Trigger Warning: Jinbi can kill you, burying you and your feels altogether. Also, this chapter is not well-edited. Sorry. Vomments!

Han Bi's POV

It's been two weeks since Sang-mi and the other dude got admitted to the hospital. I wanted to visit her but I don't know what to say. I don't want her to badmouth me and make her believe that I was making things worse. Still, I was extremely worried, I couldn't stop thinking about that incident everyday.

Probably because I was involved with it.

Hanna kept on telling me how much Sang-mi wanted to see Seokjin that day, but I never knew if he went to see her.

Ever since, I don't talk to him casually anymore, only if I needed him. Other than that, it seemed like I was a no one to him.

Though I admit, my throat is always dry whenever I see him pass by. My lips were always shut. I couldn't say hi and he really seems like he doesn't even want to talk to me, so I didn't even bother trying to.

Maybe, maybe I miss him talking to me. But that's only a maybe.

I don't talk to anyone else anymore except for the three people who are always there for me; Soojin, Ye-eun and Hanna. I don't think I can handle this any longer. I'm becoming more and more passive for no reason.

The day finally came when Sang-mi finally showed up to school. Her group of friends began swarming her right when she stepped foot inside. I really wanted to say hi but my mind just kept on preventing myself from doing so.

She was still injured, there's a thick, long bandage wrapped around her right leg all the way down to her foot. She was walking with wooden crutches and there's a few bandages on her forehead. I was so glad she's getting better, so glad that she's just well enough to go to school even if she's still injured.

Why would she jump, though? I'm so confused. She shouldn't have.

Getting a rejection from Jin isn't worth jumping off a building for.

When I walked across her friends around, she immediately noticed my existence.
"Kwon Han Bi," she called, sending me chills down my spine. I flinched a little and gulped. She then told her friends to leave her alone with me for a minute.

"Do you know? I know that you like Jin oppa too," She said in an irritated voice. I was about to object but I just allowed her talk.

"But let me ask you this, who the hell are you to?" She continued.

My throat was dry.

"I mean, you just entered his life around a few months ago, and now he treats you like you're so special to him. Does he like you, huh? That jerk, I can't calculate how much his standards had dropped. But still, you can't take him away from me. Stay back at your one lane, peasant. What's mine is mine." She darted painful words at me, provoking me little by little.

Calm down, Han Bi, she was just telling you to back off in the most hurtful way. It's nothing, right?

"You've known him only for four months, while I've known him for four years. See the difference? Can you please put that in your tiny brain?" She continued, poking my forehead with her finger hard, hard enough for my head to back a little, making me look so stupid.

I'm done.

I swatted her hand away from my forehead immediately.

"Alright Sang-mi, that's enough. You know what? Your brain might be the size of the whole universe, but what good does it do to you when you don't know how to use it? Sorry to break it out to you, but my silence is a sign that I'm using my brain."

Her mouth gaped open in awe for a while at my sudden response. She shook her head and put her bitch face back on.

"Whatever, lame comeback. I can't believe why Jin oppa even spends his time on you, a piece of trash." She said and faked a yawn.

I let out a chuckle.

"Right. Believe it Sang-mi, you're in the real world. Your most worshipped Jin oppa wasted his time on a piece of trash. To put more emphasis, this piece of trash." I said, pointing at myself.

"I mean, seriously? Who would even spend time on me, a messed up piece of trash? Oh right, Jin. Maybe you're right, maybe he likes me."

I don't know what I'm saying, but I just wanted to piss her off right now. I don't think there's any truth to what I'm saying.

"You're so delusional." She rolls her eyes and eyed me from head to toe. I was about to tell her that she's the one who is but she just batted her eyelashes at me and went away.

That was easy, as long as she didn't have the energy to strangle me I'm safe.

But not for too long.

~

Jin never even tried talking to me today. I feel like I've done anything wrong even if i haven't. I can tell that he doesn't even want to stay a foot near me and he can't even speak a word in front of him.

I've ditched my friends for so much times these weeks that they start to not mind me doing so anymore. I'd walk alone, just like this time, but with more caution since who knows Sang-mi might want to do with me.

"Hey Han Bi," I heard a voice calling me. I stopped and turned around, only to be greeted by Taejun's annoying smile. His hand landed on my shoulder and I immediately pushed it away.

"Hey. Watch it." I coldy said and brushed his hand off my shoulder.

"I really beg you, can we let go of everything from before? I really want to show you how much I've changed just for you. I like you that much. I'm really really sorry." He said. My eyes landed on him for a second.

I let out a sigh afterwards and put on a small, forced smile.

What good does it do to me when I'm always being hard on him?

He won't stop asking me for a chance since the last two weeks. I can really tell how much he wanted to get my attention that I just had to give in right now.

"Urgh, fine. Whatever you want. But don't expect me to go easy on you. You have a pretty very very big debt to pay me." I stated and he nodded quickly, putting in a bright smile.

He then pulled me into a hug. I stood there like a mannequin. There was no feeling. I think this is very difficult. This hug was too familiar, it reminds me so much of the past.

"I'm so happy, Han Bi. You don't know how happy I am, really." He muttered whilst hugging me. I slowly pulled away and put on a smile.

When school ended, rain started falling from the sky, landing on my palm. I first thought it was only a drizzle, but then it gets a little heavier and more raindrops fall down, faster. I quickly got my umbrella and opened it quickly, putting it on my head.

The rain was so heavy that I thought walking home was kinda pointless. So I decided on calling our driver.

I walked to the gate near the basketball court and got my phone out immediately. I was so focused on my phone.

"Ahjussi, can you pick me up right now? It's raining pretty heavily. Can you be here at--" I immediately stopped talking when I roamed my head around and saw Jin in the distance.

He was in the basketball court, all alone, dribbling the ball pretty hard and attempting to shoot it in the hoop like always.

It was raining so hard right now and the raindrops dropping on the ground sounded louder than the ball bouncing.

I can hear ahjussi calling me to continue what I stopped saying midway but I dismissed it and told him to pick me up later and not worry about me. I focused my mind on what's happening to Jin.

He was drenched, and I'm sure he was feeling so cold, but he didn't care at all.

This boy, what is he doing to himself?

I walked towards him fast and forced him to hold the umbrella above his head with no words, just body language. I was so annoyed at him being like this in the middle of the rain and prepared to nag at him.

He didn't get the umbrella and didn't speak a word and bowed his head down low.

Alright, then.

"What's wrong with you, Seokjin? You know that you're going to get sick right? Come on mister, I think you're under the heavy rain for too long now. We need to dry you up." I nagged and was ready to drag him to a shade.

He didn't talk again, and he didn't move a muscle. I quickly groaned in frustration.

"Jin, please, I can't bear seeing you doing this to yourself. And please, enough with the silent treatment, you're hurting me way too much." I shouted, the raindops were too loud.

His head rose to look at me in the eye. "You love me, don't you, Han Bi?" He suddenly popped a question.

It took me a while processing what he was saying and flushed red. I shook my head quickly and pretended he said that. "Stop doing that."

I forcibly opened his hand and put the umbrella on it, putting it above his head. Rain started pouring on me now, but I don't see any reason to care.

"You need a towel and some dry clothes." I mentioned and pushed him to the nearest shade. This time, I'm drenched.

We went to the back of the gym and there was so one in there. I was under a shade but rain hitting the ground hits me as well.

The locker rooms for both genders were there and I was pushing him to change in the boys'.

I can only get one key from the guard to access one of the locker rooms at this time of the day. For now, I just got the key for the boys' locker rooms just for him. It means I couldn't change even if I'm quite soaked, but I'm fine.

"You need to change too," He mentioned, pointing to me who's a little soaked by the rain. I immediately looked at myself but then shook my head.

"I'm really fine, you're the one here who drenched yourself so much. I can get you a towel and you can get a spare change of clothes from inside there." I said.

He was about to go and change when he stopped midway.

"You do love me, don't you?" He said, putting a goofy smile. I froze and turned extremely red. "What a-are you saying?" I asked, words coming out through stutters.

"Well, they say that you love someone when you care so much about this person and you put this person first before yourself. Look what you've done. See, you love me so much." He continued, his smile melting me.

My cheeks are burning. "Stop putting words in my mouth." I said and pushed him immediately inside so he couldn't tease my embarrassing reaction. I closed the door afterwards.

After a while from shivering a bit outside the door, Seokjin came out immediately and looked at me from head to toe. My cold, slightly wet clothes were sticking into my skin, making me shiver so much.

He didn't say anything and just pulled me inside.

My eyes widened in confusion. "Don't lie to me. I know you're not fine, you really need to warm yourself up too." He said and threw me a dry towel.

I caught it and just stared at it.

"It's a lot warmer in here, but I really don't need to be here, Jin. Thanks alot though." I was about to dismiss everything and leave but he held me tight in the wrist, preventing me from going.

"Stay until the rain stops. I love you and I know that it's very cold outside." He demanded. My heart was having a hard time pacing its beating.

"Excuse me, what?"

"Not in that way, idiot." He said with a smile and flicked my forehead. "I was using it in the context I was talking about earlier, caring about someone."

I heaved a sigh and walked to the mirror. I started drying my hair and combing and then he stepped in and saw him at the back of the mirror with me, landing both of his arms on my shoulder, freely dangling down the front of my torso.

My heartbeat skipped. He landed his chin on the top of my shoulder. "I don't want the rain to stop," he started.

My heart races. He's too close to me, I can feel his breath by my ear.

I could see us in this vague position right in front of us.

"I've been thinking a lot lately, apparently. I've been thinking about Sang-mi and how much she wants to be with me. I visited her in the hospital twice, and she keeps talking about the two of us and keeps on asking me to stay with her." He continued and pulled himself away from me.

No words came out of my mouth.

"I wanted to tell her everything I felt but I knew she wouldn't accept it. Even without her telling me about it I knew how much she likes me. I've known so much about her; her sensitivity, her power to push away the people who get in her way, and so many other things." He continued.

Friends for a long time.

I never had those in my life.

"She's not even really that bad, she's just like a kid. She never grew up. She loves being a little selfish and sometimes complain when things don't go her way, but that's all there is to it." He continued

"I was thinking about asking her out to make up what I've done to her, but I realized how that didn't really make sense because I don't like her to start off with." He said.

"W-Why not do so?" I managed to ask, my eyes focused on him and only him.

"It's because there were no feelings, apparently." He let out a small chuckle.

I averted my gaze away from him. "Hey, Han Bi, I'm going to ask you something, don't be surprised." He said and I nodded. He cleared his throat.

"Han Bi, mind if you go out with me?"

I almost choked on my own saliva. I wasn't ready of that question at all, my heartbeat was irregular and I can't think of anything to say. I can't handle this.

"What? A-Are you s-serious?" I stuttered. It was very hard to talk when your body reacts this differently.

His eyes were big for a while and quickly let out an awkward laugh.

"Okay, if this makes it easier we'll just put it this way. L-Let's pretend I didn't ask you that and I want you to think I was only kidding. We'll never talk about this again nor b-bring it up." He said so fast and looked at the ground.

I softly punched him in the shoulder. "I can't believe you're taking it back just like that." I said to ease the awkwardness, and for him not to feel too guilty at what he said.

"I'm sorry, I didn't know I was capable of asking such question. I thought it would be nice but I realized I was being so stupid so we're both going to bury this at the backs of our heads." He said so fast.

Cute move, Seokjin.

I punched his shoulder lightly again. "Idiot, I would've considered it. But you didn't stick with it." I said, realizing that the rain had stopped.

I quickly packed my stuff and was prepared to ran out to the door but stopped.

"You can ask me that question again anytime, and always expect a positive response." I said, leaving after that.

I left him flustered.

Oh my God, did Kim Seokjin ask me out or what? Well he basically did, but then he wasn't really. Confusing kid.

I could've said yes, but I found out that it wasn't easy.

There's so many people in the way.

~

I couldn't get my mind off what Seokjin said yesterday. Every single thing just repeat in my head over and over again. Whenever I pass by him or just land my eyes on him, my body just responds so differently.

I would turn into an incredibly red tomato and the feeling in my chest is making me weak.

The smile on my face never left as well.

I haven't talked to him all this day and I'm not planning too. Everything's just too much. But then, I felt so lonely, so I decided not to ditch my friends this time.

They exist for a reason, and that's for being the people I need to talk to to get my mind off something or just talk to them about it.

While walking to meet my friends somewhere in the school courtyard, I went past Sang-mi with a cross look on her face there was no one with her and I found that really strange. She looks so pale and her nose was red.

I was about to ask her if she needed some help with anything but she started talking.

"What did I tell you just yesterday, huh? Seokjin's mine! You're just someone who just barged in our life. And why are you smiling like an idiot? If a blobfish smiles then that's what you look like." She criticized in a loud voice.

Huh?

"What's with you today? You can get him all to himself, have you forgotten that the two of us are not a couple? Go for what you want. He's not mine." I said.

She scoffed and grabbed my arm with incredible force. I winced in pain. "Stop playing the good girl role Han Bi because you aren't. You know what will happen in the end? I will get Jin for myself." She muttered under gritted teeth.

"Okay. It's not that there's a possibility." I said. Her hand then clutched my wrist tighter and her angry look became scarier.

"You know what Jin told me this morning? He told me he likes you so much. I didn't know what to do and cried or four hours straight so I look like this now. Look at you living your life so happily, just because you haven't liked someone for so long!" She shouted.

My heart started racing.

What was he thinking? He could say that to anyone but Sang-mi!

And besides, I know he'd be lying.

"Look, I swear I don't want him to like me. I don't like him at all, okay? I don't know things will be this way." I said in a more urgent tone. She gave me an agonizing kick in the shins.

"Didn't I just told you to back off?!" She growled.

I heard footsteps from the back running to me. When I turned, this person held my hand and pushed me a little out the way.

"That's it, Sang-mi. Don't mess up with Han Bi this time and give her a break. Wait until you're fine to do so."

I was in awe. Sang-mi just eyed me, "You're safe this time. Step back to your own fucking lane, Kwon Han Bi. I'm not done with you." She cursed and walked off.

I didn't talk to her anymore. "You don't have to do that Hanna."

"Of course I have to." She said and held me in the arm tight. "Han Bi, things are obviously not well right here." She continued and pulled me closer to her to talk better.

"I can't believe this.." She started.

"What?" I asked.

"Please tell me Han Bi, I want to pretend I didn't find out anything but.. how and why the hell does Kim Seokjin like me?" She asked in a straight, confused tone.

My heartbeat stopped.

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A/N: I didn't mean this to be a cliffhanger! Really!