So I went to a Cinco De Mayo party today when my mom got home.

Everything was soooo fun! I loved it! The people at the party are always fun to be around! They always make a party better. Honestly they do.

But, we were about to leave and I couldn't stand by my dad because he reeked of alcohol. I hate that smell, absolutely HATE it!

So my brother and I decided to ride with my mom, we drove separate because my dad had to pick up my brother after his soccer practice and blah blah blah, because we were scared that something might happen if we were with my dad.

My mom asked us if our dad seemed a bit off earlier, like when he went to go get my brother from his soccer practice. My brother answered no but then he remember that on the way to the party, my dad was drinking.

At the moment, we are home and my mom is pissed because my dad drank to much and he was drinking in the car with my younger brother in it.

My mom admitted to my brother and I that she was going to yell at my dad. I'm getting prepared for my mom to yell at him...

This is like the 10th time she has yelled at him in the last 2 months...

Guys, I'm scared... I really am.

I don't want anything to happen with my parents, I don't want my life to change... I just wish my life could go back to what it use to be... my life from when I was younger...

I can now hear my mom crying which makes me want to cry...

I miss my old life... I want my life to go back to normal... I wish my dad wouldn't do stupid things like this anymore...

I'm sorry, if I ever acted like a jerk. I don't ever mean to be... you guys know I've been stressed and now this is happening...

I wanted my first chapter in this book to be happy and bubbly but I guess that didn't happen.

I wrote this because there is nobody on right now that I can talk with... I'm not blaming anybody... I just wish there was someone on right now that I could talk to...

I love you guys so much... I really really do. ❤️