Ok, I know I said that I'll be gone until Friday, it's just that... I really miss someone. And I've noticed that I probably disappointed her because I left... I really hope not.

So...

I bet no one missed me huh? Not surprised either

So I heard something about Ms_tomato_potato 's OC (probably) featured in the Netflix series, and I was really happy for her. But it just made me disappointed in myself because I realized (I realized it before) that whatever I do, even if I work or try my best, I still can't get enough credit or love because apparently... no one cares! Just like Ronnie said.

And earlier again today, a friend of mine (not really) called me Trash. Even Adrien. He also called me a piece of sh*t

Ok! Time to burn the book he gave me months ago! Brb! (Jk jk) ((or am I))

But as to my surprise, the exact same time I was about to walk away from them, I heard Ronnie fall down, and so I turned around and saw him bleeding from his knee. I somehow feel like the world is on by side for once... because it apparently feels bad for me and have what my (fake) friends what they deserved! (Btw, Ronnie went to the clinic but don't worry, I was still sorry for him, even tho my other friend blamed it for me, even when that happened in the exact moment I LEFT)

Yeah, tbh... I've been really lucky these days...

I just feel like the world saw how I was really suffering and finally came to my side... because every time I was in a bad situation... it apparently get fixed afterwards...

But not all bad situations...

*sighs*

Somehow, even though I leave permanently, everything will be alright for everybody. My friends will finally live in peace, the world would still roll around, the sun will still rise, no one will miss me at all. TBH, that "break" I took, was kinda of a test. I won't tell you what it's about but obviously... no one cared.

Now I know why the world is on my side nowadays...

I'm literally a ghost that doesn't deserve anything after everything it has done.

I bet no one will answer this question because they're afraid I'm gonna be upset over their answers...

Do I deserve anything at all?

Not even happiness? Because I don't feel it...

I'm just gonna leave, I'll probably feel better afterwards... she's not even here, so why do I even bother?

Imma go update Just The Way You Are now...

I'm a f*cking mess...

My friend was right, I am sensitive...