Beyoncé

Spring, time for all things to grow,bloom and prosper into their planned settlements. Sustainability was never the seeking but the eye opener of the journey to nowhere.

All things living have energy,in different forms,but we share that energy to grow into something better and some worse. Growth is a leap of faith because you never know what could happen but for the reasoning of feeling we take that leap of faith but with ensuring we have no regrets at the results; A statement majority and most likely all of us have misinterpreted.

I am a flower but I want to be just like one;to grow into something beautiful but to produce another that is beyond compare like the one's growing inside of me. The warmth, love and happiness flowing through me, coursing around trying to fill every gap, a love abound which I wouldn't trade for the world. The honor to be a mother and to be called somebody's wife is a blessing I see no regrets in, we're growing and multiplying into something greater.

I walked, well waddled with this heavy hold I'm carrying, towards Chris, my husband. The fact that I can call him that is over-whelming. One hand rubbing my growing belly softly in circular motions and the other on my lower back to support. It was tiring but I want to stay active so my growing babies come out healthy and that I am too. I close his eyes from behind, a smile forming on his lips as he knew it was me. Nobody encouraged, even my own family, me to take the route of being in a relationship with a man who not only assaulted a woman but a countless other wrongful actions. Especially with my image being entitled to being a feminist.

I don't care and never did, the man changed and moved on, he learnt from his mistake. Rihanna forgave him a long time ago and them being friends to this day proved to me that she had forgiven him and moved on. The most important part is he learnt from his mistake. We're all human and have emotions, he just needed help and he did, I'm going to leave it at that because I don't nor does he need to explain himself to anyone.

"Oh Melanie, we can't tell my wife about us, she might be lurking the corridors." He said holding my wrists but he didn't remove my hands from his eyes.

"She's probably sleeping with her pregnant ass, pregnant woman are so annoying,right?" I played along placing a peck on his shoulder.

"They are but they better than any other side chick could ever be especially my wife, she slays all of them bitches with her 'pregnant ass' and I love her to even think of a split second that I'd go for another." He removed my hands standing up to meet my eye level. He brought me closer to him placing a kiss on my cheek with our hands intertwined. I might be older than him and as young as he is he was the one who brought up the marriage idea. People call me a cougar but being a cougar never felt this good."What are you doing here, you should be at home resting."

"Are you being pregtist?" I arched my eyebrow with a smirk playing upon my lips. He knitted his eyebrows before bursting into laughter.

"And for a while I thought I was the originator of creating words." I playfully punched him causing him to step back so I couldn't hurt him again.

"Well you're a bad influence then Mr Brown."

"I can't help but to put you under it Mrs Brown." He poked his lips wanting me to kiss him but I nudged his face away and as if on cue all of Chris' back-up dancers, singers, band, backstage workers, sound coordinators, lighting team and his friends Fabulous, Casanova and 50 cent walked out, chattering among themselves.

"We found him with his life support, as you figured Natalie." Jake's voice over-lapping everybody's voice. Chris walked behind me wrapping his hands around my waist rubbing my belly as he pecked my cheek, he is so petty.

"We get it, young G is onto better things now." Cas said waving off Chris' actions causing me to chuckle with everybody else.

"You should purchase it also it's called 'What's best for me' find it at any retail store, T's and C's apply." Chris spoke like an advertisement showcasing a product. He's such a character.

"Chris preach your word, man."Jake said gathering everyone into a circle holding hands like we used to back in kindergarten. We shared a light prayer to suffice the performance.

"We've come this far, working hard, giving it our all and honestly this tour wouldn't​ have been a great success without you guys and now since this is our last show for the Party Tour let's show the audience what we are made of regardless of how much we've been degraded, slandered and dragged through dirt we are warriors who have been given battles by the man above for God only gives his toughest battles to his strongest soldiers. We are a team that will work together to make somebody's night a night to remember, are you with me?" He stretched out his hand to the middle of the circle looking around the circle as one by one everyone placed their hand on top of his including mine and a smile spread upon my face.

"Team breezy!"We shouted in unison as we lifted our hands into the air followed by a few chuckles in the air.

"C'mon big boy, go show these motherfuckers what you're made of."I patted his back motioning him to go since it was time for him to perform.

"Wish me luck"

"Luck is for suckers but mine is for winners,which is only you."I threw an imaginary ball to him and he caught it putting it into his pocket before he walked onto the platform that will rise onto the stage. I fall deeper in love with him every day.

"If you're only as good as the company keep, then I'mma blame you for what they say about me."I heard his voice boom across the whole arena hearing the crowd scream not believing he's legit there. I made my way over to where the floor sections was with his security guards so no fan can do harm to me even if it's not intended.

"I want you tonight to tell your loved ones how much you appreciate them and even if the person next to you is a stranger tell them you appreciate them"He announced onto the microphone and everyone did as he said including his dancers and band players, this was sudden and unrehearsed but I know it won't be a big of a deal. He looked down and saw me blowing kisses at him and he smiled uncontrollably. "How can I forgot my baby, I appreciate you more than you think, I love you!"My  face showed on the big screen and the crowd went wild to see that I was here in flesh. I made a heart shape with my hands as my cheeks burned bright pink.

"Everywhere, everywhere, everywhere I go"He sang giving the band players a head start. The auditorium singing along,and me,to his song called Beautiful People. His performance was phenomenal as usual,he never fails to put a smile on my face or anybody elses. A sharp pain hit my lower stomach causing my hand to instantly clench onto it.

"Ma'am are you okay?" The security guard asked me placing his hand on my back to support me since I nearly fell. The pain was worsening by the minute until I felt the inner parts of my pants moisten,I looked up at Chris whom was dancing in deep concentration then I looked at the security guard.

"My water just broke." I spoke over the loud music and screaming only for him to hear,he immediately notified his partner before they carried me rushing over to the SUV. Jake saw us and stopped them wondering where they taking me.

"Wait,hold up,where are you taking her? where are they taking you?" He asked with his eyebrows knitted, obviously looking out for Chris. I opened my mouth to speak but I felt the sharp pain again and I winced in pain.

"We're taking her to the hospital,sir." The guard spoke up.

"With who's consent?" He folded his arms.

"Mine!Goddamnit!" I screamed the pain worsening by the second. Jake finally took the hint that I was going in labor and he cooperated. I can't believe I'm finally going to be a mom of two beautiful seedlings.

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"I'm here! I'm here, don't worry I'm here." Chris exclaimed over the commotion amongst the doctors getting ready to deliver the babies and over all the grunts and screaming coming from me trying to push.

He rolled up his sleeves of the clothes he's supposed to wear that the nurses are also wearing. He rushes over to her side and I instantly grab his hand tightly. He looked down at me with loving yet scared eyes, scared to be a father and for what's bound to happen. I am too but we can face this together. I know and believe we can.  "Calm down, love, everything's going to be okay."

"Promise me that you won't leave."Those words left my lips nothing coming from my anatomy but my soul,he wrapped both his hands around my one hand.

"I won't,never,I promise." He said. A highlight in our lives lie upon this precious moment;Welcoming our children to this world with open arms. Chris is not the ideal man everyone imaged me with,but he's the love of my life.

"Are you ready?" The doctor asked me standing in between my legs,I nodded and turned my head over to him and he looked over to me and nodded hesitantly,he's just afraid.I place my other hand on his.

"Don't be afraid,I'll take every step with you,I promise."

The worry in his eyes faded and all I saw was love. He pecked my forehead.

11:11pm, 9 June 2017; Reagan Alexander Brown-Reagan meaning 'little king'- and Sabrina Theophilia Athena Brown-Theophilia meaning 'loved by God- were born.

The night Christopher and I became parents. I watched Chris holding one of his kids with a tear rolling down his cheek,it warmed my heart. A weak smile formed upon my lips due to how tired and weak I felt.

"Hey little man,it's me that scary voice you've been hearing." He placed a kiss on his forehead.He tilted the baby when he realised I had woken up. "Here's mommy,but let's not disturb her,you tired her out with your big head."

"Don't you be calling my baby out,Christopher."He stuck his tongue out causing me to chuckle.

A flower bud we were,a flower slowly blooming we are.

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