I slowly walked into the cabin, looking around at the dusty furnishings. It looks like it had been unused for years. Looking about, I could feel my heart race, hazy memories of soft kisses and slow caresses eating away at my mind.

Walking from room to room, I slowly took out the pocket knife, lifting my shirt as I began tracing it slowly over my stomach. Oh Shina, how much I wanted to be here with you again.

I smiled as the blood trailed down my skin, feeling almost as sweet as the remembered kisses of my love.

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The lake was frozen solid, the moonlight glistening on the surface as I walked out towards the center of the lake. Sitting down once I felt I had gone far enough out, I slowly began tracing her name on the ice in front of me, my fingers slowly growing numb from the cold.

How long had it been since we had been here? I could barely recall vague flashes of laughter between us. I could almost feel her lips upon my skin, her teeth biting into my flesh gently. Such a wonderful pain she had given me, nothing else could compare to it.

Not even the lovely cuts as I carved her name over the old scars on my body, each on marking another hazy memory returning to me.

I smiled as I watched my blood drip onto the ice, lines of red slowly freezing and leaving behind her name upon the surface of the lake, there to remain all winter long.

"ShInA~. COme BACk to mE PLeasE. I neeD YoU."

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I stood there, staring at the frozen waterfall that nestled between the giant rocks, almost completely hidden away from sight by the trees lining the trail I had been following. It was the first time I could remember something so clearly, like it had just happened yesterday. As the memory ran before my eyes, I found myself repeating the words I had said to her.

"Marry me, Shina. Be mine forever?" I could still feel her in my arms after hearing her sobbed yes echoing in my ears. Where were you Shina? I'd found so many places we had been, but still no sign of where I had lost you... When would I find you again? Hold you again? Feel my teeth bite into your skin again?

I could feel my breath catch as the sweet pain rushed through me, ever so carefully carving the image of a wedding band upon my finger.

"Shina, My Shina. My lost Bride. I'll never give up until I find you."