Unlike myself a few months ago, I take more pictures of myself. Mostly because I like sending them to my boyfriend and being called pretty, but also because there are times when I think I'm pretty.

I'll scroll through my images, see pictures of me and think "Huh, I look kind of cute there."

Then there are other times, and other pictures, where I just go "you know what, I'm ugly as fuck. What do people see as pretty about me? Nothing."

I don't know how to think about myself. I don't want to make myself believe I'm pretty if I'm not, but I don't want to make me hate myself more by making myself believe I'm ugly