The smell of strawberries.. reminds me of you, they were your favorite after all. You'd think that since I no longer have you I'd want nothing more than to rid myself of the thoughts. Yet, the smell itself brings wonderful thoughts to my mind. The days we talked, any of the times you spoke my name.. with that stupid smile of yours. It made me feel special, like I had a purpose but then.. darkness snuck up behind us. The love we had was being torn apart by the thoughts eating away at me from the inside. I thought you'd leave me.. you'd hurt me.. I feared so much it broke us. Though my feelings for you are still here.. in small bits maybe in the future I'll try again but for now I want to live my life without a guy. Maybe one day but love is a thing I fear, fearing some day I'll fall in love but.. they won't return the love, leaving me broken just as every man my mother has loved.. I fear out of good reason but one day this fear will he overcome