You know that feeling when you just want to murder someone, but you can't, so you just have to hold it in and try to keep calm? Yeah, that's what was happening to me at the moment. I just wanted to kill the person standing in front of me. It's just like she's fucking stalking me now. Like, what the fuck does she want from me!?

"And who are you, child?" grandma asked her.

Oh, grandma. Why do you have to be so innocent?

"Oh, I am April. Hadley's best friend." she extended her hand so grandma could shake it.

"No, you are not my best friend!" I glared at her.

She slightly narrowed her eyes at me and grinned at grandma. What a witch! My blood started boiling. I know that that wasn't good for my baby who I was raising in my stomach, but this bitch just made it too much. God only knows what her next motive was going to be. She has always been a witch! I really don't know how I didn't see that when I actually was her best friend.

"Don't get angry, dear." grandma patted my shoulder. "Everything will be just fine."

With that said, grandma walked to the counter to pay for the groceries she bought. I glared at April and she just smirked at me. I just wanted to burn her alive, and then bury her alive, then feed her leftovers to the demons that perhaps may not exist. I was that pissed.

"Listen to me, April. Don't follow me around! Stop stalking me and stop telling people that you are my best friend, because you're fucking not. So back off." I pointed my finger at her and attempted to walk pass her.

"Are you threatening me, Hadley?" I could hear the smirk at me once again. I hate that smirk.

I turned around and smirked even wider. "You decide what you want, April."

I walked to grandma and she smiled sympathetically at me. I smiled back and took the bags of groceries from the counter. We walked to the car and I placed the groceries on the backseat and hopped in the car. I started the car and not soon after, we were already on the road.

"Why do you hate her so much? She's not that bad." grandma frowned at me. 

I chuckled and glanced at her, and then back on the road. "If only you knew, grandma. If only you knew." 

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"Mommy, look!" Ryan ran to me and showed me a drawing. "I drew you, daddy and me!" he grinned from ear to ear, his teeth shining. 

I smiled and took the drawing from his hands. I smiled. It was something typical a toddler would draw. A house, and three puppet thingies. It was so adorable. He was just five years old and he could already do so much. My boy can even do multitasking.

I carefully placed it on Xavier's desk where his laptop was. He forgot it at home, but he has one at the office anyways. I have no idea why he has so many useless stuff. He already has a laptop. Why does he even have another one!?

"I will keep your drawing forever." I grinned at Ryan and kissed his forehead.

He giggled adorably and kissed my cheek. I grinned from ear to ear and placed him on my lap after returning to the bed. We were silent for a moment until I started playing with him. He laughed so adorably that I couldn't take it in anymore and I hugged him tightly.

I felt like he was my life. He meant so much to me. Being called mom is such a big thing. It's such a magical feeling to know that you're a mother and the future and happiness of your children lies in your hands. I never hope that I turn out like my mother. My mother is just an effed up woman and I can do anything to ignore her.  And besides, I don't think that she wants to see my face either. I hate her more than she hates me. Since the day she hit my baby, she had ruined all the respect she had left in my eyes.

For a moment I was happy that my marriage was arranged to Xavier. I was so happy to have him in my life. If I didn't have all these people in my life, I would be nothing right now. Especially grandma.

"Mommy, I am going to look for grandpa." he giggled and I nodded and kissed his cheek.

Dad was staying home more often lately and I was glad he did that. It was a good thing for him and for us. We got to spend more time with him and he got to rest enough for his good health. I was happy that dad was doing a lot better than before.

I really was.

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I felt arms wrap around my waist and a kiss being paced on my cheek. I smiled when I realized that Xavier was home already. It was pretty late and I was waiting for him to have some dinner.

"Why aren't you resting yet?" He rested his chin on my shoulder.

I blushed. "I was waiting for you."

"So that also means that you haven't eaten yet." I heard him say.

I didn't answer him. Just stared at the floor. He was right. I didn't eat yet. I wanted to eat together, and seeing that it was past twelve already, I knew that Xavier was going to get a bit mad at me.

"Why do you always do this!? You have to eat! You can't go wait for me. What would you do if I wouldn't come home the whole night!?" he stared at me as I hung my head low, staring at the tiles.

I felt his hands caressing my cheek and I felt tingles spread all over my body. Damn hormones. Stop doing this to me. He pulled me closer to his body and he kissed my forehead.

"Please don't do this to me, sunshine. You know that I love you too much. Think about you. Think about the baby. Don't starve yourself for so long." he caressed my not so big baby stomach.

I nodded and he hugged me. "I'm sorry, Xavier. I won't do it again."

He smiled me and rook my hand in his. "Now let's go have our dinner."

I nodded and we walked into the kitchen. "Hey, have you heard about Margaret and Neil? It has been three days." I frowned.

"They're just enjoying their new relationship. Let them be." Xavier waved it off.

Margaret told me about their date. Those two are officially a couple now. She said that the date was really amazing, but yet she hadn't told me anything about what happened that evening. She only told me that they are in a relationship now and that she was happy that Neil finally admitted.

"You go sit. I'll bring you your food." he said and I nodded. 

I walked to the dining room and sat at the dining table. That moment seemed to be the best moment to drown into my thoughts. Everything just seems to go by so fast. That insecure girl no longer exists in me. That girl that always used to think that she's ugly and that there will never be no one who will love her. That insecure girl who got married to someone she didn't know. Xavier made me feel loved. Since the day he brought me to his mother's greenhouse. That day was the best day of my life, apart from the day Xavier and I got married. 

I never thought that I would fall in love with Xavier, or that Xavier would fall in love with me. I looked at the marks on my arms. Those marks will never fade away. I instantly remembered the way I used to cut. I still remember how I used to enjoy that fresh and warm blood dripping from my veins. I remembered that feeling I used to get. I used to feel safe. But since I met Xavier, these marks don't mean anything to me. The only thing I hope never to happen is my kids asking me what happened there later in life. 

Xavier walked into the dining room with a plate in his hands. I frowned because he's supposed to come with two plates. Not with one. We both have to eat. It was like Xavier read my mind and he smiled warmly at me, making me frown even more. 

"I brought one plate, because you're eating first, and then I'll eat." he said and I was about to argue, but then she cut me off. "No arguments." he gave me that dangerous look of his. 

"Fine." I muttered under my breath and narrowed my eyes at him as he fed me. 

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DONE!!!!!!!!!!

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