Wow, I am sorry, I didn't realize how much I've abandoned my art book.  But lately life hasn't exactly been great.  This is actually harder for me to write than I thought, there is a lot to catch up on.  So for starters, I did finish my term long art class, my projects will be below.  In addition, I was asked for my first commission, and I am beyond grateful for the opportunity.  It's not done yet, even though I've been working on it for a couple months (only able to do a little here and there) and I'm about 30 hours in.  I can show a couple progress pics but I don't want to give away too much.  Btw, it's the biggest thing I've done it's a 24 in by 18 in.

☝ is a school project for my portfolio, it's straight of of the criteria for a college and it was to draw a bike with a different perspective.  I completed this in charcoal (it was actually my first time using it for other than silhouettes) on paper (???) I have no clue what kind, I forgot what my teacher told me, oops.

☝ I had too much fun with the kneaded eraser😂😝 (you can really notice how textured the paper was, that was weird, it also made my pencil squeak which sounded bad)

☝ I don't remember posting this picture.  This is one of my favorites by far.  I lost track of how long it took, but between 10 and 20 hrs.  It's on 9 by 12 paper, but I cropped it.  This one was really fun to draw and this actually helped me get my commission, because it's the (amazing) photographer that commissioned me to draw her horse.

Now, for the reveal of the commission.  The only person to have seen this is the person who commissioned me...and now you guys.  I will not be posting this on instagram, or at least until it's finished.  Lately, people (mainly at school some of which follow me on Insta) have been bugging me and I want separation from those people.  Anyways

☝ An outline (thats kinda hard to see, sorry, its the only one)

☝ is the most current pic I've taken of this.  Now I only have the top portion of the ribbon left.

I'm kinda hesitant to show the rest, so maybe later.  I am going to be so sad when this commission is over.  Honestly, it's been the only thing I look forward to these days.  It's been so hard to be happy, and I know people sometimes have slumps, and it's been about a month.  Mainly because I injured my knee in bball and I have no idea what's going to happen.  I'm getting an MRI tomorrow, but I get so worried about what they will or will not find, not to mention the pain I'm in right now.  It feels weird to write this, about how bad I feel.  I really just have no idea how to help myself.  I don't even know if I'm asking for advice or not, I just don't know anything anymore.  I'm probably just bothering everyone and making everyone who is still reading this sad, so I'll stop and I'm sorry.

Anyways, hope you enjoyed the art, that's really all I have.  I do have a mini sketchbook, if you want me to post those let me know.  Even though I've kind of abandoned wattpad, I thank any who didn't abandon watttpad and read this and hope you all feel better than me.

(Btw, I am sure there are people who have it worse than me, and I honestly can't even imagine what they go through.  However, this is one of the roughest patches in my life and I apologize so much if my problems seem little compared to yours and that I can still express my personal issues through wattpad.  And I am also sorry for those that really don't want to listen to my problems because that's everyone my friends at school right now)