Two years later,

Christopher

A flame,warm and bright radiating a gold glow almost hauntingly beautiful resembling love at its warmest. You spark a flame or ignite it intentionally either way it lights up like a magician performing a magic trick,God's wonders. One mistake and it goes out,it dies. How do you light it again? you don't,it's murdered just like how you can't make the dead come alive again. A flame is fragile just like the heart that lit it.

It only takes one to break another and none to take out the flame burning on the candle stick.

Her bright hazel pupils bore into my chocolate ones with her fingers trailing across my skin creating different patterns on my skin. A slight sigh emitted passed my lips diverting her eyes to my lips.The morning sun rays peeking through the blinds shone on her golden hazel melanin creating a radiancy reflecting her beauty. Our flame is still burning and grows by the second. I love her,I don't quite understand love but I am certain what we have is genuine and different.

I sat up grabbing my reading glasses and putting them on and so did she with her glasses. I grab the notepad and pen,I pursed my lips arching my eyebrow as I tap the end of the pen lightly against my cranium sphenoid until something suitable came into mind. I jotted it down quickly before it slipped my mind. I tore off the paper from the pad handig it over to her.She adjusted her glasses and a smile appeared on her face creating a glow on her face and her beautiful orbs to light up.

"Morning without you is a dwindled dawn."She re-read out loud,her eyes not leaving mine for a second."by Emily Dickinson but from me to you." She finished saying word for word what I wrote down. I intertwined our hands as her irises corse into mine as she was searching for something. She turned her back to me leaning back with her head resting on my shoulder with my arms automatically wrapping around her,refuging her,whilst our fingers intertwined.

I placed a kiss on her cheek and her hand travelled up to my face as my kisses trail down to herr neck, a small moan escapes her lips. We haven't had any physical intercourse ever since she gave birth,It was never a problem since we were so busy raising the twins and focusing on our careers. My hand snaked up to her left breast then she abruptly held my hand moving them off her and she suddenly got up slipping on her white house shoes. I knitted my eyebrows in confusion fixing my glasses up.

"Is everything okay?" I asked holding her hand grabbing her attention. She looked down at my hand holding hers then back up at my face. She removed her hand from my hold pushing her glasses into her hair.

"Oh no n-nothing I just need to um wake the kids up,I don't like them over-sleeping or else they won't sleep later on." She spoke hesitantly exiting our bedroom. There's something bothering her,and this is not the first time she's done this. Multiple times we get time alone,she cuts me off. I shrug it off getting out of bed,I grab my phone making my way downstairs to the kitchen. I grab the orange juice carton and pour some into my glass.

I log onto my Instagram and get dozens of notifications as always. I switch to my fanpage account,iphuckedyourbish, reading a few memes then a story from The Shade Room came across my feed. 'Singer,Chris Brown, served with restraining order from ex-girlfriend,Karrueche Tran for allegedly abusing her during their relationship.' I sighed rolling my eyes at this absurd headline I just read. Why can't she just leave me the hell alone,I already got fake news up my ass and now this shit? I switch back to my account and finding that post so I can comment.

"I'm so sick of these thirsty adults. Jacob has the obsession. Her team is trying their best. For what? No one has served me and the lenghts they are going ,I should call them stalkers.
What's even more fucked up is that,they played off my past by saying I abused her. c'mon now,opening old wounds to make Kae a victim,that's some evil shit.Sad part,y'all believe it."Leave her alone". Provoking me to spazz so they can have something. Notice that this shit happens when they need to promote something .

No one cares, especially me.That's why I'm being slandered. Nobody will care about them if my name isn't involved. I want nothing to do with her...you think I wanna chase or still be with someone who would try to destroy me? I'm fucking married if anyone decided to recall, I got two kids at home and a wife whom I love dearly. She doesn't need a restraining order from me.I need one from them." I sent the long paragraph trying to open these ignorant minds. For instance Demi Lovato, her career died when Sunny or Sonny with the chance or whatever ended and she's fucking telling me to get a job? I was actually supporting her at one stage.

"And I will not just accept papers from any lawyer and I will not go to court to admit guilt to further tarnish who I am. I pled guilty in the Rihanna case because I was. I refuse to allow these evil-hearted people to label me and lie because they think it will skyrocket their career. Just stay away from me." I hit send emitting breath from thy lips, I looked up to see Bey standing in front of me with Sabrina on her hip laying her sleepy head on her shoulder and Reagan sitting on the counter drinking my juice spilling a few times.

"What's bothering you babe?" She asked getting their purity and blended vegetables ready. I don't know why Bey feeds my kids that shit because I sure won't. She poured some peas and green beans into the blender. Reagan looked at me like he knows what that is. I am so glad I ain't eating that.

"I'm scared for you too, little man." I said brushing my fingers through his golden brown curls which he got from his mother."Nothing just the usual negativity on social media."

"You need to stop going on social media all together,just post what you've gotta post and log out."She shrugged as if it was easy.

"You don't understand how addicting it is because you don't even follow anybody." She smirked putting Sabrina next to Reagan on the counter.

"And how would you know?"She gave me this smirk as if she was hiding something, I searched her name up and saw she was following one person,what in tarnation? I pressed on it and saw she was following me.

"Is that how much you love me?" I chuckled and she opened her arms as wide as she could to show how much she loved me."TMZ finna be on my ass when they see this"

"language and they can't say nothing and if they do say anything they just jealous because what we have is real." She poured the mixture of greens into seperate disney bowls, one was a Frozen theme and the other was a Cars theme. "Okay it's time to eat." She brought the bowls over to them and took a half a spoon full, Sabrina shook her head saying no.

"She don't want that, man I wouldn't even eat it." She tilted her head to the side giving me a are you serious look.

"It's healthy and good for them." She pouted defending this substance, I just let her be. She tried feeding Sabrina again but she refused."C'mon baby the more you eat,the faster we'll finish."

"No you eat first." She pointed at her with her small finger,I held in my laugh knowing I was growing red since I was unfortunetly lightskin as everybody teases me about. Bey looked at me as if she was asking for help but I pretended like I didn't see anything.

"It's you fo-"

"No,mwommy eat first now." Brina folded her arms pouting her lips demanding her to eat it first,meanwhile Reagan decided he wanted to feed himself and get over it so my job was done. She opened her mouth hesitantly bringing the spoon to her mouth finally eating that green stuff swallowing it with her face scrunched up,Brina and Reagan bursted out laughing as if they've been planning this the whole time. They slick and I feel like they got it from me.

"You see it's d-delicious and full of nutrient." She plastered a fake smile upon her lips finally getting Brina to eat her food.

We decided to take the kids to Giggles n Hugs just to play around,I actually have to be in the studio working on my upcoming album but who was going to watch over the kids,Bey also has some work to do but as I said who was going to look after the kid's since she doesn't want to get a nanny because she doesn't like the idea of a person taking care of 'her' children.

"Daddy, mwommy look!" Reagan exclaimed grabbing our attention so we can see that he reached the top of the net climb.

"Me too!" brina chimed in with her soft tiny voice which warmed my heart.They were giggling at their accomplishment.

"Well done babies."Bey cooed whilst clapping for them.

"Daddy's gonna buy you ice-cream." I joked but they took it literally when they exclaimed in excitement,I guess I'm getting them after all. They continued playing. Bey took my hand and interlocked it with hers,she loves holding my hand,she rests her head on my shoulder.

I look down at her facial feature from her soft petite lips only covered in lipgloss to her her hazel eyes,her shimmering golden brown melanin radiating off the light in the room.She grows beautiful by the minute and I don't know how she's with my ugly ass. I looked better than before since I went to rehab and stopped smoking and doing drugs.

"This morning-"

"I'm menstruating, Christopher."She spat dryly at me,what did I do? I just let her be even though she just ended her cycle about a week ago. Do I put her off? Is she disgusted of me? Have I done something wrong? Why can't I make love to my wife?

"Alright,um I going to New York this weekend just to promote 50's campaign-"

"By basically partying?" She arched her eyebrow.

"I won't drink or anything,I'll just be there for a few pictures that's all."

"It's a party." She paused, and quickly shook her head. "You're going to be tempted and fall under-pressure and go back to your old ways again. Can't you help him promo-"

"I wasn't asking for your permission,I was informing you, I'm a grown man I can do whatever I want, no disrespect but if I feel the need to go,I'll go." I spoke,she kept quiet for awhile removing herself from me. I tilted my head back slightly sighing knowing that that came out wrong. "I'm sorr-"

"Don't be sorry,you're right you're a grown man and you can do whatever pleases you." She said switching on her phone, she's being anti-social with me which means she's mad with me. "Why did you reply to that shit about Kae,your rant is blowing up all over social media,you do realise you're just feeding into them? I told you to lay off social..."I zoned out blocking out her words,I don't know why maybe because she tells me this everytime. I had to put out what I was feeling,I'm tired of being taken for granted.

"Cool stuff." I said when she was done speaking.

"You weren't even listening to me,were you?" I nodded and she rolled her eyes.

"It would be nice for you to tell me what's going on with you instead of you being childish coming up with all these excuses." I blurted out.

"I'm being childish? y'know what I'm not about to argue with you in public nor in front of our kids." She put away her phone taking out two yogurt pots for the twins to snack on.

"Someday you're going to have to tell me." I said and she just looked at me before calling the kids to come eat. They both came running when they saw what they were gonna eat. "I love you." I placed my hand over hers and she looked at it before removing it to help Reagan open his yogurt.

"I love you too." She muttered not even looking me in the eyes,I know she's mad so I won't fret. I did not intend for this to be a fight between us but I hope she forgives me.

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