What if you were so broken things couldn't get fixed. What if the only way out is doing something that you vowed to yourself you'd never do?

"Diana? Are you okay?" I looked into his brown golden speckled eyes and bit my lip. 

"Yes." I breathed. He continued and held me close, so close he was holding my heart. It confused me. Our gasps synced together. 

"Thank you." He whispers. I only nod and turn away from him. 

One Year Later

"Hey, Diana? Are you free later today?" I look over my shoulder and see my friend Jessie racing after me. I stop and smile at her. 

"I should be," I respond. I see her sigh in relief. I chuckle. 

"Good, Mr. Fran really needs this back from me and if I don't hand it in. Off with my head." She dramatically dies. I shake my head. 

"Yeah, I get that," I say patting her back. We continue down the hall and I see Carter smirking at me. Shit.

"My, my what do we have here?" Carter purrs. 

"Just leave us alone we have work to do." I snap. Carter stares at me with interest. 

"Whatever you say kitten." He leans closer to me. "I'll be waiting." He whispers for my ears only. I clench my fists. He walks away and I growl. Jessie grabs my shoulder. 

"Carter, he just spoke to us!" She sighs dreamily. I roll my eyes. 

"Whatever we have work to do come on." I hiss walking in the opposite direction of Carter. We get her her house and start working on her math problems. We finish by 7:30 pm and by then I am exhausted. 

"Goodnight Ms. McCartney," I call from the door. Jessie's Mom waves back at me. 

"Goodnight dear." I smile and close the door behind me. I hear the door lock and I walk to the street.  I hum a song and swing my arms childishly. A car drives by me slowly and the window rolls down. 

"Hello Kitten." I clench my fists. 

"What do you want?" I snap. He stops the car but I keep walking. 

"I just want to talk." He calls after me. I hear him open and close the car door. 

"If you wanted to talk you would have a long time ago." I say my gaze locked onto a nearby tree. I hear him run up behind me but I do not acknowledge him. 

"Diana, please." I stop and look at him. 

"You haven't said my name in awhile." I say. His eyes looked drained from joy and my heart drops. 

"Just five minutes please." He begs. I scoff. 

"You want time? You should have thought of that before you left me." I snap. He places his body in front of me to stop me. 

"Diana, I have not stopped thinking about you. You are everywhere and I cannot escape you. I think I am in love with you." He says. I stare at him. 

"You're lying, why would you love me. I am broken, don't waste your time." I say pushing past him. 

"Please, I can't stop thinking about you." He follows me. 

"You left me. That night, I thought you cared but you left me. I was left to be humiliated. Screw you and your dumbass confession. You're just full of bullshit." I scream. He looks at me with hurt in his eyes. 

"I never meant it to end like that. Please just let me explain myself." He begs. Tears form in my eyes but I refuse to let them fall. 

"I hope someone will love you better then I can." I whisper. A tear escapes my eye and rolls down my cheek. Carter takes a few steps towards me and wraps me up in his arms. I close my eyes and lose my heart once again. 

"You are mean." I cry. 

"Only to you Kitten." He whispers gently. I hug him back and cry into his shoulder. 

"I never meant to leave you, I never realized I wanted you more than popularity." I smack him. 

"Shut up, you're ruining the moment." I say leaning my head on his shoulder. He laughs. 

"You are the most beautiful person I've ever met." He whispers. I push him away. 

"Okay moment ruined." I turn away from him and walk away. 

"So kitten do you love me back?" I look over my shoulder and smile. 

"I do not think I can love you back." I admit. He smirks. 

"I'll find away to make you love me, I always win in the end." He laughs. I look to the ground. 

"I do not think you'll win this time." I whisper. 

"Goodnight Kitten, I'll see you tomorrow." 

"Yeah, goodnight." I say and continue walking to my house in the night. I look up and exhale watching my breath in the cold air. My phone rings and I snap out of my daydream. I take it out and notice the name. I flinch and press accept. 

"Hello mom." 

"You have been gone for a long time where are you? Do you need me to come get you? Was it that mother? I knew she was a curfew wrecker." Not even a hello, nice. 

"No mom. I was held later because I had a bit of work I didn't think would take long. I am five minutes from the house." I explain trying not to laugh. I hear mom sigh. 

"You my dear worry me sometimes, after last year I feel like I should watch you more carefully. I don't want you to be hurt more than you already were." I close my eyes and stifle a sigh. 

"Mom, I love you see you in five." I hang up and continue walking. Did Carter mean it? Was it wishful thinking? What if this was not real? I walk up to my front door and unlock it. My mom stands in the front and embraces me. 

"I love you and I am sorry. I have not been the best but I am trying." Mom sniffles. I hug her and chuckle. 

"Dear mother, you have worked yourself silly. You need rest." I say gently. Mom nods against my hair making it tickle my nose. 

"You are right, but I just don't want to leave you." I pull away and look her in the eye. 

"Mom, your life is about you not me. You just guide me and that is enough." I wipe her tears away and kiss her forehead. 

"You're just like your dad." I hug her. 

"I have a project I want to finish up tomorrow morning so I am going to sleep. Goodnight mom." I say giving her another kiss on her head. 

"Goodnight, how have I become so lucky?" I chuckle and walk up the stairs to my room. I look at my phone and see three texts from Jessie telling me how grateful she is. I laugh and text her a smiley face. I kick off my shoes and don't bother with clothing. I flop into my bed and fall asleep dreaming about Carter. 

I wake up to my mom calling my name. 

"I am up sorry mom!" I yell jumping out of bed. I scramble around the room trying to find decent clothing to wear. The best I have is an oversized hoodie and black leggings so I go with that. I grab my backpack and sling it over my shoulders. I run out of my room into someone. I blink. 

"I am so sorry, I did not see you there?" I trail off. Standing before me is a man I have never seen in my life. 

"Oh! Diana you are up! Meet Daniel, he is going to be here more often." Mom says walking into the hallway wearing a bright pink apron and a matching dress. I sigh. 

"Okay whatever, I'll meet your new boyfriend later right now I am super late." I bolt to the kitchen and grab a piece of bread. I glance at the toster and shake my head. No time. 

"Bye mom, bye mom's new boyfriend I am sure you are lovely but I have to go now." I say running to the front door. 

"My phone!" I scream and run back into the hallway barely missing the man again. I brust through my door and grab my phone. I shoot Jessie a text asking her to pick me up. She repiles and I run through the house to the front door again. 

"Hey! I was coming to pick you up just before you texted me so I am early." Jessie calls from her car. My heart bursts with love for my friend. 

"I love you even more." I say quickly climbing into her car. 

"Coffee?" She gestures to an iced coffee in the cup holder. 

"Are you a saviour or what?" I say grabbing the coffee and taking big sips. Jessie laughs. 

"I know, now lets go." We make it on time and I run to my Bio classroom. I notice I am one of two people in the room and sigh happily. 

"Hello Kitten, I saved you a seat next to me." I jump and look at the desk closest to the door. Carter smiles and I mentally slap myself. 

"Uh sure." I sit next to him and pull out my notebook and pencil kit. Carter leans onto my shoulder. 

"You look nice today." I push him away. 

"Stop people will think something is going on but that is not the case." I say pulling out a red pen. 

"I don't know about that." He says. I slam my head against the desk and groan. 

"I hate you." 

"I love you." 

Throughout the class he smiles and slings an arm across my shoulders. I lose myself and think about us, what if he is just doing this for fun? What if he does not like me like he says he does? I close my eyes and rub my head. 

"I hate this." I say. 

"You hate what?" Carter asks. I blush. 

"I am sorry that just came out." I ramble. Carter smiles. 

"I know what you mean. If you need time I can wait." The bell rings and I sigh. I watch as he leaves and the classroom empty. 

"Why can't life be easier?" I whisper and pack my things up. The whole day goes pass like a blur and I think of his words. I can't help but ask. 

What if I am dreaming?