Today
Amiel came up to me
For the first time
I didn't have to chase him
To get heard
When others were around
And he started saying something

I wanted to say "screw off"
And leave
But I only left
Because he would have been confused
Because I've hardly ever told him how I felt

I need to have the courage to show my friends how I feel
I should start
Ignoring them
Ditching them
Forgetting about them
Making them the third wheel in my life

Except there's one problem

I don't know if they would care

Maybe I could test them
And then I could know
If they care or not

I don't know if they will

Because
They don't know
That they are
The reason for

My sadness