Chapter 12: Don't Hate Me
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Han Bi's POV
I was so immersed in running, but then a sudden pair of arms wrapped around me.
A back hug?
"I thought you wouldn't come back for me." A voice greeted, leaving my eyes wide open. My heart was pounding.
That's when I thought of something.
What if.. what I saw was an illusion too?
My heart raced as I brought out these words in my head. What if it was? How about if I really didn't see them kissing
Okay, wait. Why does it matter if they did? I think that this thing right now is just me giving myself a reason to stay away from Seokjin. I feel like I hated him alot more now, I wanted to stay away.
Why would he do it? To Yoosun? Doesn't he dislike her or something?
Oh my God, this is unbelievable.
I pushed him gently away from the embrace. I don't know how to respond, really. I somewhat felt like it would be impossible for such scene to happen, like why? He looked like he started the kiss, and what sucked even more was that it reminded me of my horrendous past.
I bit my lip, I didn't think this guy will hurt me like this. I mean, doing that? It's just going to make me remember everything bad that had happened to me before.
I also thought that if they're too close to each other their rings will zap. It's the ring's rule right? What the hell is happening? Did he remove the ring, desperate to kiss her?
"I-I thought I wouldn't to, I just want you two to get out of here. Where is Yoosun? We need to go." I sternly said, trying to not sound mad or anything, because I shouldn't be.
"She went out by her own, I don't really know if she found her way out. She said she doesn't like working with me. I shrugged it off." He stated with a shrug.
Wow, after that little smooch you just had? -_-
"You, why did you leave me?" He asked.
There's no lying this time. I can't make up anything.
"I felt like doing it by my own because I don't want you telling me to stay close." I still lied and signalled him to walk with me to where Narae is. I hope I still remember the path.
"You shouldn't do that. I might lose it if you weren't around." He chuckled and put his arm around my shoulder. My eyes widened.
"Hey, watch it." I said and removed his hand away from me.
"What's with the 'losing it' thing? Do you think I'm going to appreciate it that you will legitimately do that?" I tried saying in an arrogant voice.
"Well yeah. Knowing you, you wouldn't like it." He snickered and ruffled my hair, like we're close or something. I didn't react.
Silence wrapped the two of us until I can't help but ask him about it.
"Did you kiss Yoosun?" "Do you like someone?" we suddenly both asked in unison.
"Y-You first." I said in a surprised manner because of us talking at the same time. Don't doubt me, I heard exactly what he said, and I hope he didn't hear what I asked because I only just regretted asking that now.
Okay, I don't know what to answer with.
"I don't." I simply answered, not knowing if it's a lie or the truth.
I don't see Sanghyuk anymore, I don't know anyone new that made me feel the way I felt with Taejun, I'm just unsure. Besides, why is he asking such question?
"Are you sure?" He smirked and literally jumped in front of me, walking forward, making me walk back. Our face are near to almost inches apart if I feel a dead end behind me. I nodded without hesitation, but actually looked like I was hesitating.
What the hell is he doing?
"Are you sure.. it's not me?" He said, followed by a wink and a grin. Why would he think of it like that? No way Seokjin. And what am I doing being cornered? This is not going anywhere nice. I slightly pushed him away.
"Not everything's about you, Kim Seokjin. Please, we need to go now." I scoffed and dodged him, walking ahead.
"Well, I like someone. She doesn't like me. I wish she did." He said, making me remember all his past clues. Her name started with H and ends with a vowel.
My brain clicked and I immediately shook my head internally. Impossible.
"I d-don't want to know about who she is. I can't tell she's very unlucky." I chuckled, trying not to pay so much attention on him and analyzing the path on the way out.
"Oh so you're very unlucky." He simply stated. I didn't get it at first, but it made my eyes widen and my heart thump.
"Unlucky because it isn't you." He grinned and ruffled my hair again.
"Can you cut that? I'm lucky, okay?" I rolled my eyes.
"Whatever you say. You were saying something about me kissing Yoosun." He said, making me immediately turn to him and cease walking.
"Y-Yeah, so did something happen?" I bashfully said in the most silent voice, but God gave him a great gift of hearing so clearly.
"Does that matter to you, Han Bi? Do you need to care about it?" He provokingly said, making me spot another smirk forming across his lips.
"Tell me." I said before things change right away and might get worse.
"Right after you tell me what you feel about me." I rolled my eyes at what he said.
What is he pushing me to say? Me, having feelings for him? Is he crazy? He will never be someone I could like, that will be the very last thing I'll do.
"I hate you."
"I want something more pleasing to hear." He winked.
"I want you to die in a hole." I said with a smile.
"Better if you confessed to me." He chuckled.
"I already did." I blunted.
"Come on, stop lying."
"Since when did you get this annoying? Uh, you're pissing me off. Be that way. Find your way out by yourself." I sound way more pissed off than actual when I said that.
I don't know, if he'll stay as conceited as ever then I don't think we could get along well.
I was walking in a fast speed, trying to get away for him but not too much at the same time. He's keeping up with me by half-running.
"You.. don't need to keep hating me you know." He said in a surprisingly sincere tone between breaths and put his hand on my shoulder, making me look at him.
"I don't know why you act like this to me all the time when you're not really like this to others." He sounds like he's pleading, but I don't know why.
I returned a scoff at what he said. It sounded pathetic.
I started to try walking away from him again, but he held on my wrist and it was difficult trying to let go.
"I actually don't know why I'm doing this, trying to not make you hate me. You're not very special or anything, I just wanted to tell you something..." He said looking at the ground. I can tell that this is a sincere one coming from him.
Who knew that he's going to turn like this? Sounding soft-hearted and know what he's saying, not the conceited type who's recklessly spilling words out of his mouth.
I tried looking at him in his eyes, but he's looking down. He went from 400 to 20 real quick huh, not acting so douchey real fast.
"You know, they'll be waiting for us. So say what you want to say and then we could g--"
"I'm not who you think I am."
His words left me in the state of confusion.
What? He's not who I think he is?
What do I think of him anyway? He's a jerk loved by everyone with a rotten attitude, as far as I know.
If this is what he's going to tell me to make me want to be actual friends with him, then I couldn't be bothered.
Seriously, I don't need someone like him who doesn't have a good conduct to be friends with me. In fact, why is he still there in my life? Why can't I push him away?
I don't want him to change my perspective on him. Everything should stay that way with no strings attached.
"Why are you telling me this? Come on Seokjin, let's go. They're waiting for us." I attempted to grab his hand and walk away but we won't budge.
I tried pulling his hand with both of my hands. He still won't move, and it makes me find him so stubborn and it irritates me.
"I really don't want you to hate me." I can tell that he meant these words, but I don't know how to react.
"W-Why is that?" I asked back in confusion.
"Because.." He bowed his head low. "I feel alot more different around you now. I'm beginning to think that it was wrong making fun of you." My heart can't take it, and my brain just kept on saying that he's saying this for a weird purpose.
"Please, Seokjin. Let's go."
"Yoosun and I didn't kiss, I didn't even get near her. If you get too close to someone that's not your teammate, then your rings will zap." He just explained in a serious tone, ignoring what I said.
"Don't lie to me, I saw everything." I replied with a strong tone.
"I'm not lying, I can't even imagine me kissing her. Besides, we just knew each other for less than an hour or two. It's probably an illusion you saw." He said and smiled in the ground.
"Narae told me that illusions a person sees here are images they didn't want to see. And I'm assuming that you probably didn't like what you saw since it was just an illusion and not true at all," He ran his fingers through his hair.
I don't know where this is going nor what he's trying to say.
"...and I think you felt jealous too."
Right when he said that, my cheeks started burning. I can't think of anything to say because nothing really is making that false.
I also realized that I shouldn't stay quiet for long or he will react like something was going on when I saw that.
"It was probably the last thing you want to see." He continued.
"Whatever." I said and started walking ahead. Damn, this forest is getting longer and longer.
"So... you.. were... jealous." He said with big pauses due to hesitation.
"I-I don't know. Can we just please, go now?" Why am I stuttering?
"Don't act like it matters that I might be jealous or something, because it doesn't." I continued and after that, we reached the end, being greeted by Kyungsam and Narae. I was greeted by Narae's hug.
"Ah, why were you taking so long? Yoosun isn't here anymore, she rage-quitted. Kyungsam brought her out though." She explained.
"That actually made everything better, they gave us five free tickets to a theme park as a prize," Kyungsam smiled and hold these tickets up on my face.
"The tickets are valid only until 6pm, so I'm glad we actually finished earlier. Yoosun should've been a part of this, but as Narae said she quitted." He continued.
"ISN'T THIS GOING TO BE FUN? :D" Narae excitedly clapped.
"W-What are we doing?" I absent-mindedly asked them again.
"Go to the theme park in town! We're going to ride bikes going there." I looked at Seokjin and it looks like he likes what's going on. There's this beautiful smile on his face that I've never seen before.
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We borrowed four bikes from the neighbor (they're so kind) and it brought us all the way to the theme park in town. The twins both have very good sense of direction.
Thank God I know how to ride a bike, if I didn't I probably would have hold the whole plan up until they finish teaching me how to use one.
We arrived at the place and it was huge, there were lots of animal statues at the entrance that are beautifully painted, families and lots of kids holding balloons they bought, and people our age going around and having fun with the rides and arcade.
What we did?
We went in and had fun.
It wasn't so long after we entered before Narae pushed us into a carousel, like Seokjin and I. The operator said it will start in two minutes, and I began noticing that there were more and more children going inside. There were some teens too, and I swear this carousel is freaking huge.
I sat on a white horse with a beautiful mane, because everything else is occupied and this is the prettiest one I saw yet.
Seokjin was quiet, and he sat on the brown horse in front of me but is facing me, not in front. The operator pressed a button that started the ride, and we went around and around.
Around we went, and the air was filled with giggles and happy screams coming from the children, they're enjoying it. It makes me happier seeing kids being happy and don't care about anything.
The younger you are, the less problems there'll be, because you don't care.
You don't know how cruel the world can be, that there are fake people that exist that you'll eventually cry for, but not worth it. You don't know that there could be people trying their best to bring you down, and people make you feel more insecure and you won't like yourself.
If I would be given the chance, I could stay a kid forever.
A camera shutter made me jolt in surprise. I looked and saw Seokjin holding his phone up at me, with the camera facing at me.
He started laughing like an idiot. I put up a 'WTF, seriously?' face and brought out my phone, setting the camera and taking a photo of him laughing.
His face immediately morphed into an annoyed look and tried to take my phone away from me and I put it up in the air, or put it down, just away from him, and then a sudden scene made me freeze.
Our face were inches apart, and what he did was poke the top of my nose to remove such awkwardness.
It was fun, really. I wish this ride could go forever and I'm surprisingly glad that we were pushed into this.
I'm taking random pictures of him now looking derp and stuff. I browsed them and just can't delete them because they're so funny.
"Han Bi," I heard him call. The smile I had looking at the photos never left as I replied with, "Yes?" looking up at him. He smiled and shook his head.
"Nothing. I just thought you looked cute smiling like that."
My eyes widened, "Silly." I replied.
The ride stopped and we immediately went off. Kyungsam and Narae were there, and this time they're holding snowcones. Such kids, I remember when we used to eat snowcones all the time as kids.
"I can smell love radiating off the two of you." Kyungsam said with a big smile on his face.
"Speaking of love, TRY THIS RIDE! Kyungsam tried it with his ex-girlfriend." Narae slipped these words out and Kyungsam immediately turned red.
"What is it?" I asked, Seojin still staying silent.
Narae literally didn't answer but pushed us into the entrance of this ride, and I'm not sure what it is but there were lots of red lip drawings and displays and the entrance was all covered in pink and hearts. The person let us in already before I could read what it is.
"Do you know what ride is this?" I asked him in confusion.
"A love ride, I'm pretty sure a person should know what ride they're pushed into before riding it." He replied, and my mouth gaped open.
"No way." I muttered and then realised that we're in a gondola on a both covered with hearts and on deep water.
There's this guy at the back standing at the edge, wearing a completely pink apparrel and is rowing the boat like a boss. He's talking to us too.
Music started to play in the background.
I think he's talking to us in a way that he was payed to do. He's talking to us saying that we're a couple that will last forever, and makes grand introductions to things we see in a ride.
What I found funny was when lovebirds (actually FLAMINGOS) were attempting to fly together but ended up falling on water.
Wait, it's actually sad, but I'm glad they're still alive. I was reacting to all the fun things we saw inside and can only feel Seokjin's silence and his eyes glued at me.
There were series of things related to love, and what I did was smile at them. There were little performances too.
"Why are you two so far from each other? Let's get closer to each other, shall we?" The guy at the back said.
My gaze immediately landed on Seokjin and moved a little bit closer to him, just realizing how far we were from each other. I continued watching everything, and all of them made me laugh.
Seokjin was sitting still, and I could still feel him looking at me. I want to look back at him and study his expressions, but I thought that it will be a little too weird to.
"You know this is the part where most couples kiss." The guy told us. I didn't know how to respond and I felt my heart beat faster. My eyes landed on Seokjin and then to the guy, then back to where I was focusing on.
I then diverted my gaze at the young ballerinas I'm guessing aged 5-8 that were performing dressed in pink tutus and stuff, and I swear this whole place is no other color but pink.
The ride was ending, and I can feel the intensity coming from the guy and the performers. They look like they wanted us to kiss, and I'm just here with a poker face, trying my best not to look at Seokjin.
"JUST KISS ALREADY!" A ballerina shouted followed by small giggles coming from her comrades and others.
I heaved a sigh and faced Seokjin's direction, but was interrupted by a pair of soft lips pressing against mine. My heart couldn't take it. My eyes flew open, too distracted to even close my eyes and feel it. He pulled away immediately after that. This is the third stolen kiss I've had ever, and I'm not getting used to it.
Kim Seokjin you're making me feel craaaaazzzzyyy.
I shouldn't be having butterflies in my stomach and a heart beating like crazy.
Damn you body, damn you.
The people around us were cheering like crazy, it's like we just got married and that kiss has the power to make us have our own eternity. But actually, it's just a ride in a theme park.
I can't lie because it made me smile, it made me think we're couple though and that's not so nice to think about.
When we're out, we were greeted by Narae and Kyungsam again, who looked like they've been waiting for forever for something to happen. And something did, and I hope they don't know that.
They have these creepy smiles on their faces and started making kissy noises and stuff, and after that we started walking behind them.
The twins were walking so fast in front of us because of eagerness, excitement, and the feeling of just wanting to see everything. My eyes landed on Seokjin but realizing he was looking back at me, I immediately looked at the ground.
"You didn't have to do that, you know." I tried my best not to stutter and have more confidence in my voice.
"Do what?" Oh please Seokjin don't act innocent now, you're going to make me repeat everything in my head just then.
"Kissing me in front of them just because they wanted us to." I said. He gave me a warm smile.
"That..huh. I didn't do that for them, I did it for me." He winked and ruffled my hair, walking ahead of me, leaving me in an empty thought. I guess I'm too slow to get what he said, but for some reason it made me feel something weird again just like earlier.
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A/N: I forced myself to update tonight at 10:15 pm because why not XD No editor san today though.. I can't contact her since this morning seriously. But hey, thank you guys xD
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