21/02/20

Last year August, I made a chapter called 'What's wrong with it?' Where I wrote about scars and body hair

I was just rereading over it, and I remembered something

Again, this isn't me saying 'oh, go flaunt your scars!' This is just me questioning stuff, as I usually do

So, last time, I searched up why are scars seen as bad
I did the search again

I didn't actually get any answers, again
I get that I'm skim-searching (not looking deeper into it), don't come for me because if that

I remembered, that quite some time ago, I was listening to this South Asian radio station, and they were talking about this girl. She was like 14 or something. She was bleaching her dark Indian kind of skin to be lighter. 

That's my hand colour. She was somewhat my colour.
And she was doing so because she almost felt bad for having this skin colour. There were so many adverts about cream to make your skin lighter or fairer with these famous actresses and, i can't remember, but that influenced her. Those actresses are well looked up to, so I guess that also influenced it more.

I found many scar gels when searching for why scars are bad

I don't really know where I'm going to, but, if scars were something widely spoken about, do you think people would be that nervous to talk about theirs? I'm just wondering, it's like mental health, if it was more widely spoken about, do you think it would make people get help quicker, or speak about it more and not feel embarrassed about their condition?

I think, if it was something easily spoken about, i wouldn't be as self conscious as I am now. I wouldn't always pull my swimming suit shorts down further than they should go and look weird. I wouldn't be afraid of wearing shorts out in public. I wouldn't be the odd one out wearing tracksuit bottoms during summer for PE.

I don't really know what this is, sorry