"I look at you and all I feel is sad."

"Maybe tears are just built up emotions trying to escape." (Too many...)

"If only you knew this was written for you."
(So many don't know...)

"It started with "I love you" and ended with "I wish I didn't"."

"A damaged soul and a genius mind won't let the body sleep."

"And I stand there with tears in my eyes and shaky hands and ask myself what is worth fighting for?"

"It's never too late to pick up your broken pieces and start walking again."
(Still trying to...)

"You should have opened your eyes. I was crazy for you." *Long sigh*

"I miss how you wanted me." *longer sigh*

"Don't try and come back after you left so fucking easy. You don't deserve my forgiveness and you sure as hell don't deserve any of my trust. You told me you wouldn't do the same shit as everyone else but you did."

"Because when people see good, they expect good. And I don't want to have to live up to anyone's expectations."
-Damon Salvatore

"Recently I've been passing the days not living them."

"You swore you'd never leave but you saw me drown in my sadness and you walked away."

"You think you're okay until you're up at 3am crying about everything and nothing all at once." (Still happens all too often)

"I just want to write myself a world and go live in it." (If only)

"You promised me forever but your promise was a lie." (Too real)

"Maybe the mirror was left broken for a reason. I didn't want to see all the damage you had done to me."

"Maybe we feel empty because we leave pieces of ourselves in everything we used to love."

"I've become entirely too good at pretending it doesn't hurt."

"There's always someone who loves somebody who's unlovable."
-Meryl Streep

"Why should I be sad? I have lost someone who didn't love me. But they lost someone who loved them." (My less-frequent mind set)

"I choked on the words I never said and drowned in thoughts I never shared."

"Nothing can really last forever, because one day even time itself will not exist."

"Take care of your friends because they are the most precious thing in the world."
-Natsu Dragneel (I'm trying to change for the better. My family of friends are my only family. Anyone I call a friend is special and dear to me, no matter what.)

"People cry, not because they are weak. But because they have been strong for too long."
(I feel this one deeply.)

"Change is never easy...you fight to hold on, and you fight to let go." (Also feel this one all too well)

"Fear is not evil. It shows you what your weakness is. And once you know your weakness, you can become stronger as well as kinder."
-Guildarts of Fairy Tail (Growing and changing with wiser words)

"You never know how strong you are until being strong is your only choice."

"Wake up every day stronger than yesterday. Face your fears and wipe your tears." (Trying to live by this)

"I love the way you smile at me and make me feel like nothing can go wrong." *sigh*

"Behind every beautiful thing, there is some kind of pain." *tear*

"Feelings can be controlled, but tears never lie."

"Forget what happened to you in the past, but never forget what it taught you." (Also trying to do this)

"There are people in this world who like being left alone but there isn't a single person in this world, who can bear being alone."
(Me. To a level of anxiety)

"Hurt me with the truth. But, never comfort me with a lie."

"Tears are how your heart speaks when words can't describe how much you've been hurt." (God this one hurts)

"Feelings are a connection. They surpass time, and find their way to the people you love." *tear*
-Lucy Heartfillia

"The minute you think of giving up, think of the reason you held on so long." (I will. Always)

"Try and touch the stars even if I can't touch them with you." (To all my beautiful friends)

"One year ago I was the most important person in your life. Now it's like I never even existed." (To all my former friends)

"My tears are stars you will never see."

"Maybe the end is actually something beautiful." (Dark and beautiful? A concept I'm working with..)

"Isn't is strange how from the minute you are born you start dying?"

"It's 2am and I still think about you."

"I want you but you still choose someone over me."

"Everyday I fight an internal battle; do I want to live? Or do I want to be loved?"

"Don't jump oceans for someone who wouldn't jump a puddle for you." (Thank you to the person who told me this. It really woke me up.)

"Sometimes, the people who are thousands of miles away from you can make you feel better than the ones right beside you." (Very very true)

"The days go slowly-when you have no one to love."

"I COULDN'T MAKE YOU STAY AND FOR THAT I BLAME MYSELF."

"Bad relationships change good people."

-"why didn't you tell anyone?"
-"no one asked."

"Please don't join the long list of people that walked away from me."

"You say a song makes you cry but actually it's not the song that makes you cry. It's the person it reminds you of."

"Every accomplishment I make is an insignificant step to you."

"Can someone please be proud of me like fuck, I'm trying."

"What will it take for you to care?"

"Can you ever just be happy for me?"

"Everyone cares when it's too late."

"I care too much and I care too little at the same time."

"I felt too much, he didn't."

"I am overflowing with words I do not have."
-Adam Falkner, "When It Matters"

"I want you to fight for me. Is that too much to ask for?"

"3AM: the time to miss people who don't miss you."

"The tongue has no bones but can break a heart."
-Ed Sheeran

"How can you say you want me so badly and not be with me?"

"Nothing hurts more than trying to be good enough and being replaced by someone better."

"I really thought you needed me too."

"I'm still learning to love parts of me no one claps for." (Always)
-Rudy Francisco

"When you left me I sat there for hours not thinking, because I knew if I did I'd remember you weren't there."

"The worst feeling ever is not knowing wether you should wait or give up."

"It's like once you've been hurt, you're scared to get attached again. Like you have this fear that every person you start to like is going to break your heart." (The most pain..)

"It's so hard to forget pain, but it's even harder to remember sweetness. We have no scar to show for happiness. We learn so little from peace."
-Chuck Palahniuk, Diary

"I heard it too. The sound of something important to you disappearing."

"But what if this sadness never ends?"

"It's hard when you constantly feel so fucking unwanted."

"I am too full of life to be half loved."

"It's time to move on."
-whatever you thought while reading this, it's going to be okay.

"You broke my heart and then you just walked away."

"I hate myself but I can't tell you that. You would tell me not to but you don't understand."
-11pm thoughts

"To be free, one must be chained."

"It was probably nothing but it felt like the world."
-Morrissey, autobiography (p. 141)

"Your name hurts."

"She gave herself to boys who didn't matter because she was trying to forget the only one who did."

"Maybe you really are just like everyone else."

"He is the most painful "almost"."
-Meredith Marble

"Fall in love when you are ready, not when you are lonely."

"I used to see you in the stars but now my sky is black."

"My parents think they know me.
They don't.
And the thing that scares me most is them finding out."

"Don't give up, the beginning is always the hardest, so let's keep on going until the very end."
-Natsu Dragneel (Aye, I will.)

"Never look at your life as something insignificant. Never forget those friends of those that you love."
-Natsu Dragneel (I'll try to always remember this)

Sorry that this is so long...
But yeah... I felt the need to post it. Maybe next chapter I'll post a rant about all of the feelings I have and try to explain them. I don't know... It's difficult feeling a pain no one else around me has ever experienced in their lives. They don't know how to really help and it makes me sad because I feel like I'm burdening them.