Every day it gets thrown at my head, how thick I am.

I just wanted to live normally, like the others.

But it was not possible for my life.

I did not want to live anymore, I did not want to listen to the others,

but on the other hand, I could not forget it when I saw myself in the mirror.

I feel uncomfortable in my body but I keep eating. Always more and more.

I hurt myself.

 Eating attacks every evening. I am afraid one day I can not get up.

 But I am not afraid to die. I do not drink water, do not eat properly.

 I feel like everything in me fails. But my body is strong.

 It continues to fight no matter how weak I am from within.

 The only thing I wanted was to be like the others.

But the people are to blame why I am the way I am.

Because I feel comfortable in my body but people were never satisfied with it.

Because of them, I could not look in the mirror anymore.

The feeling of not being able to look at oneself, of disgusting oneself, that was

worst feeling I ever experienced.

I was just a little girl without quirks. But life made me die.

The only thing I wanted is to live as I am ....