Between school and parents I am crawling to the end of semester and school. Constant pressure on my shoulders to keep my grades up when all I can do is be depressed!

I don't want to be depressed and I don't want to have no motivation!

I WANT to do well in school!!!

I want my family to be proud of me, but I CANT UPHOLD THEIR STANDARDS!!!

I am just a normal and average teenage girl who's suffering just like millions of others!

I don't want criticism and anger and scolding and lecturing, I want some freaking compassion and caring and HELP!

I didn't ask to be this way...

I never wanted it to be like this...

I just wanted to try my hardest to survive this year, to keep my grades up and succeed. But it was so hard to keep my head up during these last two quarters that I can barely say "I'm passing, I'm making it."

I'm seriously considering going to my teachers for help. My parents wouldn't understand if I tried to explain. They would only raise hell and break down every reason I had and make them look like vain excuses of a lying girl who is trying to cover up for being lazy.

When yes, I can be lazy. But fact of the matter is I couldn't set pencil to paper easily for a good month and a half. I'm only trying now because it's the only choice I have.

But, I'm done.

I can't stand my family and their pressuring talks of college and money and jobs, their ideas of the future for me.

I know what I want to do with my life, so kindly, leave me alone. If you have nothing supportive to say get out, I don't want that here.

I'd rather sit in maddening silence for hours than another lecture about my school, college and jobs.

I get it already, it's important. They act like I don't know the massive pressure that looms over me is a creation of the fear that I am going nowhere which was given to me by them.

I can't go a day without messing something up.

I can't ever make them happy.