Okay before I start I have to give a CAUTION TRIGGER WARNING or something cause this chapter... Is depressing and I want to get my feelings out to people so if you wanna stop reading or go to the next chapter go ahead

If your reading this you care thank you for even reading this

So what's wrong... Alot of things recently I've been more on edge when I'm alone like if I hear something I will run out my door thinking something bad has happened but now thats turning into being normal around people... Right let me get to the point I don't feel like I can trust what anyone says anymore and it's because of my past I've been bullied since primary 4 (so I was 8/9 then) and now it's starting to fade away it still happens but it's mentally scared me I don't trust anyone I try to be someone I'm not and that's gotten me places I rather not be but recently I feel like my bestest friend who's basically like a brother to me has been slipping away I feel like he will end up leaving me and I'll just be a loner again... And if that happens well I rather not think that the way I am right now I just feel like for every good thing that happens a million even worse things happen I try to stay positive but can't when people threaten me when I "take it too far" when they do the stuff I'm doing themselves I feel like something is gonna happen soon and when that happens it's over I will have no regrets ending it cause I'm not great I'm horrible but yet I'm still here somehow and honestly thank you to everyone I roleplay with everyone who I know IRL and out all of you are Amazing people but I really want to thank som specific people

Purple4evr - I have to thank you for being there to talk to when either I'm in class and no one is on wattpad cause your funny and crazy thank you

ThatIrishGuy6270 - thank you for just being a sound guy we've had some beef in the past but now I can say your a really good pal thank you

These last two I love and really mean a lot to me

Carolynthe70schick - thank you thank you for the good times thank you for the meh times cause whenever I see you message me I smile you make me happy and forget sometimes that most people hate me thank you so much *hugs*

SomeScottishGuy - this guy umm I have no words for he's practically my brother I love him like a brother he's always there for me just like I am for him thank you so much for everything you've changed me if it weren't for you the most I would be dead your always there and I'm so lucky to call you a friend and a brother I just keep thinking of all of the fun in the future years and I look forward to spending every second by your side thank you thank you thank you *chants you are awesome* TD for life man

Okay even though I've thanked specific people everyone who's been kind enough to roleplay with me is amazing so thank you I'm sorry about this being too depressing and too long next post should be back to normal I hope or who knows I may be dead but thank you all of you you are Amazing

Littlegreendog