For my lover

I wake up with him in my arms and I smile. How have I gotten so lucky to have a guy like this? He sneezes and nuzzles deeper into my shoulder. I hold back a giggle. I rub the back of his ear as he sleeps soundly. Watching him sleep I am taken back to the first time meeting him. 

~

"He just won't let me hang out, Tay. I would, but I can't." I say with tears in my eyes. Tay lets out a low growl. 

"Everyone misses you and you never come visit, and where the hell is that outfit I bought you?" She asks. I can tell she's ready to go crazy so I stay silent. 

"He controls what you wear?" She snaps. I flinch. She clicks her tongue. Then Brandon comes over, he is instantly at my side and holds me close to him. I cringe inwardly. 

"Why is Tay here babe?" Brandon asks. 

"She just wanted me to hang out with her friends." I explain. I feel his arms tighten around my waist and I let out a whimper. Tay glares at him knowing she'd kill him if I weren't here. But I love him, don't I?

"Yeah she's going to spend time with me today, not you. Get your hands off her. She's also wearing the outfit I bought for her." Tay snaps. I shift uncomfortably in my seat. 

"You always had a sense of humour, Tay, but she is spending time with me today, we have a date." Brandon replies. I stare in shock.

"No we don't." I squeak. Brandon's hand digs into my hip. I bite my lip while I try not to cry out. Tay sees this and scoffs. 

"You treat her like shit and you never allow her to do anything! What the fuck is wrong with you? Let her go right now and we won't have a problem." She steps closer to him. Pulling me up with him he grabs my wrist and holds it tightly. 

"No, I won't because you are going to back off." He snaps. I start to cry. 

"Just let me go, you fucking psychopath!" I scream. I rip my arm away from him and hide behind Tay. I start to ugly cry, not caring how I look anymore. I just want everything to stop. Tay holds my hand and pulls me away. We reach a place where all her friends are gathered. I start to cry and she throws a hoodie at me. I put it on to hide my bare skin from the outfit I was forced to wear, not only that, but also the bruises he left. 

"Tay! Omg! You poor thing! Tay, who the fuck did this to her?" Mia freaks out. I only met Mia once very briefly. I collapse in her arms and sob. 

"That pathetic nobody. Remember him?" Tay grumbles. Mia holds me tighter and I can't help but ugly cry. My eye catches with four new people and I hide my face. 

"Im so sorry Im not a crybaby I promise." I whimper. Everyone looks at me. 

"Oh hun, you have nothing to be sorry for. Tay told us about that lowlife fucker." An e-girl with long legs and pretty make up says. She sits on a guys lap who is silent. 

"Thank you." I whisper. A guy makes his way to me and grabs my hand. 

"Im Josh, why don't we go sit on the couch?" I nod. I follow the kind guy over to the couch and he sits me down. 

"Whats going to happen now? Are you still with him?" He asks calmly, it's an easy question that comes with an easy answer. 

"Im not sure." I reply quietly. Tay unfolds her arms. 

"Excuse me? Um, break up right now." Tay hisses. 

"Tay you dragged me out before I could." I point out. 

"Oh yeah, give me 40 mins, I'll be back." She rushes out of the house where we are at. I sit in shock, do I really want to come back to him?

40 minutes of me watching the group flourish and buzz with good vibes makes me feel isolated. Tay has yet to show up. Josh placed his hand on my knee and every so often he checks in on me. He gives me big brother time even though today was the first time I met him, then I realize I don't know anyone. 

"Hey you good? You just had a look come across your face." Josh says. I blush. 

"I just realized I don't know anyones name." I reply. Josh laughs. 

"Hey sluts, introduce yourself to- I don't think I have your name." Josh blushes. I giggle for the first time in about an hour and half. 

"That's Chai, she's a sweetheart." Mia chimes in. I blush at her compliment but I can't hide the goofy grin that comes across my face. Josh's eyes linger on my face. 

"Im Bash love." The hot e-girl says. I can totally see her name being unique like her. 

"The boy who is sitting with me is Xavier." My eyes wander to Xavier and thats when I notice just how pretty he is. I look away quickly. The girl jumping on the bed chimes in excitedly. 

"Im Bell!" I giggle as she continues to bounce. Mia rolls her eyes at her. Then a girl who I didn't notice before crawls out from under a desk. 

"Hey Im Cat!" I wave at her. Then someone bursts through the door. 

"BITCH WHO WHAT HOW WHEN WHY?" Karu my friend screams. I giggle. 

"Hi Karu." I smile. She comes over and grabs my hands. 

"He did this to you?" She asks. I keep quiet. Just then Tay walks in with Brandon in tow. 

"Chai do it now." She snaps. I flinch. 

"Do what?" Brandon asks. 

"Break up with you." She says like it's obvious. 

"What? No I made one mistake! You can just dump me for not letting you see your friends one time! We were supposed to have a date!" He becomes unstable. 

"We are done." I say with no emotion. The room seems to freeze. 

~

I look back and realize just how much we didn't know each other. I smile remembering our late nights talking about deep shit. He wasn't really awake for those conversations. 

~

"Hey Chai you looking hot tonight!" Josh compliments me. I giggle. 

"If I look so hot why am I so single then?" I joke. Josh rolls his eyes and dances with me. It is not your normal dancing it has a little spice to it. 

"You have a point but if I didn't love a certain someone so much I'd snatch you up." He flirts. I flick his forehead. 

"Chai, you wanna dance with me?" Marsh asks. I smile and grab her hand. We dance and laugh when she gets tired. Xavier how is now dubbed Melon by yours truly laughs. 

"You guys are so weird." He chuckles. 

"Its why you love me so much." I plop myself on his lap. He shakes his head. I get up and change from my short dress to something more comfortable. 

"You know what I love so much?" I ask to no one in particular. 

"What?" Marsh asks. 

"Staying up this late with you guys." I smile. 

"I hate to ruin this but I do have to leave." Josh says as he hugs me. I hug him back. 

"Its alright, see you later!" I giggle. He leaves and Marsh, Melon and I sit there. It isn't uncomfortable. 

"I hate sitting normal." Melon says. 

"Well if you hate it so much sit upside down." Marsh suggests. They both get on their backs and dangle their heads off the sit of the couch. I laugh. 

"Come join us!" Marsh cheers. I join and giggle. 

"Hey! Let's take a picture!" I suggest excitedly. I pull out the camera and take a picture. I caption it: Too Late To Function 

"I hate being single." Marsh states loudly. 

"Preach sister." I giggle. Melon grabs my hand. 

"Will you go out with me?" He asks quietly. I sit up. 

"What?" I ask in complete shock. 

"Will you go out with me?" He asks again. I feel my cheeks get warm. 

"Yes. " I reply. That was the start. Our start. 

~

His eyes slowly open and I watch him. 

"Good morning my love." I whisper gently, I kiss his head. 

"No." He growls. I rub his head gently. 

"I love you." I kiss his head. 

"I love you too." He grumbles. He pulls me closer to his body and cuddles. I swear I got lucky, no one has ever made me felt this way. Our ups and downs have been often yet he was brave enough to stay with me. My messy head full of confused thoughts and messy out look on life. Me, someone who wears jeans and hoodies and dawns last nights make up and smells like sugar and snow. I hug him. 

~

"You know you look pretty right now?" Melon says. I glance at his face on the screen. 

"You should shut the fuck up right now." I snap. I blush and cover my face. He laughs. 

"You do, you always do." He flirts. I roll my eyes. I wear a tank top with shorts and a messy bun with runny mascara. How could he ever find this beautiful? 

"Im almost one hundred percent certain you are lying just to keep me happy." I tease. 

"Why would I lie? I couldn't lie to you." He says seriously. I giggle. I fold my blankets and start to organize my papers for school. 

"Marry me." The words send a shiver down my spin. 

"What?" I look at him. He isn't smiling. 

"Marry me, I need you." He says. I feel tears prickle my eyes. 

"Yes I will." I cry. 

~

I fidget with my "Engagement" ring and giggle. He may be broke but at least he got me a decent looking ring. 

"Why are you laugh?" He moans. 

"You." I nuzzle his head. 

"You shouldn't laugh at me." He looks at me with tired eyes and I am overwhelmed with the urge to kiss his lips. 

"I love you" Now and forever. 

05/20/2021

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The end? For now 

Happy 1 year my lover