Shivaay POV

Looking at my son playing with some of his friends outside is the one thing that gets me close to happiness these days

"Arnav its time to go!"I yell for him and watch him come running to me

I give him the bag I have packed for his camping trip," Dad please I don't....

I shhhd him and once again tried to explain why I have insisted he agree to this week long camping trip

"Arnav.....I know its difficult but its time to move on with life!make new memories.... I promise I will come get you if you don't like it there!"

My son and I have fought on and off this past month about my decision to send him to a school camping trip

He wanted to stay home but I needed him to still be a child and experience life especially after what happened

Raising a child alone is the most difficult thing imaginable, I don't know how Anika did for all this years without any support from me or my family

Its been 6 months since the accident and I think its time for him to feel the sun in his face again,be happy again.

Its time he stopped letting his pain and anger consume him

I pulled him into a hug,kissed his forehead and said,"I love you Arnav...try and be happy....even if its just for a week!"

He nodded and hugged me tighter,"I love you too dad!please call me when.....

"I know son....I know!" I said once again kissing his forehead

My Arnav might think its easy just letting him go but its the toughest thing I have ever done

I know he isn't going into war but ever since the accident he has been the only person I feel shared my pain!He is the only person I could talk about Anika to without losing my mind

We have held each other getting and taking strength! But now he has to go cos I can feel it now...darkness is nearly consuming me and I can't let it have my son too!

He run back upstairs to my room  and I let him!I knew what he was doing and I was glad

"Have a safe trip!I will call you every hour OK!" I said smiling at him,he give me a small smile... side hugged me again and walked to the school bus that was waiting for him

"Call me!" He  once again said ...I nodded ,stood there till to bus left!I hope this will bring him hope!

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"Mr Oberoi!?" ACP Malhotra called out to me before I walked into OM

I turned frustrated, I just wanted to go to my room,"Yes?!"I said with a quite and calm voice

"Mr Oberoi I just wanted to give you an update about Mrs Oberoi case!" He said looking a little nervous

"Anything new?" I asked faking interest ...I knew for a fact that there isn't anything new in their case

"We have released the video you give us to the media and we don't have any lead as of yet!" ACP said taking step back looking like I might jump on him any second now

"Then why waste my time now!!!...

I said calm and cold with indifferent as I turned and walked away!

" I have no time for there incompetence! "I thought to myself walking up the stairs

"Shivaay!Bhai!" Omru shouted running up the stairs after me,I once again turned now getting angry at being delayed

"What?" I said angryly

Shock,pain played in their faces as they looked at me ,I simple just waited for them to talk

"Bhai!I want us to go out today!" Rudra said trying to salvage the conversation

I watched my brothers and I felt a twing of pain at our shattered relationship!I knew they tried and are still trying to somehow get me to move on but they were fighting an already lost war

I tried to soften my face,tried to be like I was and said,"Not today!maybe tomorrow OK!"I smiled a smile that was fake and they both knew it!

I recalled the argument that we had 5 months ago that changed our relationship

Flashback (5 months)

"Are you happy now?this is what you wanted!" I yelled at my aunt stalking her step by step

"Shivaay what are you going!" Omkara shouted standing between me and his mother,defending her

"What am I doing?!"I yelled thrown the USB on the table," why don't you ask her what the hell she was doing when she f@k up my life!"

Everyone looked at me like I was insane,scared to get near me!I have never spoken to anyone in my family like this before

"Family mean unity, love,trust  and support to me,maybe that why I didn't see this betrayal coming!" I thought to myself  falling to the floor,cold.. numbness claiming my body

"Aunt you wanted revenge so much,it didnt matter who you destroyed to get it!well you destroyed me......You brought her here and she took everything from me!"

"Who!who!shivaay!" Omkara said ...I looked at my aunt as it dawned on her.....she cried took a step backward horror on her face

"Tia!Om.......Tia ran over Anika with a car!" I said getting up from the floor,leaving the USB for them to watch and walked out!

End of flashback

Its was at that moment I closed myself from my family
I did blame Jhanvi aunty for the part she played in separating me from My Anika but mostly their guilt,sympathy, love was suffocating

I love them but the only emotion,responsibility I am able to carry right know is my own,I can't carry their too so I distanced myself from them

I would have left if Dadi hadn't insisted I stay!

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Walking into my room!I feel relief!This room is my sanctuary where I spend all my time,"Hey Baby!I missed you!"I said looking at an unconscious Anika

I take off my jacket,sit on the edge of the bed ,took her hand and kissed it,"You look very beautiful today!"I said brushed hair from her face

"I finally got Arnav to agree on the camp trip....he is stubborn just like you  but I won...

..ain't you going to congratulate me baby!" I smiled kissing her forehead

I took the lotion on the bed and applied it to her hands,I looked at the 'i love you' card on the dresser and smiled

Like me Arnav has become clingy,he never leaves the house without a kiss for his mother and a card to show he still cared incase she woke up without him here

We have not left her side for the whole 6 months!because with her we feel....with her we are whole

Flashback (6 months)

"I'm sorry Mr Oberoi.....

.....your wife sustained an injury to the head which I'm sorry to say is nearly impossible to recover from!" The doctor said looking calm and professional.. like he didn't just shatter everything

"Nearly?!You said nearly!!" I asked fighting with the pain and devastation that is threatening to overwhelm me and grasping at any hope I might find

"Mr Oberoi the chances are very slim that she might survive....."

"How slim!" I interrupted clinging to the hope

"25%!Mr Oberoi I have had similar cases before but no one has ever survived!" He tried to explain but I knew 25% was more than enough for my Anika

"And the baby?what about my baby!" I asked ignoring the sounds of grasps from my family

"Mr Oberoi with your wife chances only 25%,your baby is Much less than that! Its a miracle they both survived the accident,but I don't think they will make it!" He explain slowly like he was talking to a child but all I heard was my wife and child where still alive and the us hope

Flashback ends

But they had!They suevived within a month Anika started to breath by herself without the help of the machine

And with their mothers improvement my baby improved too

They have fought against the odds and where winning but now she has to wake up or her body will shut down and they will both die!

But she hasn't woken up yet and I was losing my hope!and I was willingly descending into insanity

"I know you are fighting!but I am scared Anika.....6 months is too long a time to be sleeping baby wake up!" I said to an unconscious Anika

Please!"I lay my head on the big round stomach ,kissed her stomach joy shot through me when I felt movement ,"My daughter tell your mother its time to wake up!"

I will be forever grateful to both Anika and my baby for surviving but now I need My Anika to wake up cos tests and doctors all over the world I have consulted say if Anika doest wake up before the birth of our baby she will die!

My hope is decreasing!

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I walked into my study and lock the door behind me...Open a secret door behind a bookshelf

I look around making sure I was alone and slowly walked down a flight of stairs into a pitch black basement

Throughout the day I feel myself not caring!I feel myself going insane thinking about the pain and horror My Anika must have experience when she was hit by the car

The pain I see in my son as he misses his mother claws at what is left of my heart

I walk into the dark room ,starring at the mattress at the corner of the room ,I feel at home in this darkness now!

Here I can unleash all my hate,anger and pain.....they say never poke an injured lion but she poked and  poked...thinking I was to good to come to her level

But everyone has a breaking point,where sanity disappears and insanity appears and destroys everything!

I can feel the hate and anger claw at me as I watch her struggle to sit up from the little mattress at the corner of the room,the chain on her ankle making it impossible to move

I walked in farther into the dark room took a chair and sat down,tears streamed down her eyes as she watched me like prey watching a predator before he attacked ...with horror filled eyes

"Hello Tia!"I smiled a truly evil insane smile!

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