So I'm back with another whatever update on what's happened well to put it simply. Alot and to be honest I don't want to be here anymore. I want out of this town. Out of this country. Out of this planet away from everyone. I just seem to get worse and worse and my mental state is getting gradually more psychotic and non shit caring, I've lost and became so distant with so many people because of this toxic friend group and the mindless activities we've done I hate it I can barely get through the day without wanting to break something or someone. And I feel bad for this one friend I'm slowly losing it with I take everything out on him and I don't know how to stop myself cause one day I'm gonna do something and he won't take it and he won't come back. I thought leaving wattpad and going to do things outside would help me. It made it worse. So much worse. To anyone reading this I'm sorry I haven't been here I don't know if I'm back for good. I'm not back to roleplay I'll probably be back to write stories to clear my head and updates like this and hopefully be able to help my friends I've became so distant with. And to these friends I'm sorry I let you down. I've damaged myself and I've changed from when I started and I can't fit in as I am right now. I'm sorry