A/N: this is rushed ok i didn't edit well i'm so sorry :/
chapter 30 is later (;

Han Bi's POV

I wiped my stupid tears but they kept on streaming down my eye sockets. My heart couldn't stop racing. I'm here, standing in front of my uncle's office and I just can't take it. Why am I treated like this? My heart, is wounded all over. The scars left from yesterday still hurt. I want to disappear in front everybody and never come back. That's why I came here, in front of the principal's office.

I lied to everyone.

True, there are people I've known to be trustworthy like Hanna, Sanghyuk, Soojin, Ye-Eun... but I'm the one here just playing with their trust.

Though Hanna and Sanghyuk are into this scheme, I felt like I dragged them into this in such and awful way. Who would like that?

I'm fake.

I came here pretending to be someone I'm not, looking like I'm begging for everyone's attention the wrong way. Like, 'Hey, I'm a commoner, please notice me and talk shit about me.'

Jin's right about this. Everyone cares about who you are and they use all the information they get from you to use against you and to judge you the way you are. Your reputation is everything you needed to protect the most. Crazy, isn't it? That's why everyone here despises Kwon Han Bi for being a fake lying bitch who begs for attention, right?

Although these things aren't really true, I'm leaving.

Why is my secret revealed and not Kim Seokjin? Why? It's because he pretended to be someone better? I pretended to be someone worse.. maybe that's why.

I remember all those people in the past that I forgave no matter how much they hurt me.

You know what's different from Seokjin to these people? I still wanted to stay with him and go on with the way we are. Unlike those people from the past that I learned to forgive and forget.

I took a deep breath and stood up, trudging my way towards the principal's office. My hands found its way to the doorknob and I began to doubt why am I here?

Why am I not going back? To Soojin, to Ye-eun, Sanghyuk, to all the people who trusted me and say I'm sorry? I know that I don't need to be forgiven, but I just want to tell them that I'm sorry.

When I thought about how badly I want to disappear to the dark and never show my face to everyone here again, I opened the door and gulped. I chose this path and I end this path.

I tried to wipe my tears again but they're too stubborn and just kept on falling down. It's my uncle, and he's surprised once he saw me.

"Oh, Han Bi? Why are you here? Why aren't you in your class? Why aren't you wearing your school uniform? Are you... crying?" He asked consecutively in concern. I lost it again seriously, lost it in front of him.

"I want to stop studying here." I blunted, trying to not make my emotions get the best of me for another time. "And I want to ask you a favor."

His eyes widened in confusion. "Why so suddenly? Did something go wrong? School is ending in two months." He reminded.

"E-Everybody knows.. Besides, I can't last longer here. I'll finish school at home and graduate in another school, far away. But please let me ask you this favor.." I asked in a soft voice, my pained snifles being loudly heard. The look in his eyes softened. I'm crying even harder.

The scene just yesterday kept on repeating in my head. It hurts, you know? I made lots of memories in school, mostly bad ones that I liked, just now I can't bear it any longer.

"Don't cry, Han Bi. It will be okay. I will call your parents and tell them about this. What is this favor you want to ask me." He asked. I nodded slowly, looking at the ground, subsequently clenching my fists tight.

"Expel Yoon Taejun." I asked, which is more like a command.

His eyes widened. "What? Why?"

"He hurts too many people. Hanna explained to me yesterday that she saw him spilling my secret to everyone. I personally think it will be better if he doesn't go to this school anymore because he might hurt more people, especially those who I care about." I explained, Ye-eun appearing in my mind.

He looked at me for a second before sighing. "I'll try to consider your opinion, but what matters now is all about you okay?" He asked. I forced out a smile.

Once my parents know about this, I will disappear from this school. Simple as that. I might even go abroad if I want. My parents always stick to my decision and to what makes me happy.

Leaving with a painful background and starting again is probably what I want forow.

There are so many problems left, and the biggest one yet is that my heart won't heal but it beats for someone. Freaking Kim Seokjin. Time's passing and passing. I know people always come and go and I'm going.

I looked at the time. It's their break in like three minutes. I need to get going or I will be caught and be humiliated.

"I'm g-going. Thank you for understanding me." I said in a low voice, heading my way out. Once I noticed more and more students are coming out of their classrooms, I ran away. I found myself in the girls' bathroom and saw Soojin there. Out came Ye-eun from the stall.

"Oh, Han Bi. Why aren't you wearing a school uniform? Were you crying? You can talk to us." Soojin suggested right away after seeing me. I shook my head and forced a smile to them.

"Yeah, I saw what's on the school paper yesterday. Soojin and I tried our best to find you but we can't find you anywhere." Ye-eun worriedly said.

I took a deep breath.

"Well.. you two can't find me it's because I knew that staying could hurt me more. Thanks for everything but I'm sorry for lying to you. It's okay if you don't forgive me and hate me. I'm sorry. I'm going to leave now." I said with a deep sigh. They were confused at first but then gave me a sympathetic look.

Ye-eun came to me and put her hand on my shoulder. "It's okay, Han Bi. Just go where you think will do good for you." She said.

"I agree with her, just do what you think won't hurt you anymore." Soojin said and started a hug between the three of us.

Look, here's my mom Ye-eun, my mom-dad Soojin, and I'm their daughter who's leaving for college.

"I will miss you the most, Han Bi-ah. You've been a great friend, I love you more than I love my hair to be really frank with you." Soojin then said, making me smile.

I was about to say something but was interrupted when Ye-eun hit Soojin in the stomach. "You idiot I thought you liked me!"

I think that if I see them again, they will be a couple. A girl who's really boyish and a guy who's really girlish but still, they're both straight so what's wrong with that?

I know that I had to say thank you and sorry to these people. I couldn't disappear without notice.

After a few more crying moments, I already went out the classroom after that. There are still students outside, like a very big crowd.

I want to see Hanna but it seems like I can still see her anytime. I could call her because her number is in my phone and tell her to meet up.

I was about to leave the school grounds when a particular someone caught my eye.

Oh wait, isn't that Jin?

I still can't see Hanna but she texted me saying that she'll talk to me after I got the burden on my chest off.

So yeah, I saw Seokjin standing there and I clearly don't know what to say. He's standing there, not doing anything. He seems fine though, but there's just something in my heart saying that it doesn't matter anymore. I'm a bit upset for what he did to me until now.

I got on my senses and tried to walk away and find Hanna somewhere but he then noticed my existence.

"Han Bi," he called. I gave up from walking away and turned around.

"Look Seokjin, I'm going to tell you something." I immediately said. He smiled, ignoring me and walked to the basketball court, got a ball and started playing with it. I'm keeping my distance from him.

"Go on." He replied.

Everyone, this guy in front of me is the main reason why I disagreed to leaving. This guy who was once conceited, arrogant jerk is actually a soft-hearted, kind person with feelings is really the main reason.

I was about to say something but he gently threw me the ball.

"But I have something to tell you. Let's play. One on One, first to get two points. Half-court. If I win, I can tell you what I want to say and if you win, you can tell me whatever you want me to say. Are you okay with that?" He asked.

I don't know, I'm still thinking about if I can tell him right away or not, if I want to win this or not. I want to at least look like I'm trying to win but I'm still not confident.

Why am I not? He wouldn't care seriously. But obviously, I care, so that makes a problem.

"Okay."

We started playing and I kept on having eye contacts with him whenever I try to get the ball away from him. It feels like I'll melt if they go longer but they don't.

That's when I realized that I don't want to leave him in the end.

Wow, he ended up winning. "AH, I won." He celebrated. I lifted the ball from the ground.

"Okay. Now that I win, you need to listen the words I want to say. But you can do anything you want to me first, like express your anger and everything at me," He said, pointing to himself.

"You can do anything; basically anything to me if you're mad. You can throw the ball at me, punch me in the face, kick me in the stomach, everything you want to do with me."

I looked at the ball I'm holding in front of me and threw it to him with lots of force.

I opened my mouth to say something. "Why weren't you there for me, Kim Seokjin huh? You told me that if they ever hurt me you'll be there, but you were too late. You only appeared right after I lost everything." I asked.

Still, he wasn't saying anything. He didn't even move. He was looking at me with sympathy in his eyes.

"I just can't do this anymore," I muttered, "I really can't." Tears started to fall. He then attempted to embrace me but I gently pushed him away a little.

"I'm sorry Han Bi, I-"

I pressed a finger against my lips. "I'm okay. It's okay. Just tell me what were you going to tell me." I changed the topic right after that. He ran his fingers through his hair and scratched his nape.

"Oh that, it's nothing." He smiled.

I sighed. "This is the last time you're seeing me. I'll leave." My eyes are getting watery again and I'm just unexpectedly getting emotional.

I tried my best not to let them fall and they didn't, surprisingly.

He didn't say something and fake-smiled, looking at the ground, dribbling the ball in a slow emotion but slowly getting faster and faster.

He doesn't seem so happy.

"Leave now, then." He held out a bitter laugh and tried throwing the ball to the basket but failed.

I was about to open my mouth to say 'Excuse me?' but held it back.

"But do you know that if you do so.. Seasons change, things will change, some things will fall down." He explained.

I'm still confused, what is he trying to say?

I gathered all the courage in my and tried replying back.

"B-But if I don't leave, same things will happen. I'm not so special in this world, Seokjin. I'm the one who needs to be thrown away." I said.

"You don't understand. Some things fall hard, Han Bi. If you leave, leaves from trees fall harder, the atmosphere will fall, and I'll fall harder in this crazy pit and you'll take the blame. At first you'll think it's impossible to fall in love harder for someone who will leave and might not show up anymore, but for me it's really possible." Jin said smiling to himself.

That's when I realized that smile is fake and it caught me in a trance.

I didn't know what to say but him talking like this is very sentimental and sad. I don't have a hint of what he's trying to say, and why is he telling me this?

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"Nothing. You can leave now." He forced a smile. Why does it feel so painful when people fake a smile?

I watched as he gestured his hand out one gate, but I didn't move.

"Tell me." I commanded.

"Does it matter now? It doesn't. Go on. Let all of those happen, the new memories you'll make." He said and once again gestured to the gate.

I took a glance at the gate then at him. "Fine.. I'll leave," I said with a sad tone and dragged my feet towards the exit. "..idiot."

I then heard him speak.

"I've told you this many times and you'll now forget just because you're leaving? I'm freaking in love you and I don't need to repeat it in front of you again and again just to make you understand that I mean it so much. I love you to the point that I'd really do anything just for you to be happy even if it's hard for me to." He said, making me cease from walking.

Everything just stopped. He always makes me feel like this everytime he says those words. I stood in place frozen but my heart was melting.

I remember that time when I realized that those pesky little things called feelings just entered the picture.

"I'm sorry, Kim Seokjin." I muttered. "I'm leaving, I think that everything thatms going on with us us should be put into an end now. I've been to stupid and too unassertive to even stay here any longer." I continued.

I wanted to tell him an I love you too like what I did the other days, but I just can't. It adds to the pain and regret of separation.

I beamed a smile and walked to him, wrapping my arms around him. He stood still at my sudden movement. "It's okay, Kim Seokjin. I mean, it's not that bad. Thank you for being there." I said, leaving the three word sentence behind my back. Hesitant, he then returned the hug and I pulled away.

He looked at my eyes intently, bent down to my level which humiliated my height because of our large height gap but his soft lips landed on forehead and it surprised me, not making me move a muscle.

I smiled a little and held his face, bringing it close to mine. My palms landed on his cheeks as I held his face close. I looked at him in the eye for a second before planting a soft kiss on his lips. "I'll remember you. I love you, Jin."

I slipped it.

The I love you.

But that's all I said before sauntering to the school's exit gate. That guy, I love him so much, but he never heard it from me.

I hope he at least found out by himself. He's not as stupid as I was.

As I left, I was greeted by Hanna with a big smile. "Han Bi. We're going somewhere, you said?"

"Yeah." I dryly said, looking back at the school. "We're going to somewhere, somewhere where I could forget."

"What do you mean?" She asked, confused. "Somewhere I could forget everything that had happened in this school." I said and smiled on the ground.

"Huh? Including the good ones?" She frowned.

"Yes, everything." I said without hesitation.

It meant one big thing, I will try forgetting Kim Seokjin, even if I told him I'll still remember. It's the only way I'll get through life. I'm sorry, Jin.

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