I am NOT having a good day...

Earlier today at Music...  our teacher told me to call a classmate of mine (who wasn't getting the sound right with the trumpet) from the practice room. And then once we sat back down on our seats, I suddenly felt like crying... because of what our teacher said. He legit told me that he "misspoken" and said that I'm gonna take her place. As in go to the practice room, and that could mean one thing... I was doing a terrible job.

I stood still, I was just... panicking. He looked really serious, and he said it like it was an insult. I just didn't want to disobey, especially if my other classmates were staring at me and telling me to go there. And so I did.

Once we got out, our teacher said that my classmate who was apparently sitting beside me (and he was a good trumpet player) and told him to bring the "young lady" from his right to a different practice room. Guess who it was? He was talking about me again.

And then once we were in there, I couldn't help but cry in front of the classmate I was in the practice room. I didn't cry that much, I just wanted to leave because every time I go to a practice room, it's like a haunted or a scary room where I have to face all my fears.

I was already so confident... and so happy... our Music class just had to ruin it... and that thin our teacher said at first? It really insulted me and I felt like crying my eyes out.

And when the class was almost about the end, he showed us these idioms stuff. And when he said something about "don't judge a book by its cover" he said something about a young lady that he saw, and he taught (btw this is like a sorry he's telling) that she was useless, stupid or something like that, and then he said something about saying that she was intelligent, he said that she was very smart, and he said that it was his fault, and he should've talked to her first. Somehow, I had a feeling that he was talking about me because apparently, my eyes were still red from crying, and I had my hair over my face so no one can see.

I wasn't sure if he was talking about me, but I'd rather have it that way. TBH, I don't even want to go to school anymore.

I just feel like crying right now tbh...

I already miss someone so much... and tbh, that person was basically the only thing that can make me happy. And since that person isn't here, I've noticed that ever since that person left, I was down and sad.

I was already so happy and confident... now it got lower and now I'm sad and fearful.

I can't get over the fact of how my Music teacher told me to go to the practice room, and I wasn't gonna get all the attention. And tbh, I always wish that he would never say my name in class because I knew if he did, it was gonna be a disaster for me.

And btw, CAN EVERYONE STOP POSTING THIS FUDGING SPOILERS FOR TROLLS HOLIDAY?! I am already so sad and pissed rn.