Rudra POV

It was playing over and over again in my mind

Every moment,every scene,word,behavior I had with her even since we were children

But nothing clicked!was I that selfish,that self absorbed that I didn't see my best friends suffering even once

The way she looked as Anika didi told their story,everytime she flinched at parts that hurt....the smile she wore to cover up her pain,everything was so obvious now but I overlooked all that and instead inflicted more pain on her

What type of person am I that I am immune to the suffering of people I love

My soumya!my sumo as I liked to call her when we were children,she always share my laughter and my pain and I always give her my hatred

"What is wrong with you!" I said to myself as I stared at a mirror,"What the hell is wrong with you!"

I hit the mirror,screaming til it broke cutting my hand
Pain shot through my hand but I ignore it,I deserve it,No!I deserve worse

I watched through the shattered mirror blood dripping on the carpet by my feet and I didn't care

Today the mirror reflect back who I really am,an arrogant, spoiled little boy with no soul

"Rudy!Rudra!" Shivaay bhai yelled at me pulling me away from the mirror,"what did you do!"

He unknowingly echoed the words I have been repeating to myself,I laughed a broken laugh that quickly led to a sob,"I don't know!"

I cried not for soumya cos she didn't need my pity but for myself,for my ignorance

Shivaay bhai hugged me tight than took my hand and slowly started wrapping it

I looked at him sorrow trying to overwhelm me!I wanted to tell him what I did,I knew he would forgive me but it was my punishment,this pain and disgust in myself was my punishment for what I did to my life!To her

"What is wrong Rudy!" He asked tears shining in his eyes as he looked at me

"Nothing bhai!" I whispered knowing he will not believe me

"Rudra...."

"Its OK bhai!this is something I need to fix myself!" I promised trying to smile but was having a real hard time

"I know it was hard listening to Anika and Soumya's story but instead of pitying them or hurting for them,their story should inspire us to give them all the joy and love in the world.....our past mistakes can never be forgotten rudra but can be forgiven and used as lessons in the present and future!" Shivaay bhai said finishing with the wrapping of my hand and starred at me

I cried again nodding my head!shivaay bhai has somehow given me the solution to my pain without me saying anything, "How did you know!?" He smiled hugged me again

"I don't! I knew you were upset about what you heard cos I am upset about it!" He said making his way to the door,"and the advise I just give you is what I am going to do for both Anika and soumya!"

He winked,I smiled feeling the weight that had been pressing on my chest ease abit

A plan formed in my minds,the is still a lot I have to do but this is a start!

The start of rudra Singh oberoi's REDEMPTION!

Soumya POV

It feels like an unknown weight has been lifted from shoulders after I left the OM

I don't know what I expect maybe disgust or worse pity but not anger

The Oberoi brothers were angry as Anika didi told our story to them,rage had filled that room as Anika didi told the story bit by bit and shame had filled me

This was the second time I have heard the story,the first time was when My Mama..Mine and Anika's told me everything about hers and my fathers past and to say I was devastated is an understatement

I fall in depression, tried eating my problems away and the fatter I got the more depressed I felt but it was when I tried to commit suicide that my mother snapped

Flashback

"Do you hate me soumya!?" Mama had asked walking into my hospital room,"You hate me right!?"

She had looked like she has slept in days,bags under her eyes,clothes wrinkled...she looked like she had given up and that scared the hell out me

"No!no mama never!" I said trying to go to her but she took a small step back

"If you don't hate me than why are trying to kill me!my child?" She whispered tears pouring down her eyes

No!I wasn't ....I just wanted to take the pain away,"What happened to me soumya has nothing to do with you!...."

..The truth is what happened broke me sumi!pushed me into the dark for a long time!but then a light appeared in the dark and slowly pieced me back together,made me whole and stronger than ever....so why do you want to take kill me by taking my light from me!"she cried holding her hand to her heart,looking at me with heartbreak in her eyes

I fall out of bed struggling to reach my mother, "I'm sorry mama!" I begged nearly crawling towards her,I have never had someone that was my own before,in my depression I had convinced myself that noone would care if I disappeared... I was wrong,I was so wrong!

We met half way and fall into each others arms,I will fight I decided in that moment that my life was worth fighting for

End flashback

"How was everything!" Sam asked as I throw myself on the couch

I was tired!the emotions of today were tiring and I needed a nap

"Anika didi is OK!" I said trying to keep awake,I smiled thinking about her,I had left here scared when I heard she was hospitalized and I immediately requested to be  her doctor

No one know we are sisters My last name is Kapoor and she is Trivedi

"Oh thank God!" Sam said sitting next to me and giving me a massage

I should have called him,he also care very much about Anika didi and she cared deeply about him too

"I'm sorry I should have called!"I said sleeping against his shoulder

"No worry I know all about family drama!" He said winking at me as I dose off feeling relaxed for the first time today!I was home!

Next morning

The next morning I was refreshed ready to start a new day when I saw a message on my phone

Soumya

Can you please meet me at the cafe next to OM please!its very important please
I know I have no right to ask you this but please for old time sake!

Rudra

I was really tempted to ignore him or just not show up at the place or the time he later texted but I was a bit curious!what so important!

"Rudra?" I said looking at a nervous looking rudra as I made my way into the cafe

"Soumya?" He looked startled like he didn't expect me to be here

"He called me,right!!" I thought to myself a little awkward, maybe I should leave,"Thank you so much for coming!"

He smiled at me looking more relaxed than before, I sat down giving him an opportunity to tell me whats so important

"I am sorry sumo!for what I did!I am so sorry!" He said sounding a little pathetic to me,anger rose nearly choking me as I stared him

"Is this the important thing he wanted to talk about!" I thought to myself fighting the urge to climb the table and strangle him

How many times must I repeat myself I don't want his sorry!it happened,I have moved on why can't he

"I know you anger soumya and I deserve it but I am still very sorry for the way I treat......"

"Enough!do you think I want your sorry!I don't...just leave me alone rudra!" I jump from my chair and walked to the door fast ignoring the looks of shock on the people in the cafe

"I know!I know I have no right and I don't deserve forgiveness....I don't want you to forgive me!I want you to give me a chance!" He begged pulling by the arm to stop me from storming off

I looked at him strangely! If he doesn't want my forgiveness than what does he want,"a chance for what!"I asked folding my arms

"A chance to be your friend!I know what has happened is unforgettable and also know I was a shitty friend before what happened happened!" He said looking into my eyes,"but I changed,I don't expect you believe me but I have

"A relationship is based on trust rudra and I don't trust and I dont think I ever will again!" I whispered

"I know soumya!which is why I want to start from the beginning!
I want us to start as strangers and take it from there,please!"I felt a tear run down my cheek

Everytime rudra and I fought he would say sorry and I would forgive him but after he betrayed me I vowed to myself never to be taken in by his sorry,which was why I grow more angry every time he said it.

But what he is proposing now is more than anything he has ever done for me before or ever...it proved he was truly remorseful

"Why are you doing this rudra!?You and I can't ever be what we were!Never rudra!" I said trying to get him to understand me

"I know!" He said wiping tears from his eyes,"I want you in my life soumya!in any form you choose!"

I looked at him looking for any sign of deception but found none
Most of the best times in my life were spend with rudra and because of those moment I am willing to give him a second chance!To be friends!

"Hello!My Name is Soumya Kapoor and you are?"I said putting my hand out for him to shake,this was for a new beginning,a new us

" Rudra! Rudra Singh Oberoi!"He said shaking my hand with a smile on his face

"Its really great to meet you Soumya!!"

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Everyone!every human being has something about themselves they don't like or have personal problem but suicide is never the answer

Look after yourselves,love yourselves cos that is the best gift anyone can give to oneself!

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