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ALSO THIS UPDATE SCHEDULE SUCKS (too much gap), SO, MAYBE MONDAY, THURSDAY AND SUNDAY?

"Kook-ah! What happened?" His grandmother cupped his face.
"Nothing. Just I'm hurting everyone who loves me and crying over people who don't.." Jungkook kept crying and she stroked his hair softly.
"We don't do secrets. Remember?" She smiled at him. Her aura was so calming, Jungkook instantly felt better. He shivered a little as he wiped his tears, his hands on her knees and tears falling on her feet.

"I..." His voice broke.
"Jimin.." he managed and tears threatened again. She breathed out and her eyebrows furrowed.
"What about him?"
"I.. I told him I loved him... And he said no. "
"You love him?" His grandmother's eyes widened.
"I do. " Jungkook nodded and wiped his tears.

"But I'm not the man he loves or he'll ever love. " Jungkook looked up at her, his eyes were begging for some of his pain to ease but it wasn't getting better.

"I don't even think I could ever face him after last night. Also, I did think about Jihyung too. I wanted to... I wanted a family.. but.." Jungkook bit his lip.
"Some things aren't meant to be. " He breathed out.

"I knew love wasn't real. And I really did try not to fall in love with him, but I just kept falling for him. " He spoke softly and his grandmother listened intently.

Jungkook rested his head on her knees, looking down at the floor and his tears fell. She breathed out as she stroked his hair and then a small smile made way to her lips.

"It's a bit sudden for him, don't you think?" She said softly and Jungkook nodded and closed his eyes.
"If it's so sudden for you, can you imagine how he feels? Jungkook whenever there's a child involved things are always a bit more complicated..'
"But i--" he mumbled hugging her tighter.
"I know, but I did everything to protect you. And you don't believe it, but so did your parents. They tried to be around but just didn't realise how quickly you'd grow up. And by the time they wanted to make amends, you had grown up too much. " She said and Jungkook huffed but his heart felt heavy.

She cupped his face and made him look up.
"Jungkook. Jimin is trying to make up for some of Jihyung's lost childhood. He's scared to put his baby through pain, he's being a good father. And he's just scared, and probably more hurt than you are. " She said softly and wiped his tears.

"He said he didn't feel the same way.." Jungkook said in a pained tone.
"You just have to give things time. And if he doesn't, there's no way of making people feel in a way that they don't. It'll hurt him and you. " She told him and smiled.
"But.. so I should just give up?" Jungkook asked timidly.

"Just give him some time. You'd be surprised how things work out some times. " She kissed his forehead.

Jungkook nodded. He had no other option but to let go for now.

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Jimin kept sobbing for over an hour, then dragged himself up from the floor. He kept wearing the ring and stumbled around before standing still in that living room.

He slowly walked up to the kitchen and cleared the breakfast, crying while he did. He went to his bedroom, the place messy from the last night's events.

He stared at the bed and breathed out. His smile, his scent, his gaze, his voice, the way his skin felt against his, his soft moans, the way he pecked his lips and smiled, the way he smiled at him when he danced, him cheering for Jih, and the first time he turned around and their eyes met.

"Jungkook." The first very introduction filled his mind and he gulped as his tears fell again. Why was he so stupid?

Jimin pulled the sheets, and the pillow covers off. He had never even felt the urge to sleep with anyone, with Jungkook it was different. It just wasn't mere desire, it was as if he had met the one for him. He had never felt this pull.

But he had been through a lot. He wasn't ready for another failure. One abusive husband and failed marriage had fucked him up enough.

His mind wandered off to one of the days where Yoongi slapped him in front of Jihyung. The way his son sobbed and begged for them to stop, he couldn't risk it. Jih had seen Jimin cry for years, and now sleeping with Jungkook had done something to Jimin once again. It had broken something in him.

He couldn't show his true emotions to Jih. He had to think of a reason why Jungkook stopped coming over, he had spoiled everything.

The images of Jih laughing in Jungkook's arms made him sob harder.

He did love Jungkook but he just wasn't strong enough for any other failed relationship.
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"What?" Yoongi said through gritted teeth. And grabbed Jih's arm harshly who shivered and his big eyes filled with tears.

"Please, Appa. " He begged and tried to push his hand off. Yoongi immediately let go as he realized what he was doing. He gulped as he saw Jih shiver and sob on the seat. Yoongi lifted his hand to stroke his hair and Jih shuddered and put his tiny hands up to shield himself.

Yoongi's eyes filled with tears.
"I'm sorry.. " he said softly and picked Jih up who cried in the crook of his neck helplessly.
"Okay.." Jih sobbed hugging him.

"I just get really nervous whenever I think of you replacing me, Jih. Appa, messed up but he didn't mean it. " Yoongi stroked his hair and hugged him tighter.
"Appa loves you Jih.." Yoongi kissed his cheek and  Jih nodded.

"Always remember Jih. Ironman will hurt dad if you let him in too much. " Yoongi warned Jih again who shook his head.

Yoongi clenched his jaw, he couldn't believe how much Jih loved Jungkook. But he wasn't going to give up.
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Jungkook woke up very hungover, he was being woken up by his mother. He groaned as he opened his eyes.

"Jungkook. Get up." She said softly and stroked his hair, Jungkook moved his head away and she sighed.
"What do you want?" He mumbled.
"Jungkook. " He saw his father sitting on the foot of his bed.

"Is this an intervention?" He laughed sarcastically.
"You got into a fight last night?" His father tried to control his temper.
"Yeah so?" Jungkook stretched.
"Well. That's unacceptable." His mother said.

"Oh please. Worry about your husband. " He laughed, his mother wiped her tears and left the room. Jungkook rolled his eyes even though his heart ached seeing her cry.

"Just stop it." His father glared at him.
"Or what?" Jungkook challenged him.
"When did you become like this?" His father shouted at him.
"The day you were out on a business tour rather than being home for my 10th birthday!" Jungkook said through gritted teeth.

The room went completely silent.

"That's what I thought. " He said and got up seeing his father go completely numb. And turned to go shower.

"Everything I ever did was to give you a childhood I couldn't have and afford. I admit not being around for your birthdays but it was because I was out there working 18 hours a day to give you the life you have today. " His father said in a low tone and Jungkook halted and turned around.

"I would have rather had a family than all this. " Jungkook said through gritted teeth.
"As a father, that's what I thought was correct. I'm sorry for it but you never gave us a chance to be a part of your life. "
"All I did was do exactly what you did to me. I got too busy, that's all. " Jungkook said sarcastically and his father could feel his tears build up.

"I didn't throw you away. " His father said and it felt like a bullet through Jungkook's heart.

"I was here to tell you that you're coming to work with me. You can be home by 5. So be ready from tomorrow. " His father said and left before Jungkook say anything.

Jungkook's face turned hot as he felt his anger and frustration brew. He tugged on his hair as he brushed it back. He didn't understand his own hatefulness but that's how he felt and couldn't help it.

He got ready and left for Taehyung's place.

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Hoseok couldn't believe his ears when he heard that Jungkook was in love.
"Really?" He exclaimed.
"Yeah. " Taehyung shrugged.

"Do you think we should talk to Jimin?" Hoseok asked panicky.
"No.. it's too complicated. We just have to wait for the right time. " Taehyung gulped and closed his eyes exhausted.
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Jungkook's Sunday flew by as he went to club with Hoseok and Taehyung and got drunk. Kissing people with similar eyes as Jimin's, lips, skin, scent, height, smile but none were him. He got angrier and eventually and misbehaved and was taken to Taehyung's house.

Hoseok and Taehyung watched helplessly as they watched him wreck himself.

For Jimin, he had cleaned the house over 15 times but just couldn't stop feeling like Jungkook's scent was still in the house. He put the ring in a drawer and sobbed on his bed all day to the point where he texted Taemin to tell his boss that he was sick.

On Monday, Jimin woke up at 3 pm to the ringing of his apartment bell. He could barely get up but he gulped and walked out, completely losing sense of time and place.

"Dad!" Jih jumped.
"Jih!" Jimin beamed and hugged his son tightly.
"Are you okay, dad?" Jih cupped his face and Jimin teared up and hugged him as he nodded.
"You okay?" Yoongi asked seeing his appearance.
"Yeah. Flu. " Jimin avoided eye contact with him and took away Jih's suitcase.

"Sure. " Yoongi said uncertain.
"Take care. I gotta rush. I'll call. " Yoongi said kissing Jimin's cheek and walking off.
"Dad! I can't wait to see Ironman!" Jih beamed throwing his school bag on the couch.

Jimin's head was throbbing with pain but he managed to smile anyway. He didn't know what to tell him.

"I'll just go shower. You play the piano till then, honey. " Jimin told Jih and went to his room. He shut the door and sobbed against the door as he heard his son playing the piano.

It was 7pm, Jih had been sitting on the chair in the dining room since 5. Jungkook wasn't there.
"Where is he?" Jih asked timidly.
"Jih.. I don't think he's gonna come now it's 7 already... " Jimin tried.
"Why not? I even solved the 40 problems he gave me, and 10 more just to make up. Is he mad at me?" Jih picked up and notebook and showed it to Jimin who teared up seeing his small son waiting in anticipation for a valid answer.

"No, ba--"
Suddenly the bell rang and Jimin was confused. Jih ran up to the door. Jimin was sure it was someone else, it couldn't be Jungkook.

"Ironman!" Jih beamed and jumped.