as you call out his name. You feel his release as your body clinches around him. He throws his head back and groans out, "Home!"

He slowly collapses on top of you, both your bodies hot with sweat. He whispers breathlessly in your ear, "I'm so sorry, baby, that was so fast. I just needed you so badly."

You caress his face, "And I you."

He pulls free of your body, and you feel a chill, but he quickly pulls the covers over you both. You turn to him, resting your head on his chest, his arm beneath your shoulder. 

"Saranghae," you whisper to him. (I love you)

"Nado saranghae," he whispers back.  (I love you too)

Lying snuggled against him, you're listening to his gentle breathing of relaxed sleep. You let the rhythm of his heartbeat lull you into sleep, knowing his heart is yours.