There isn't always a reason.

      You didn't do anything to deserve the bad things that are happening in your life.

     Your family isn't cursed.

     You aren't cursed.

     This isn't karma for something you've done in the past.

     You are a victim of bad luck. You are not a victim of God's chosen wrath.

      God (if there is a such) has no reason to resent you or treat you this way.

     You are not being punished for past lives or this life.

      I know you've been questioning your faith; a faith that has been important to you for so long.

      You've so long believed in a God, but you're struggling to maintain this belief and love for a higher power that would allow such pain.

      I won't voice the empty reassurance that everything happens for a reason; that this is part of God's plan.

      Because there's no reason I could voice that means turning this situation positive.

     Sometimes life just sucks.

     Sometimes people are dealt shitty hands.

     Sometimes life is cruel.

     Sometimes bad things happen to good people.

     If there was such a thing as faith repaying us, good or bad, for the things we've done, cancer and every other kind of misfortune would hit only rapists, pedophiles, murderers, and so on.

     Unfortunately that's not our reality.

     Sometimes the kindest souls live the most troubling times.

     I'm not trying to invalidate your feelings.

     I know it feels like the world is against you right now.

     Let yourself feel that anger. The sadness, rage and grief.

     Cry until your eyes dry out.

     Yell at the top of your lungs.

     Let yourself feel all those emotions burning inside.

      But let go of that sense of guilt. The guilt and belief that you did something to deserve this. Because you didn't.

      Life doesn't work that way.