At the moment, I just want someone to kill me.

I'm bawling my eyes out.

I've lost so many people in last few weeks and I know that they'll never forgive me.

I just wanted to say I'm sorry. For everything I ever did to anyone.

I miss my old life, I miss my old friends the most...

I know I can never fix anything that I ever did and I'm sorry that I can't do anything to fix it.

I know all the people that I have lost probably won't ever see this. I'm still sorry. I'm sorry to Winnie and Madi and Berry and Ella and anybody else I have hurt in the last week and/or month...

I'm sorry I snapped... I'm sorry I got mad at something so stupid that I lost you for it. I probably lost you forever.

If any of you ever see this, don't forgive me because I don't deserve your friendships anymore. I've screwed up so bad that I don't and shouldn't be worthy of being your friend.

I'm sorry... 😢