A/N: sorry fam i haven't updated this book since backspace had 28k reads
it hs 116k now ):

Han Bi's POV

It's going to be okay..

It's going to be okay...

"Are you okay?" Hanna asked me, her gaze dropping down on my fiddling fingers. I let out a nervous gulp, but she gave me a serious look. "I went to school last Saturday to talk to your uncle. I saw you with someone, where did you go?"

I bit my insides as flashbacks (a/n: in italics) of last Saturday stayed in my mind. "Uh... s-shopping." How could I stammer and stutter at the same time.

"I'm so sorry Han Bi. I truly regret everything." Sang-mi told me as she held my hands tight. I could sense sincere on her eyes but why does she look so afraid?

"Ae-jung was right. Staying in this place is the consequence of hurting you so much, making people hurt you as well and doing things to you that were so evil and you just don't deserve it. I regret every single thing and as much as I hate thinking about me asking for it, I truly ask for your forgiveness. I know words aren't enough.. I'm really sorry."

My heart trembled. I don't know what to say nor what to feel. Is she deceiving me again?

"Han Bi, are you listening?" Hanna asks, snapping me out of my thoughts. I quickly looked at her in the eye and tried to remove the flashbacks that were happening in my head. "Going shopping with someone I don't know? Why didn't you ask me to come with you?"

"And also.. as much as I know you'll hate what I'll say next, you need to leave Kim Han-Seok right now." She said, her compassionate tone suddenly turning to a serious one. My heart dropped.

"What? Sang-mi this isn't what we talked about!" Ae-jung interrupted and slammed her fists on the table.

My heart started racing as Sang-mi's gaze turned to her menacingly. "I'm serious, Ae-jung! I don't care how ridiculous you think I am but I'm really sorry that I just couldn't do anything right! It's my fault okay?!"

"Han Bi, you're dozing off. Are you okay?" Hanna snapped her fingers in front of me. It took me seconds to realize that I was lost in my own thoughts again.

Saturday just kept on repeating in my head like a broken disk.

"Hanna, I'm sorry, I just need a second.." I say and stood up immediately rushed to the bathroom. I stopped by the the sink, my hands resting on either sides of it and looked up at my reflection in front of me. Flashbacks were still attacking me.

"Han Bi, I swear, you need to leave before it's too late. If you stay, you get hurt. I'm warning you, please help yourself get through this." Sang-mi told me, sending me shivers, her hand on mine holding tighter.

Ae-jung looked at Sang-mi for a short second then to me. She then swatted Sang-mi's hand away.

"Are you trying to trick her again? Seriously, Sang-mi. You've done enough. You couldn't ruin Han Bi's life anymore. I thought that you'll fix things and let her go." Ae-jung said in an angry tone.

"Ae-jung.." I said and laid my hand on her arm.

Sang-mi's head turned to her. "It's for Han Bi's good." Sang-mi then blunted. Ae-jung's jaw dropped and looked at me, shaking her head.

"Don't listen to her! If she truly regrets all these inhumane things she has done to you, she won't ask Taejun to hurt you!"

I cleared my throat and ignored Ae-jung's rant for a moment. "First of all.. thank you, Sang-mi, I'm going to leave now. I forgive you. Ae-jung, let's go."

I'm sure Ae-jung is still mad at me for letting Sang-mi's words slip into my head. For some reason I knew those words were sincere.

~

"Yah! You didn't tell me it was cold." I yelled in surprise. He stifled a laugh and held my hand, trying to pull me up. "No, no no, don't pull me up. I like it here." I told him and he just gave me a smile.

"Okay, okay, whatever you say." He told me, followed by an exaggeratedly disgusting wink that made me splash water at him. He then sat beside me and dipped his feet into the water too, flinching at how cold it was.

"Do you want some soda? I can get some from the vending machine." He asked. I quickly looked at him.

"What are you saying? I get all weird and drunken with them, remember? I do." I replied with a teasing smile. He put a confused look on.

"Well I like it that way, you confessed to me that time." He replied. My eyes widened in surprise at his sudden statement, my cheeks flushing red. I nudged him hard on the elbow. "Yah, that hurts, do you want me to punch you?" He asked and flashed me his clenched fist jokingly. I laughed at his stupidity.

"Of course not. It wasn't true that time though." I smiled and shifted my eyes at the water again, moving my feet in circles. My smiley expression dropped as I remembered what happened this morning. I then felt his hand on my shoulder.

"Are you okay?" He asked me, his voice full of concern. I bit my lip.

"I don't know. Just this morning, I felt very anxious." I truthfully stated. "Why are these people treating me like this now? Shouldn't they be hating on me? I can't help but not accept these kind gestures they offer. Every time they smile at me, a part of my heart hurts so much. It feels like they will hurt me physically in any second." I said.

"Everything isn't real for sure. I know they're all mad and blaming me because Sang-mi was put behind bars. It would've been better if they still hated me, you know. Because in that way I could tell that their intentions are real." I continued with a sad tone.

"Han Bi," He called. I looked up again and saw him staring at me intently with eyes full of concern.

"What is it?" I asked, my gaze fixed on his.

"Listen," He started. "If I were you, I will appreciate these things they do to me, but not too much in case they start showing that they're capable of faking their kind treatment. You know how much you mean to me, right? If they ever do something to you, I won't let them."

I felt my heart prickle a little. Butterflies started to form inside my stomach. He's too sweet for me to handle.

"You don't need to, I can handle everything by myself." I told him. He simply shook his head and poked my forehead.

"Yah, Han Bi. If you're going to let things not go your way again, what's the point of being together with you? I'm doing my job, alright." He asked me. I felt like melting at any moment now. Why does he need to emphasize that? It still felt so new.

"Everything's fine now, Han Bi don't worry too much. I'll be here anyway."

I just shrugged my shoulders and sighed.

"Why are you with me today anyway?" I asked him, staring at him intently in the eye. The school fair was today and we're doing nothing. Hanna didn't go to school and Soojin and Ye-eun were busy outside the school building.

And here goes Jin and I in the school's swimming pool together.

Talking.

"I really didn't want to. I want you to stay with me. There's an hour left for school." He said with a sigh, his gaze dropping on the water and its ripple. How many times did he ever tell me to stay with him? There were way too many times. I'm getting a lot more familiar with these words than I was before.

When school ended, I wanted to go home but Jin insisted and told me to go walk in a park. He's being extra nice and sweet today as if he's going to lose me any second. Right now, he even told me to buy anything I want (and get as much as I want) at a convenience store we dropped by.

"Yah, Seokjin, why are you being extra nice and sweet today?" I asked him with a laugh as we approached the counter. The cashier was batting her eyelashes at us for some reason. Jin just shrugged his shoulders.

"I really don't know. What's wrong with being nice to you, huh?" He asked me and it then became my cue to shrug my shoulders this time.

"I don't know, it feels so unusual. But I still do remember that time when I hated you. You were so mean to me." I said, reminding myself of how we were just a few months ago. It feels really funny.

I heard the cashier clear her throat.

"That so typical of couples, hating each other at first and then loving each other. You should rewrite your love story and make it more creative." The cashier commented, rolling her eyes at us. Wow, that's pretty rude.

(A/N: what the hell han bi miyun wont find that rude sHE WILL LAUGH OMG BYE)

"What do you mean? I like us like this. But it's fine rewriting our story as long as it's with her." I heard Jin laugh next, subsequently holding my hand, intertwining our fingers together. I immediately became flustered as blood rushed to my cheeks.

You're so cheesy, Jin, but I like that.

As soon as we paid for everything, Jin was still holding my hand as we headed out of the convenience store's door. I was about to tell him something about how happy I am to have him with me right now, but I immediately stopped myself.

I plan to save it until the end.

We then started walking around. I was lost in my thoughts until Seokjin slung his arm around my shoulder from the side and brought me closer to him. "Han Bi. Let's race. Let's run from here to there." He said and pointed at a distance in front of us, which wasn't that visible to me.

"Huh?" I asked in confusion and tiptoed and scooted closer to him to see where he's pointing out. I didn't realize that when I tired to see where he's pointing out, he kissed me in the cheek.

My eyes widened at his sudden action and blood rushed to my cheeks. I immediately punched him in the shoulder. "Stop surprising me like that." I said, my voice timidly soft.

He smiled and poked my nose. "It wasn't my fault. You were standing to close and it's pretty difficult to resist." He said as an excuse. I gave out a chuckle as my heart started racing.

"What the hell.." I muttered under my breath, which I'm pretty sure he heard.

He gave me another smile and asked me (again) to run with him to the small boulder at a distance. I asked him why is he asking me to run with him, but he just told me he wanted to but I was still left confused.

He immediately started to run ahead of me and i followed him, trying to catch up with his pace. What is this guy up to? He then stopped running when he stopped by the boulder. I immediately stopped as well.

"Yah, you didn't tell me we will run here?" I asked him.

"Nothing, I just thought that sitting here can give us a better view of." He says and sat at the bench behind he boulder. I just followed him and sat as well. I watched him as he closed his eyes, leaning on the bench and threw his head back.

He just laid there comfortably. Maybe he was tired. I didn't ask him anymore questions about what he was doing and silently snatched the plastic back away from him. I rummaged through the bag and got myself some banana milk, poking the free straw through its lid subsequently.

I drank in silence and waited for him to break the ice since words refused to come out of my mouth.

"Han Bi," he called. I immediately turned my head to him, seeing his eyes still shut. This reminded of the time where I thought he had lied to me about saying he loved me.

"What is it?" I said.

"I love you."

I immediately froze for a moment. It really did remind me of what happened before, in the classroom. But this time, I knew it was real. He told me this countless of times nowadays, anyway, but it never failed to make me feel the same way I always did before. My whole body gradually became hotter as my cheeks became warmer, my heart changing its normal pace.

"I love you too." I said back, still flustered. I then felt his arm around my shoulder as he pulled me closer to him and I felt his presence through his warmth.

"It's better if it's warmer. I love warm, you're warm. I love you." He continued.

I can't stop feeling flustered and at the same time wanting to kick him or something.

"Great, I love cheese too. But really, thank you." I told him, my voice pretty muffled for I was still drinking some banana milk (because it's just too delicious). Still engulfed in his touch, I moved away a little.

"Is that a thank you for the food or a thank you for having me around?" He asked as if it was a serious question. I nudged him for his pretty conceited question.

"Both, kinda." I laughed and he seems pretty satisfied with my answer. I didn't speak, moved a little away from him and grabbed a candy bar from the plastic bag. I unwrapped it and was about to put it in my mouth until I felt him hold my free hand.

"Don't leave me, Han Bi, I love you so much, you know?" He continued to say. I smiled, turned to him and poked him on his forehead.

"Idiot."

"Kiss me."

How can someone even be this straightforward?

"Okay." I blunted, leaning closer and gave him a kiss on the lips.

~

The next day felt unusual.

Instead of stares full of acceptance (the ones I get now), I received those disgusting and judgemental stares. It seems like they started to detest me again. All I could do is as myself why is it happening all again. Like really, why?

I tried to live the day the same as usual. It then turned out that Hanna wasn't in present school again. What happened to her when I needed her? Only Ye-eun attended school but all she did was say hi and didn't accompany me at all.

What is happening?

The small confidence I had for myself that once grew bigger abruptly disappeared. I don't know what happened wrong. My classmates started to talk harshly to me again as if I've they weren't nice to me yesterday. I've done anything wrong to them.

No matter how much I was pained by the treatment I still tried my best to maintain a straight face. I rose my head up him and sucked my tears in. Everything remained that way but it suddenly changed when we had our break.

Seol-na, who seem liked her blood was boiling grabbed my wrist and dragged me out to the middle of the cafeteria after the period before break ended. Her grip was tight and it hurted me so bad.

After we stopped, I was greeted by her palm hitting my face full of force. The pain stung throughout my whole right cheek, making me nurse it with both of my hands.

"Enough with this bullshit, Kwon Han Bi. We've had enough." She yelled at me, all of the students' eyes on us and observed silently.

"W..What?"

"Look at all of these people in this cafeteria. We started to accept you for who you are, but why the fuck did you this to us?! You lied to us. You faked it. You just wanted some attention didn't you?!" She blurted out in an incredible speed. I was still confused until she continued her words.

"Did you really wait for us to pity you for being like this so that you can let your secret out? I can't believe this is your way of getting attention! Lying to us like this is worse than living in the slums!!" She then yelled.

I wasn't trying to get attention.

Tears started to blur my vision.

"We don't want to see your fucking face anywhere in this school grounds again. We all thought we can accept you since you got rid of that rat Sang-mi, but you made us hate you. You're such a shame, Han Bi.. Get out of this school before we force you out!"

She said those painful words in a menacing tone and then threw the school paper at my face, which hit me hard on the head. I was about to pick it up until someone in the crowd around us shouted.

"Shame on you, Han Bi!" He said and repeated the sentence over and over again, following a beat. Everyone else joined him and they all threw their school newspaper copies at me.

They're hurting me physically, emotionally and mentally.

Who did this?

My knees started going weaker and I was at the edge of collapsing. My head started throbbinghadd and I can feel extreme ache forming in my stomach. No one I know was there for me. I cried silently as people started to crowd me and taunted me with their hurtful words.

It wasn't long when a someone made his way through the crowd and reached out to hold my hand. I didn't hesitate to hold his hand and I immediately recognized the familiar warmth. I knew it was Kim Seokjin.

Once he dragged me out of the cateria, I immediately swatted my hand away from him. Tesrs were streaming out of my eyes like a waterfall. There is anger, sadness, panic, anxiety and embarrassment flowing through me as I snifed, trying to wipe the endless tears from my eyes.

It's written on the newspaper and the bulletin boards.

"Kwon Han Bi's Pathetic Secret Revealed?!"

They know right through me.

"Han Bi-"

"I've had enough, Seokjin." I cut him off.

"What?" He asked, surprised by my sudden words. I gave him a forced smile and shrugged. "Taejun did this. I can confront him. Please don't-"

"I'm so sorry, Jin. I just.." I cut him off again. "I can't do this anymore. Trashy society, trashy rich people, trashy social standards. I want to go." That's all I said before running out of the school fast. Even when I was running all the nasty glares were still aimed at me but I didn't give a damn anymore.

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