27/10/19

Hai!

If anyone wants me to delete this, I will. I just wanted to share what happened as a bit of a vent

So, there is this YouTuber, as I love his work. It's amazing. And he's really funny, nice, cute, and an amazing person overall

He has a discord server, and I'm a moderator in it

All good and good, I can kick and ban people

That's until you actually have to do it.

So, today, we had someone join the server. We were all welcoming and stuff, as usual. We'll all him B, for Bastard, and for Bitch. The only thing that was weird when B joined, was that they said that they were a bot or something. I just let it by, because we had people claiming to be the flower a few times (part of the series), so it was fine.

B, someone else on the server, and a friend of mine were teasing me for my height, and it was fine. Let's call mg friend person F, she's important in this. I was happy. I was having fun with them. I got a new nickname! They seemed nice.

A few hours later, they says that someone on the server was dead. They began saying F was dead. I thought "this is probably just a prank, this is normal, it's fine". Then he said that he'd killed F. He told us to text her and see that she doesn't reply. F's girlfriend came online, and began talking to him, saying that she'd know if her girlfriend was dead. See, I'd spoken to F about her girlfriend. They like each other a lot. I knew that her girlfriend would protect her, so I began watching the conversation

B began saying that F's girlfriend wouldn't know, because she had been out with parents. She went against that, saying what parents? Then he mentioned someone else, who isn't on the server. B said that they were dating or something, I didn't really understand.

I began feeling uneasy. I didn't like where this was going, and so, I asked for evidence. Any sort of evidence that something had happened. He said ok (he never got any 😂). Then he said meaner stuff, like this, which could potentially trigger someone. He began bringing F's girlfriend's family into it, mentioning them.

That's when I told everyone to stop, and to wait a sec. I told B to stop, but they continued.

I felt my heart beating faster. I didn't know what to do. What if something had actually happened to F? She was my friend! Or what if it was a prank, and I could make him cooperate somehow? I felt my breathing quicken, it became harder to breathe.

Then he said he was going to ruin someone, then i reacted and I kicked them (they could come back with an invite). They weren't going to ducking ruin anyone. Ruin me first before anyone else. Get through me, break me, hurt me as much as you want, dont fucking touch the people I take care of.

The reassuring started. All the "it's fine, he's gone" started.

Literally a minute of two later, he joined back. And he said this

I have the blue name tag thing (yes, mousie is me. I'm smol)

You see why I'm mad. He made everyone in the chat uncomfortable, and gave me a close panic attack. He said that it would have made a good story.

I felt my heart beat faster again. It began stressing me out, a lot. I began shaking, literally shaking. I felt chills run through my body. Tears were ready to spill from my eyes. He called F a liar after she said she was nice to everyone (F is really nice, mind you). He said that he's, quote on quote, 'known ass a C.E.O hacker'. Everyone was asking me to ban him, so I did.

I reported what happened to the YouTuber, he wasn't online, and it's 2am right now. Lets hope he sees it in the morning

I felt at fault. I should have reacted earlier. There was another mod ready to bash someone's face in, and there were the admins. I could have just banned them first off. F came on, and she was worried about her girlfriend. Everyone was shaken, stressed. Even myself, but I didn't matter. I felt terrible. Everyone was saying that it wasn't my fault, but It was. I should have acted sooner.

I began crying. I was lying in bed, crying because I felt so bad. I got up to get some toilet paper to wipe my lose, and I just lied to my sister saying that my nose had randomly begun running. She believed me, not bothered to look at my red eyes

It scared me

Anygays, that was a small rant, I guess? Have a nice night!