It's been a week since our trip to the Grand Canyon, and I still haven't talked to Cameron or Maddie. The fact that they're dating has settled with me, and as time passes by, I'm slowly getting over it, but it doesn't make it any less awkward. Just as I predicted, Cameron and I have fallen out. If he's over at the house, it's to be with Maddie, and when he's with her it's like I don't exist. Inside I know I'm truly mad because I'm losing him to her, but it's just easier to blame it on their relationship rather than come clean about why I'm really upset.

And it's a stupid reason to be upset. I'm acting like a jealous little kid, and I know I am, but I can't help it. I didn't realize how truly lonely I was until Cameron got wrapped up in my sister, and If it weren't for Maya, I honestly don't know what I'd do. She's become my new best friend, and I wouldn't change it for the world. When she's not at my house, I'm sneaking over to hers. Her parents haven't found out about us yet, so whenever I do come over, I have to crawl through her bedroom window, which is on the backside of her trailer.

I've learned to park my truck down the block where she used to make my parents drop her off, but I hate the walk to her house because I always find myself getting nervous. I love being with Maya, and when I'm around her I'm relaxed, but just the thought of seeing her makes my stomach twist up with nerves and spikes my anxiety. Maybe that's because I'm always afraid of getting caught by her parents, but they almost always never bother her. A few days ago her dad asked if she wanted to watch a movie, but even then he didn't enter her room without knocking first. 

Taking my usual route, I go past her neighbor's trailer and walk through the grass to get to her window. I knock softly, and in seconds it slides open. Maya is grinning when she sees me, extending her hand out for me to grab onto. Getting through this tiny opening is never easy, but she makes it worth it. I hoist myself up-- holding onto her hand with one of my mine and the sill with the other, landing on her bed that's thankfully right on the other side. Maya collapses down onto my chest and kisses me deeply. 

"Hi." I smile. "How are you?"

"Better now that you're here. My parents made me clean all freaking day."

"Damn. Really?"

She nods. "I woke up to Conciencia blasting through the speakers. I already knew what time it was the second I opened my eyes."

I have no idea what song she's talking about, but it sounds great coming off her lips. Leaning in to kiss her again, I linger there longer than normal before I reply, "Are you thinking of telling them about us?"

"Ethan..." She warns, letting out a tiny sigh. "I told you I don't want there to be pressure. We're seeing where things go, right?"

This was the answer I was expecting her to have, but it still doesn't feel good to hear it. I'm in love with her, and sometimes I think I'm the only one feeling this way. Going into this, I knew what she wanted, and I knew what I was signing up for, so I don't have any reason to be upset, but I'll admit that it's disappointing. I lost my virginity to her, and I've become so attached now that it's terrifying. She could very well not want us to become serious if her parents don't approve, and what will I do then?

"Right." I nod. "Sorry, I'm rushing things."

"You aren't rushing things." She reassures me and runs her fingers through my hair. I close my eyes from the feeling. "I feel the same way you do, but I'm not ready to tell them. Not yet at least."

I nod again, and almost like she remembers she forgot something, she hops up from the bed to lock her door. She's wearing these little jersey shorts and a sports bra that makes her breasts look unbelievable, and her hair is piled into a messy bun on top of her head. I've grown to love that messy bun. Memories of me tugging on that damn bun come into my head all too quickly, and in seconds I'm hard underneath my shorts.

"So..." She starts, and she has that look on her face that lets me know she wants something. "What do you think about going on a double date?"

Putting my hands behind my head, I stretch out onto her mattress and roll my eyes. "If it's with who I think it's with then absolutely not. Hard pass."

"Ethan, come on." Maya whines. "You've had time to get over it. I can't keep avoiding Maddie because of the awkwardness. What's the big deal?"

"Cameron and I haven't spoken since our fight, and I don't want to be around him if he's going to be making out with my sister the entire time. You should see them at my house, Maya, it's repulsive. They never stop kissing. I have to clear my damn throat every five seconds."

"Okay, but at least he's treating her right. Wasn't that what you were afraid of to begin with?" She joins me on her bed and sits on the edge, looking at me expectantly. "He's good for her and you know it. You see it, so what's stopping you from just accepting it?"

I let out a frustrated sigh and groan. "It's only been a week since he's told me. I'm not holding my breath that he'll treat her right. I give it another month before he fucks up."

Maya sits up on her knees and bats her eyelashes at me. "Please come on the double date." She pleads. "For me?"

I laugh. "Did Maddie put you up to this? I'm not going. That's my final answer."

My breath hitches when she grabs my semi over my sweatpants and rubs gently. "What do I need to do to get you to change your mind?"

I don't think Maya understands just how much of a grudge I'm holding against Cameron for ditching me for my sister. And she doesn't get how much I despise Maddie for taking Cameron away from me. It might be immature, but it's how I feel. I can't help it. Nothing, not even her gripping onto my dick is going to get me to change my mind.

The benefit to losing my virginity though is that now I have experience. I know what makes her tick now and what gets her off, and I plan on using that to my full advantage.

"The real question is..." and then I push her onto her back, parting her thighs with my knee. "What do I have to do to you for me not to go?"

She's not used to me being so dominant, and I can see her eyes gloss over as she contemplates my offer. "I like my offer better." She breathes out, but it's labored. I'm getting to her.

"You sure?" I raise a brow and glance down at my knee. "Because you haven't moved my knee, and I'm pretty sure if I..." I get on all fours and bend down to kiss her stomach. In seconds she's wriggling beneath me. "Kiss you here, you're not going to tell me no, right?" I peek up at her as I continue to kiss her exposed stomach, just above the band of her shorts. Now her eyes are closed, her head thrown against her pillow. "Right?" I repeat.

"Ethan." She moans, and I love when she says my name like that. I used to dream about her moaning my name, and now it's a reality. I don't know how I ever got so lucky.

I tuck her shorts down to her knees and sink between her legs so that my face is right in front of her underwear. She lifts her head to watch what I'm about to do, and when she sees me between her legs, her eyes darken more than I've ever seen them. Her brown eyes are almost black, and holy hell, she makes it so hard to remain in control.

Sliding her underwear to the side with two of my fingers, I let my breath hit her clit, and her back arches in response. I wait for her to become impatient, a tiny grin on my face when she looks at me in exasperation. "Tell me I don't have to go." I say and inch my face closer to her most sensitive spot. I place a gentle kiss right to the left of her clit, and it pushes her over the edge.

"Fuck, okay." She grabs a pillow and puts it over her face like she normally does whenever I come over. She's a loud moaner, so she needs to muffle it somehow.

Little does she know that this isn't even her winning. Eating her out is more of a benefit to me than it is to her, but now I just get a bonus on not having to go on this stupid double date. I know I'll have to talk about it eventually, but for today, my head is buried between Maya's thighs, and to me, that's the biggest victory of all.

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