I was thinking about wanting Instagram, but my mom says there's hackers on there. The kids at my school has Instagram, even my childhood friend does too. What's the use? The only friend that has IG ((Instagram)) is my childhood friend and if I do pictures, it's only gonna be her.

The girl I went to school with got over 500 followers and her friends have Instagram.

I tried reasoning with my mom 1hr. ago, but she said, "You don't have to be like those girls, just be you". I tried being myself for YEARS and nothing's really helping. I just want to be like the girls I went to school with, they take pictures of themselves, wear makeup to hide their "natural self", they go out and work... etc.

I tried doing all that, but I'm "Developmentally Delayed" — Which means; slow. I'm "slow" at everything and my mom says I'm not capable of working on my mom, so does my sisters.

My oldest is 23 and she has Autism, my youngest is 18 and she has the same condition I have.

I should be in Collage or at a Job right now, but my mom says, "living on your own is hard work". Like, I can handle paying bills, paying water, sewer and garbage... anything.

It's just... when I look at the kids I went to school with do everything on their own, I get jealous. I really want to do all that, even if I try to reason with my mom — We get into an argument next.

I really want everything they have, I want Instagram, make new friends, live on my own... everything. And Idc if I'm ranting, I just want everything they have. I'm 20 for God's sake!