Ok soo I'm super fucking depressed to the point of cutting myself...I was only at that point one other time and that was when my grandfather died but I forced my self not too. The thing is my best friend hates anything to do with lgbtq+ community. She was my first friend too. I asked her what she thinks of people from the community and she says "people like that are freaks." And then she told me "if your part of it I don't want anything to do with you" and the she walked off. I was so upset...she was ny first friend I ever met and now she hates me. I feel like its my fault...I deserve it I never told her but I was planning on to. Am I really so worthless that my beat friend hates my very existence? Am I really such a bad person to be gay and non binary? Am I really supposed to be happy at all in life?