i'm really anxious

i have a band concert in a couple of hours, but that's not really why

i'm more of the kind of person that when it comes to concerts, and things like that, i don't feel very anxious hours before the 'thing', but minutes before it starts, i'm questioning all my life choices that have led me to that moment.

however,

with presenting a school project in front of my classmates, it's completely something different

i'm feeling more anxious for the school project i have to present tomorrow than i am for the band concert i have in just a couple hours.

with band, it's playing an instrument in a large crowd.

if you make a mistake, only the people playing right next to you with even notice, and definitely not the audience.

but with a class presentation, if you mess up,

EVERYONE KNOWS EXACTLY WHAT YOU DID WRONG

and really, all of my friends can tell you that i'm not the kind of person that cares what other people think.

so my classmates don't bother me all that much.

but the teacher

is not the same

the teacher is the person that decides if my presentation is good enough

i can do my very very best, but if the teacher thinks it's not good enough, then it's not good enough.

and usually, i'll get up and do my presentation, only making like 1 mistake--a simple slip of the tongue, that i correct fine.

and it'll be an easy a+

but the anxiety and pressure that i feel before presenting is unreal.

it's indescribable. 

and there's a few things people say to try and comfort me when i tell them how nervous i am

- "just imagine your audience is in their underwear and you'll be fine."

this doesn't work. not at all. firstly, there are people in that audience that i NEVER EVER want to see in their underwear, and that's distracting.

secondly, if i'm imagining the audience in their underwear, my mind is still on the audience, and i'm distracted because i'm focusing on the audience instead of whatever i'm actually supposed to be doing.

-"you've done fine on every other project/concert/etc., so you'll do fine on this one."

this doesn't help either. i'm the kind of person that sees the downside of everything, so if you say that, i'll just say:

"yeah, maybe, but what if this one's different?"

also, i'm an extremely factual person, so i very much dislike when people spout opinions at me, and have no facts to back their opinion up. (i'm going somewhere with this hold on)

since everyone is different, everyone thinks 'doing fine' is something different. for some people, doing well is simply not failing, while for others it's getting an a+.

so what is 'doing fine' to this person?

i even understand that people are only trying to help when they see these things, but it doesn't help. most of the time, it only makes it worse.

i think the best thing you can say to me is probably:

"you wouldn't be an 'a' student if you were bad at stuff like this, so you'll get a b+ at the worst."

this.

it's fact, but also comforting.

to some people, it's probably really harsh and factual,

well that's because that's what it is.

i prefer harsh, straight fact.

it's probably really weird for some of you to be hearing this, but it's the truth.

the harsh, straight truth.