I suddenly have self doubts of myself.

Idk

Every time I look everywhere, I see people, so much more amazing than me, they're all better at doing things that I love and want to develop in...

Idk...

I feel like whatever I do, it's just a huge disappointment to myself and the world.

... I'm a mess...

So true honestly... I first knew suicide when I heard about the Blue Whale Challenge, it's about having someone force you to cut yourself a whale on your arm, because if you don't, there will be huge consequences. And a million people have done it, why can't I join the popular new trend?

I always stand up for my friends at school, but they just don't care if I'm sad or not, not even Adrien, Ronnie, anyone at all... they're just... playing their own video games while I sit alone in lunch.

The first time I had heard of Love Yourself by Justin Bieber, I was honestly so "oh yeah, I DEFINITELY love myself, heck I would even date myself" and crud, but now, I realize... who actually does love me?

I just love listening to music tbh, I sometimes play it out loud at home so my family can't hear the aching cries I sometimes make when I'm in the bathroom. (Fun fact: it happened once or twice, possibly more, I never keep count)

And again, I'm always like this at school. I guess everybody has their own problems, like I have my own. They just don't see it, and I barely give any clues that I'm like this and it just doesn't seem to work. At all.

And now I'm hungry again.