Anika POV

A moment is all I give myself as I pulled myself from shivaay's arms

I turned and looked at his eyes forgetting everyone and just stared at him....stared at his kanji eyes

And asked myself the question that has been eating at me,"Why him!Why and When had shivaay became so important to me that I feel complete only when I am with him!"

After what happened with my mother I had worked very hard to be independent, I would never let another human being have a power over my life or that of the people I loved again

But shivaay had somehow sneaked in and made himself important to me,something I have worked hard to avoid

He looked at me like he wanted me!all of me but thats the only thing I can't give him....whatever this attraction is,should stay as just an attraction

"Are you OK baby!"he said looking concerned, tears clouded my eyes its been a long time since someone wanted to take care of me and shivaay has been calling baby a lot lately,I wanted to stop him but my heart refuses to tell him

" I'm OK!"I smiled trying to defuse whatever was going on between us,I stepped away only now realising how close we where standing to each other

I walked back to the couch, keeping my eyes on the ground cos I didn't want to see the questioning eyes of omru and soumya

I sat closed to my sister trying to get comfort but not from the past but from the danger shivaay had become to my heart

"When my mother finally had enough and had put away enough money for us to survive she decided to quit and that when AK attacked..

He put something in my mother drink ,married her than raped her!" I hear a gasp from someone in the room, soumya tense up like stone as she listened to this part of the story,she looked down like she was ashamed but like I told her before this wasn't her shame to bare

I put my hand on her chin made her look at me,"I love you!"I said wiping her tears,nothing can change how she was conceived but she is the product of my mothers love

I remember the day everything come to head and the most important confrontation had happened

Flashback

"I love you!" AK said trying to get closer to my mother

"Love!No Mr Kapoor you are confusing lust with love...what you did to me shows exactly what you think of me!" My mother shouted tears running down her face

I wanted to go to her but she had told me to stay hidden

"I have known love Mr Kapoor and what you did isn't it!"

"Payal please I know I hurt you but a little pain in a lifetime of happiness is not a bad things give me a chance ,give us a chance!",AK said trying to console her

"What did I do that made you think I wanted you!that I wanted this....the must have been something right,some look,walk!something!" She cried pulling at her hair and when AK tried to stop her she flinched away

"No! Its nothing like that its .....

"What!" My mother screamed pacing back and forth looking and sounding like she was going crazy,she ran into the kitchen and walked out with scissors," is it my hair! or my face!

She took the scissors and started cutting her hair and scratching her face,screaming hysterically

Ak stood here shocking watching the sanity of a person he supposedly love slip away because of him

"No payal! I'm so sorry...its nothing you did I promised!" He yelled trying to make an hysterical payal listen

"You were leaving!the woman I love was leaving me so I did what I did to somehow tie you to me!" He said crying as he held my mothers face trying to get through to her

"I don't love you!I don't want you ...please listen to me and leave me alone!" My mother had begged on her knees to Mr Kapoor

End of flashback

"She changed,the light that used to shine in her eyes had dimmed after that..

.....we moved away,she found another job and was still my loving mother but it was like joy of life had been taken from her until she found out she was pregnant..

...Some people might think My soumya as the result of rape but to me and my mother she is the light that we thought had been stolen
She brought back my mothers smile ,her laugher and her joy...so how can I not love her!"I said pulling a crying soumya into a tight hugged,people might not understand our relationship but I thank God everyday for giving me her!My Sister!

I looked at the brothers rudra and omkara had tears running down their eyes....rudra looked at soumya with regret in his eyes
"Did I miss something between them!?"I thought to myself as I watch him trying to wipe his eyes

But one set of eyes was more important to me than anyone else in this room so I turned a bit and hesitantly looked at him

His eyes locked into mine,strangely giving me comfort and peace....I had been afraid that I might see pity and disgust in his eyes but I all I saw was ...pride?

Why did he look at me with pride!I expected pity,disgust or hatred not pride!

I looked away still hugging my soumya hard and whispering," I love you!"to her over and over again

An hour of silence passed,the oberoi brothers trying to somehow process what we told them and I was drained of all emotion

This was only half the story but I don't think neither soumya and I have the energy to continue

"Come!" I said to soumya standing up and giving her my hand,I pulled her to my room here at OM,"Time for sister bonding time!"

She smiled hugged me to her as we walked away....I was their shield!i was arnav and soumya's shield!To hurt them people have to go though me!!

Shivaay POV

I watched the sisters walking away with arms around each other and I slowly unclinched my hard

Angry had filled me as I listened to the pain My Anika and her mother had gone though

It made me question if I had somehow knowingly or unknowingly acted the same way to anyone in my home,to any of my employees

I replayed my action in my mind to maids,butlers or any helpers in the past....I have been rude,hurtful or ignorant but I have never taken advantage of my position,I knew how to be respectful

"You are beneath me Anika!" The memory suddenly played in my mind,I remember this,these were the first words I had spoken to My Anika,"Don't call me shivaay,Call me Mr oberoi!"

The words,her face as I said them keep playing over and over in my minds driving me crazy....in that moment I must have reminded her of Mr Kapoor..

"Damnit!" I screamed throwing the coffee table across the room

Startled Rudra and Omkara looked at me shocked,I don't care I had unknowingly cause more pain to My Anika because of my ignorance

I walked out I needed a drive to clear my head,I think its time for my next move

"Shivaay are you okay!" Omru asked looking worryingly at me,"I'm fine just need space!"

I walked away took a car and drove around for an hour before deciding to get Arnav from school

"Dad!?" Arnav said looking abit confused to have me personally come to take him from school usually I just send a driver,"What are you don't here!"

"I missed you so I thought I could come get you!"I said smiling at him as we drove around

He give me his mothers look which was strange because he has my eyes before he nodded and smile....he told everything about his day,what he did at school,his friends,his teachers...everything!

And as listened I found the stress of what I heard about Anika's past drain away,we talked,laugh and sat silently together till we got home

It was on that drive I decided I can't change the past,I have hurt a person who was to be important to me,I will always regret it but all I can do know is apologize and make sure my future is happier and brighter

"Remember the first time you saw me!" I said hesitantly not trying to bring back past hurt,just trying to mend it,"I'm sorry for what I did back than what I said!I promise I will never hurt your mother or you like that again!"

I looked at him making sure he saw the sincerity in my eyes,"I know Dad!"he simply said showing his acceptance,love and trust...I pulled him into a hug and held him close

"Come on!" I said stepping out of the parked car and walking into OM,into our home

"Your mother is fine!" I said trying to reassure him as I watched him making his way to her room,"Soumya is with here!"

I was still in awe at the pain Anika and soumya must have gone through at a young age
Still angry with myself at not seeing soumya pain,even though we grow up together

The story Anika told us was only half of it,the is still the question of how soumya come to be known as Mr and Mrs Kapoor daughter but I didn't need to know it cos 1 the story clearly hurts my Anika to tell and I could guess the rest

"Sumi bua!" Arnav screamed like a little child as he ran full speed to Anika's room

I laughed to myself as I followed silently,Arnav was plastered to soumya give her a tight hug as soumya keep kissing his forehead,"I have missed you so much Tillu!"she said wiping the tears from her eyes

"Bua I told you only Mama calls me that !" Arnav said pouting at his aunt,clearly they are close to each other,just and she is close to Anika

They whispered together trying not to disturb the sleeping Anika,I walked to the side of the bed, sat down and just simply stared at the sleeping anika

I have made my decision,a decision I am sure she will fight me on but I will make sure I win

"Everything is fine bhai!she just needs to rest!" Soumya said smiling gently at me,arnav kissed his mother on the forehead than left with soumya

I played with Anika's hair,kissed her lips,caressed her cheeks...I was lost in her beauty
I know I don't deserve her but she is mine...truth is she was mine the moment she loved my son as her own

"I love you!" I whispered to her,I knew she won't hear me she was asleep but I needed to say it out loud,"I have been waiting for you!but now I can't wait anymore!"

I smiled down at her,happiness filled all the parts of me I thought died,"You don't know this yet but In a Month's time you are going to marry me!...

"YOU ARE GOING TO BE ANIKA SHIVAAY SINGH OBEROI!!

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FINISHED THE CUT CHAPTER OF YESTERDAY!
I HATE NOT FINISHING WHAT I START SO I WORKED ALL DAY TO MAKE SURE I FINISH!

SHIVAAY HAS MADE HIS DECISION BUT WILL ANIKA AGREE!?
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