19/11/19

So, y'all should know that I love swimming. It's the only sport I like, and the only sport I can do. I go to swimming lessons every Saturday, unless im really busy that day, or if im on my period. I'm all for improving my strokes, I want to be better at it. I literally wanted to be the youngest Olympic swimmer.

I go to this gym, where the pool is at. I've gone to that gym since I was 3 years old. Well, I've used the pool since I was 3. You need a membership to go, and obviously, you have to pay like monthly or yearly, idk.

When you turn 12, you can go to the gym and use the equipment. I didn't go that often because I always felt like everyone was watching me as I look disgusting and fat and unhealthy and exhausted, and that I also always felt like I was using equipment wrong and would get in trouble.

When you turn 14, you can go to classes at the gym. I turned 14 in September. My parents and I agreed that if I started going to the classes, they wouldn't cancel the membership.

I love my swimming class. I'm in a group swimming class, and im the oldest. The next person is a few months younger than me, but eh. They all make me laugh so much. The teacher is really nice too. I didn't want to leave them. So, I agreed to go.

The class I go to, it's a bit like a circuit. We do 3 minutes of treadmill, 30 secs break, 3 minutes of strength (exercises with weights and dumbbells), 30 secs break, and 3 minutes of combat (boxing gloves, kicking and punching, punching bag). We do those 9 minutes 3 times, with a 1 minute break after each 9 minutes, meaning we do 27 minutes of exercise. Me, not being used to such active exercise, im always tired and dizzy afterwards.

I haven't been to the class for like a month, because I've been in pain, too busy with fucking homework, or on my period, when I will absolutely refuse to go (Im the kind of person that when on their period, they'll want to stay in bed all day and do nothing)

PE in school, we've been doing circuit in PE for a few lessons, which include plans and press up. After doing those, my shoulders hurt for a few days. My legs also really hurt. I told my parents that, and they said that if I didn't go today, they'll cancel the membership because it's a waste of money

BOI IM IN PAIN, I LITERALLY CANT WALK WITHOUT BEING IN PAIN, IT'S THAT BAD

but obviously, my wellbeing is in second place to money. Yes, I get it, they want me to be healthy. But I already want to cry at how much my body hurts. But that doesn't matter, because all that matters is that I'm wasting money by not going.

yayyyyyyyyyy, I feel greatttttttt