Random but do you know @kmacros from Instagram because that account is hilarious asf and I just saw that they screen-captured my comment in a Youtube video of Spine Breaker lyrics.

Han Bi's POV

"Please tell me Han Bi, I want to pretend I didn't find out anything but.. how and why the hell does Kim Seokjin like me?" She asked in a straight, confused tone.

My heartbeat stopped.

I tried as much as I can to get away from what she said. "I-I don't know, why don't you ask him that?" I said, stuttering. She seems so surprised that it makes me feel the same too. Where did she get this?

My blood started boiling for a second.

Why is Jin incredibly confusing? What's wrong with him? Yesterday, when the rain happened, he popped me the question (which you completely know about). Then, just earlier, he told Sang-mi he likes me, and then now Hanna knows he likes her.

What is he trying to do to me? Confuse me until death?

Hanna gasped a little. "I was expecting you to deny that! Han Bi, tell me he doesn't, right? Look at me in the eye and tell me that. I don't know what I'm feeling, my heart is racing until now, and I can feel weird butterflies. I don't want to feel this, please tell me he doesn't."

Her eyes were on the floor as she fiddled her fingers.

I heaved a sigh. I think there's something fishy happening too. I don't know how Hanna knew about that. Seokjin is being too impenetrable. He's confusing not only to me, But I think Hanna and Sang-mi are into this too.

I find it really upsetting.

"Hanna, cut it. It's not bad, it would be nice getting liked by Kim Seokjin. Many girls in this school are dying just to touch his face, what more if he likes you? Think yourself as lucky." I encouraged, softly pulling her fiddling hands apart. I was saying nothing but the truth.

Soon enough, Hanna and Seokjin will be together, right? That's nice.

Hanna's hands landed on both of my shoulders and she looked at me closely in the eye. "This isn't happening, alright? I know that he likes you, not me! I guarantee that!" She interjected.

My eyes stayed on hers for a minute, I can't believe she's reacting this way. "I don't know! I don't want you to bring me into this. So what if he lied about that? It won't do anything. Sorry." I said, pulling away fast.

I was trying to stop myself from being furious about it, about him.

I was trying to distract myself from the thought, but then I suddenly passed by Seokjin who seems to be preventing our eyes from meeting.

I could feel eyes staring right at me— probably us, most of them burning my back. I wasn't prepared to talk, so I let him

He was already far away a second after walking past me so I chased after him. When I was close enough, I grabbed him by his blazer, exerted force for him to face me and look at me in the eye.

"Kim Seokjin, don't ignore me today. I need to talk to you." I said in a stern, demanding voice. He just nodded simply.

"Did you tell Hanna anything? Like your feelings?" I asked. As usual, if I ask this type of question he would just stare at me and not reply me.

"There's no freaking time for any silent treatment, I'm dead serious." I said in an insolent voice.

"Yes, I did." He said. My mouth gaped open a little. I shook my head immediately  and fought the urge to hit him at this instant.

"And what did you do after?" I asked immediately, letting out a small gulp.

"I can't believe you, I can't believe you so much." I said softly, almost whisper-like, my voice cracking gradually.

"What in the world are you trying to make me feel? Are you doing this all on purpose, playing with my sanity? What was yesterday about, when the rain happened? What was about you trying to mend your relationship with Sang-mi? What's with your confession to Hanna?!" I shouted, my fists clenching.

I was about to hit him that moment. He only sighed and held my wrists to pull me closer but I forcefully pushed his hand away. My blood was boiling, but I can't help but soften my expression when I saw the look on his face.

"I can't tell you, sorry."

"Oh come on! Just admit it! Is this one way to make me tell you that I like you, huh?! Breaking news Seokjin! It's not working, and besides I don't even like you to begin with! You've heard all those things I've said to Taejun about you right?" I managed to say fast enough to show how mad I was.

He bowed his head down low.

"I hate you so much! If your plan was to confuse me and play with my feelings, then please just don't put any more people into this. You're messed up, just because you're spoiled by all these girls who like you."

~

Two days have passed when Seokjin and I met gazes again. I avoided the awkward eye contact but I could still feel him staring, eyes boring holes at me.

He grabbed my hard on the wrist and forcefully dragged me to the empty arts room.

He stopped and looked at me with a scary pook on his face.

"Look at me and can you please tell me what's your purpose in being in your uncle's school?" He asked with a dead serious tone.

Shit, where did he get that from?

My hearts started pounding and I can't think of anything to say. My mouth won't open. I was too afraid it might make a stupid excuse.

How did he know that? It was supposed to not be known by anyone! I can't believe this.

I can't believe Jin knows my secret.

"H-how did you k-know that?" My voice trembled as I said these words. My voice was very soft but I could hear it echoing around the room since there aren't many equipment around.

"Is it true? It's for attention isn't it? Putting that fake poor girl look, those fake eyeglasses," He sounded quite annoyed and removed my eyeglasses away from me.

I had no intentions of talking even if what he said wasn't true at all. I don't do this for attention.

"I can't believe you Han Bi, I don't know that you're that low. I can't believe how you're a rich kid who became like that just for them to give you some attention. I can't believe it." He muttered these painful words, his voice's volume getting lower and lower.

I clenched my fists and gritted my teeth at what he said to me. I just couldn't control my temper.

"If you're calling me an attention whore then what are you?!"

I've never been this angry before.

"How could you judge me when you're the one here who picks on people just to make yourself look better, when you're the one who gets loved by everyone because of that fake identity you've made up yourself, when you're the one here who kept on intimidating people by making them believe you're better than all of them?!" I shouted, my voice cracking slowly.

"If I've at least learned something new today, it's the fact that I hate you so much! Let me tell you this, Seokjin. Look at us! Our secrets are somewhat alike but look at what these secrets have done to us, look how they affect us to differently! I've at least had a good reason, unlike you who just wanted some good reputation! Oh wait, that's what everyone wants here right?

Furious tears ran down my cheeks and I hit him so many times even if it was impossible to make him flinch. I didn't think of anything else but only cry and try to hit him again and again.

I gave up, almost collapsing, but he held me.

"You're a hypocrite, Seokjin. A hell of a hypocrite, I really.. freaking hate you." I muttered under my breath, my voice incredibly weak.

The next thing I knew is I was out of breath crying, my face was buried on his chest and he was pulling me close, embracing me. My heart pounded, my voice wasn't clear anymore.

"I know you hate me, I know you'll hate so much. But I want you to know that I'm feeling the exact opposite of that towards you." He said in a low, defeated voice and caressed my hair gently.

My heart wouldn't stop rampaging.

I swear, I couldn't even explain if this feeling is only an infatuation anymore.

~

It was 6:30 pm and I called Hanna to come and walk with me around the park, basically just everywhere. I wanted to loosen up a bit after everything that happened these past days that were trying to give me headaches.

"Hey, Han Bi! You alright? What's wrong?" Hanna immediately greeted me with a worried look on her face. I pressed my lips in a tight line, trying to smile at her.

She landed her hand on my shoulder. "It's fine, okay? Just tell me about it." She assures me and landed her hand on my head, pulling me into a hug.

I hugged her back and she pulled away a little and was ready to listen to me. "What is it that you want to talk about?" She said, walking the same speed as me.

I suddenly halted from walking. "Hanna.. I'm very confused. I'm mad, scared, I don't know. I don't even know what I feel anymore." My lips quivered.

"Kim Seokjin, isn't it?"

"Yes. He knows my true identity and he accused me for being an attention whore! He's hurting me so much. I want to stay away to prevent myself from getting even hurt more." I complained.

"He's giving me too much headaches and mental breakdowns. I just want to leave now. I can't do this." I muttered under my breath, my voice gradually geting softer.

Hanna looked at me in disbelief and quickly made me look at her in the eye.

"Hey, Han Bi, you're not going to leave your uncle's school right? You're not!"

She started shaking me back and forth and I just stared at her in the eye.

"Hanna. I don't want hurt myself further and put myself into risk. After all, he knows what I'm trying to do." I tried saying calmly, my eyes slowly getting watery.

I can't do this, I can't leave anyone behind. Better said than done, they say.

I can't leave Seokjin behind, most of all.

But I want to leave— I actually think I need to leave.

She paused from panicking for a moment.

"Answer me Han Bi, what did you feel when you gave up on Taejun? You wanted to leave and stop yourself from trying to bear the pain right?" She asked.

My eyes widened and nodded slowly.

"That's what you're feeling right now! Admit it! You didn't leave your old school that time just because of that, didn't you? It's because you still loved Taejun. Right now, what you're showing me is what you truly feel towards Jin!" She eagerly shouted.

I can't believe she's saying this.

"You love him, you love him so much that's why you're hurting, you love him so much that you know right now that you can't let go of him even if you think it's right for you." Her voice faded and her grip on me loosened a little.

She's a psychic, a mind reader.

"You're so in love, Han Bi. Why is it so difficult for you to accept it?" She said.

I was motionless as I thought about my feelings.

"I-I don't know anymore! In fact, I don't deserve someone like him, nor he deserves someone like me. I'm a mess, my whole life is. And besides he loves you, what's the point of loving someone who loves someone else?"

Her mouth gaped open and she let silence conquer for a minute.

"I can't believe you. Think about all those things you've said, Han Bi. Because if you do so, you'd realize how false that is." She stated.

No, please.

My statement is true, we're just not meant for each other. I know thatz

And besides I've clearly stated it from the very beginning, I will never have feelings for Seokjin. I will never like him nor even fall in love with him. Because we all now how that will leas to, my heart breaking.

~

It's been two weeks since Jin and I last talked personally.

But still, I kinda see him sometimes. After school, I would see him with no one to talk to, sitting on the ground, always looking like he's in deep thought. I don't know why things are turning out like this, but I know that I can't bear not seeing him and talking to him.

Uggghhh.

Sang-mi, on the other hand is always with her friends, and whenever I see them they seem like they don't want to add Jin in the conversation. It seems like they had an argument. But I never pried into it. In the end, it's only in between of them. Still, I couldn't stop myself from being curious

Soojin, Ye-eun and Hanna were doing fine. Nothing really new happened. Taejun was talking to me like once every two days. Sometimes he wants to talk to me, sometimes he doesn't. It's still hard to forget his doings.

Me? I'm not doing very fine. I still managed to think about my studies most of the time. Jimin and I were getting closer without Jin around.

But damn I miss that damn scary, impenetrable, irritating guy who keeps on trying to talk to me everywhere, who I believe I fell for even if I really didn't.

I want to see him and talk to him so bad. But I don't know where, when, why and how to. After all, our last talk was about me getting mad at him.

I want to tell him that I'm really sorry for yelling at him like that.

But the thing is, I can't. My pride is way up there. As hours pass, I feel the obstacle's presence more and more.

I feel like I'm playing a silly game with Seokjin, and it's like 'The Ignoring Game' or something. But we all know, that's not easy, it's the toughest game ever.

It was 11:45 am before I knew it. The three: Soojin, Ye-eun and Hanna invited me to go out and eat lunch with them when lunch started. We had an hour of lunch but our next class's teacher is there. So we went outside to eat, taking our time outside. Soojin was paying for everything.

It was a nice place, peaceful, and the three were having fun eating and talking about many random things.

I find really satisfying seeing how happy they are while getting along with each other. I was just listening to them.

"Han Bi, you haven't talked much today. What happened? Is something botheing you?" Ye-eun worriedly asked and layed her hand on mine. I just shook my head, getting back to my senses.

My eyes landed on Soojin and Hanna who were just as worried as Ye-eun. They looked at me as if they were waiting for me to reply.

"You can talk to us about it, Han Bi. Trust us, we're your friends, right?" Soojin asked.

"Kim Seokjin, right?" Ye-eun asked. "Come on, Han Bi, tell us." She continued.

Before I even utter a word, Hanna cleared her throat, getting a tissue and pretended to wipe the sides of her mouth.

"I.. I need to go to the washroom." She said and fled off to the restroom in a blink of an eye.

Our eyes followed at her until she went inside the door of the girl's rest room. Our eyes then landed on each other and I can tell they're as confused as me.

This is fishy.

"What was that for?" Soojin asked, scratching the top of his head. He then tucked the strands of hair that fell on his forehead behind his ear. He's so pretty.

I saw Ye-eun gulp and gave us an awkward smile. "Let's not mind Hanna for a while. She just.. might probably really need to go there." She said.

I couldn't help but look back at the door she went through. It feels like there's something these two is not telling me. I know Soojin isn't in it because he's just as clueless as I am.

"I could make a run there and follow her inside, so I could talk to her." Soojin suggested, about to stand up but Ye-eun ceased him. Her hand grabbed his and gently put him back to his seat.

"It's no use, she wouldn't tell you a thing. And we talked about this, right? No walking to the girls' restroom in public." Ye-eun strictly said, her hand still gently holding Soojin's, leaving him flustered with his eyes wide open.

Ye-eun turned to me, removing her hand away from him. "So, what is it?" Ye-eun asked. I heaved a very deep sigh and told her everything. But throughout the time I was explaining to Ye-eun about it, Hanna hasn't come back yet.

Ye-eun listened very carefully, putting in mind every word I say. I told her about my confusion of what Jin's tryng to do to the three of us. I still can't clear out what feelings does he have for anyone.

After everything that I've said to Ye-eun, she just let out a chuckle. "You got mad and haven't talked to him because of that?" She asked, laughing again.

"Yes. It's not funny." I said, annoyed with a grimace on my face.

"Just because of that? Just because you think that his feelings aren't clear? Is that it, Han Bi? Do you want him to have feelings towards you?" Soojin asked innocently, but it's just provoking me.

I feel so indecisive, and there's this feeling inside me telling me to deny everything he's saying.

I tried to dismiss the conversation so many times, and I fail. Hanna came back, looking more mysterious. Her lips were pursed and her hands were balled into small fists.

She looked like she was hiding something, but I didn't mind it. Maybe she needs some privacy with t.

When I finally successfully convinced them to drop the topic and leave, I walked with them back to school with large, heavy steps.

I wasn't ready to go back yet, but if I didn't encourage them to go back then they wouldn't stop talking about me and my problem.

We got back to our classrooms afterwards. Soojin and Ye-eun left us, waving at us goodbye.

The classroom's door in front of me is closed, apparently. Hanna wanted me to enter before her but I simply shook my head. She gave me a shrug and then entered, the door then closed by itself.

I heaved a sigh, and after a minite of staring at the door, I managed to convince myself to enter. Seokjin is in there, of course, it feels so difficult to enter.

I came in rights afterwards. There was an empty seat beside Jin whose eyes were on me. Before I knew it, I realized I just stopped at his row. I went past the empty seat, but Jin's hand grabbed mine. "Hey, Han Bi." He said, his voice sending me shivers.

It was surprising, he never talked to me like that for two weeks. He never said Hi to me ever since, so why would I bother talking to him now?

I shook my head and swatted my hand away from him, clearing my throat.

"Don't talk to me. I'm trying to play fair, so back off." I said, my voice ice cold. His mouth gaped open. I swiftly walked past him and sat beside Seol-na like nothing happened.

It's true, Jin. You've started the toughest game, the ignoring game. Expect me to follow the rules.

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I hate my editing.