HI Loves! I know I haven't been updating, well the fact is. I HAVE A LIFE! Anyways, I wrote this in Social class and I hope you enjoy <3. 

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I walk into my class and my first instinct is to get to the back of the class as quickly as possible. I hurry to my spot and sit down. I look down at my phone and pretend I am texting. Sadly, the truth is that I really don't have friends. The teacher starts to talk and I pull out my laptop to take notes, but in reality I am not taking notes. I did this class last semester so I already know what is coming up. I just block her out and get on discord. 

I enter the server I am in. I know I said I don't have friends, I mean in the real world. I rather talk to people I'll never actually meet. I know thats harsh but I just feel safer. The server is alive with stories about how their lives are so strange. I smile at the jokes. The teacher comes by and looks at me. 

"I know you did this last semester but it would be great if you can participate in this activity, I know you have great ideas." She smiles at me. I nod keeping silent. I have been with her since first semester and I always fail to forget her name. It does not matter, I'll never have her again. She walks away and I continue scrolling through the chat. Someone taps my book and I look up. 

I notice a boy, I don't remember his name nor do I care to. I glance back at my laptop until he taps the desk making a louder noise. I look at him and he grins. I roll my eyes and try to ignore him. He grunts and turns away. I breathe a sigh of relief. I am not up for this today, or any day for that matter. Then a piece of paper lands on my hand. I look up and see the boy smiling like and idiot. I grab the paper and put it at the edge of my desk. I don't open it.  The boy frowns and I do not care. 

The bell rings and I quickly pack everything up. I do not wait for anything else. Im short so escaping the class is an easy feat. I am careful not to bump or step on anyone to avoid apologizing. 

I go to my next class not bothering to care for anything. I go on the classes page and finish the homework until I have to go home. I feel tired and so groggy. I wait for the bell to ring and once again dash out as fast as I can to avoid any talking. Some kids from my art class smile and wave. I barely nod and quickly get out of the school. I run to my car and sit. I just breathe, or at least try to before making my way home. 

I get home and as usual my mother isn't home. I put my jacket, shoes and back pack away and sit at the table. Our house isn't as big as the other kids in school but I don't care. At least I have a place to live. I pull out my laptop and start doing homework. I skip supper and just go straight to bed. There is no point. 

My alarm clock rings and I shut it off. Here I go again, dealing with a world that wants nothing to do with me. I get out of my room and see my mother passed out on the couch. I walk over and put a blanket over her. I give her a kiss on the forehead. 

"Please sleep good mother." I whisper. I get ready and walk out. I barely eat again but at this point I don't care. I sit on the bus and someone sits next to me. I groan. I do not want to deal with this today.

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My friend Zeke pats me on the back. 

"Shit dude, You gave her a note and she didn't even look at it?" Zeke laughs at me. I don't feel embarrassed. I only feel more determined. 

"It doesn't matter, I'll try a bit harder and you'll see." I smirk. Zeke shakes his head.

"You know what I think Jesse? I think you are way too optimistic. That girl hasn't spoken to anyone since 4th grade." He looks at me. I smile.

"Makes it a little fun don't you think?" I grin. Zeke clenches his jaw. We walk towards my Jeep and drive to school. When I get to parking lot I see the shy girl. I have no clue what her name is, no one does. The teachers never call on her cuz she shows up goes to the teacher and gives them a note then sits down at the back. She is a bit strange. I am not judging her, in fact I am quite taken with her. She is beautiful, her tiny frame buried under oversized hoodies and black leggings that show just how strong she really is. 

"Earth to Jesse. Where are you?" Zeke sings. I park the Jeep and groan. 

"You know, if I were you I'd give up. That girl is untouchable." Zeke says in a serious tone. I shake my head. 

"Zeke, do you really have no faith in me? Im hurt!" I dramatically sigh. Zeke smiles a little then grows serious. 

"Don't get hurt okay?" He says. I nod, but I cannot promise something I cannot control. We get out and walk towards the school. 

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I pass the paper with my name and last name on it to the teacher. She looks at me and nods. I leave and sit where I normally sit and pull out my notes and pencils. The class starts slowly trickling into class. I look down at my notes and bite my lip. Im not nervous but Im also not prepared for people. I hear a tap on my desk and I look up. It is the same boy as yesterday. I glare at him, yet he does not move. 

"My name is Jesse, what's yours?" He asks. He smiles revealing perfect teeth.  I look away not bothering to answer him. 

"I know you heard me kitten, why don't you answer?" I glance at him. I scoff. 

"Students please be in your seats, Jesse don't bother the poor girl. Sit down." The teacher scolds Jesse. I smile a little. Good. 

The class resumes and the teacher talks about how our society is changing. She asks our opinions and creates class discussion. I don't bother participating, she knows I have social anxiety. 

"Thank you students for your opinions, they were very insightful. Now, I want you to research how current world events around the world or city or even country effect us. I want you to work in groups." She instructs. I look up at her wide eyed. The bell rings and everyone gets up. I pack my stuff up and quickly make my way to the teacher. I write on a piece of paper.

Can I work alone?

The teacher gives me a look. "Can you just work with a group, you do not have to present or talk in front of the class. I just want you to work with them. This is a part of your grade." She explains. I feel my cheeks growing hot. 

I can't, I am sorry but I have to do this alone. Please.

She shakes her head. I blink tears away. I will not be desperate enough to cry. Then a hand comes up onto my shoulder. 

"Hey, Ms. Green, Why don't I put her in my group. It is me, Zeke, and Cara." I recognize the voice. I do not dare look at him. I cannot or I will start to cry. Ms. Green looks at me and I look away. 

"Yes, take her in your group. Now I have supervision for this block. You know how the kids are." She grabs her purse and walks out. I grit my teeth and turn around. Jesse's eyes widen and he backs away hands raised. For the first time, I feel like screaming. 

"Look Im sorry but-"

"Shut the fuck up." I hiss quietly. Jesse's jaw drops. 

"What?" He looks astounded. I push him and run out of the class. As Im walking down the hall I let a tear fall. 

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I stand, completely at a loss for words. Did she just swear at me?

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Thank you, Im makin this into parts. It'll take some time tho. I am quite a busy human. Thank you for reading!

Chai Outttttt