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A/N: Okay guys! i just want to get this out of my chest. English is not my first language so of course there are mistakes. I haven't edited this story yet and i am aware that there are MANY mistakes. I am not living in an English spoken country either (If you read about me on my profile). I am not complaining if you correct my mistakes. I appreciate it because i want to learn from you too. Just don't do it in a rude way.

One more thing, i already finished this story and i know some of you are already complaining about the problems and misunderstandings of the 2 main characters but i intended to make it that way because what good is a story without some complications before the ending right, right? Well, that's just my own opinion though. LOL. 

But don't worry, this is the last misunderstanding of the 2. Just a couple of chapters more before the ending so i wrote sweeter moments between the 2 in the next chapters. This is the longest A/N that I've ever wrote but this is NOT a rant. I'm just telling what's on my mind.  :)

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  "What are you talking about Carina? I don't understand you anymore" -Regan 

CARINA'S P.O.V.

I stared at the picture again and I couldn't be wrong, it was Regan and he was kissing a woman. I couldn't recognized the woman as her back was on the camera but she looked really familiar.

An overwhelming jealousy rose in my chest. Is this the reason why he wasn't even calling me because of her?

I wanted to scream because of the mixed emotions I was instantly feeling. Jealousy and anger were a potent combination and they were eating my right reasoning and the ability to analyze the situation rationally. I just wanted to cry.

The image of Tiffany and Regan who were on the bed together and both naked came back onto my mind and that made me almost insane. My grip on my phone tightened and I couldn't control the tears I was holding anymore. They fell.

"Mommy?" I looked at my daughter and she looked like she was about to cry too. I embraced her as I continued sobbing. I wanted to stop myself from crying because Scarlet was right in front of me but my tears were so stubborn that they continuously fell from my eyes.

I tried to smile and wiped my tears when I saw that she was crying too. I wiped her tears and kissed her forehead.

"Don't cry baby. Mommy is fine. I just remembered your grandpa. Can you smile for mommy?" She wiped her tears with the back of her hands and smiled at me sweetly. The pain in my chest was still there but just seeing the smiling face of my daughter reduced the pain.

I got startled when my phone rang. It was from an unknown number. I was debating inside if I was going to answer it or not. It stopped after ringing for several times. When it rang again, I decided to answer it.

"H-Hello" I said. My voice was kinda husky because of crying a while ago.

"Thank God you answered your phone Kitten" I almost gasped loudly when I heard the voice of Regan. Feeling like this upon hearing his voice just proved me how much I missed him and how I much wanted to see him right now if that was even possible. I closed my eyes and didn't answer. The anger and jealousy in my chest was still there. 

Should I ask him about it? What if he confirms about it? I wouldn't be able to handle it if that was the case. I knew I was being paranoid and distrustful but I couldn't help it. Even though I was telling myself that Regan didn't deceive me, it was just impossible to just forget it all just like that.

A while ago, there were a lot of things on my mind that I wanted to voice out to him but now that I am talking to him, I am speechless. Great!

I looked at Scarlet who was staring at me curiously. I got off the bed and went to the terrace to prevent her from hearing our conversation and realize that it was her father.

"What do you want?" instead of telling him what's on my mind, my voice came out as cold as ice.

"W-what do you mean by that Kitten?" He sounded confused but at the same time there was a tinge of anger in his tone.

"Can you just tell me why you called? I have something to do" I heard him cussed and then he didn't answer for a couple of seconds.

"Kitten, are you angry at me? Shouldn't be the other way around? You left me just like that without even saying anything!" Now, the anger in his voice was more evident.

"I was calling you before we flew back here but your phone was out of coverage area. I thought you were just busy with your work but now I guess not. You were busy yes but with another woman" I couldn't take it anymore and told him that. I heard him gasped.

"What are you talking about Carina? I don't understand you anymore" I chuckled sarcastically.

"Really? Then what is the meaning of the picture I received a while ago? You were kissing another woman! How dare you do this to me?! Don't tell me you didn't know about it again!"

I was almost shouting now and my body was shaking. I hated myself because tears pooled down my cheeks again. Why does he have this strong effect on me? I groaned inwardly and cursed myself. 

"What are you talking about Kitten? I don't understand. Can you just calm down and explain to me everything?"

"Someone sent me a picture of you kissing someone. Is that photo authentic?" Even my voice was shaking as I asked him that question. I inhaled and exhaled softly trying to calm myself down and not to let him know that I was already crying. But God! It was so hard to stop myself from sobbing.

He didn't answer for a while like he was thinking of what he was about to answer.

"Tell me! Did you really kiss somebody?!" I yelled at him. I heard him sigh.

"Listen to me carefully...I didn't want it. It was a forceful kiss and I was caught off guard. Tiffany was the one who kissed me and----" I couldn't hear what he was talking about anymore. It was just the name of the woman which was registered on my mind and it hurt. I closed my eyes and bit my lower before I hang up on him. hmp! Tiffany again! I fed up!

He did it again. Even though I clearly heard him saying that he was caught off guard by that kiss, it still hurt me. Is this the way we're going to spend our lives together if I chose to be with him? Whenever someone approaches him and do something to him, he will just tell me it's wasn't his fault and he was just caught off guard? I couldn't take it anymore.

Maybe it was a good thing that we went back here in England and be away from him. I wanted to think things over. I didn't want to get hurt anymore because of the man I love. Why does it's so difficult for us to be happy?

"Mommy, is that daddy?" I heard Scarlet spoke from behind me. I wiped off my tears and faced her.

"Baby, let's go take a bath. We need to go to the hospital later" I tried to divert the topic and she just nodded her head. I looked at her and she looked sad. I felt guilty because if there is someone who's affected the most of the situation, it is our daughter.

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"The surgery is successful and he's out of danger. He would be awake in no time" The doctor said and I felt relief.

"Thank you doctor Henry" He just nodded his head and left. I looked at my father who was still sleeping. I held his hand and kissed it. Now, I felt a lot lighter because he's already fine and out of danger.

"I thought you're going to leave me dad. Thank you because you didn't" I said to him even though he couldn't hear me. I stayed in his room for another half an hour before I went out.

"How's grandpa mommy?" Scarlet asked me as she saw me approaching them. She was with Kate. She called me this morning that she'll accompany us again at the hospital today knowing that Scarlet wouldn't be allowed to enter the ICU. I was so thankful because she's been here to be with us.

"He's going to be okay sweetheart. Don't worry about grandpa. He's strong. He'll wake up soon" She smiled and raised her hands to me, asking me to pick her up.

I picked her up and kissed her cheek.

"Why do you always want mommy to carry you like this baby?" I teased her.

"Because I miss daddy. He always carries me like this" She pouted and her face became sad again upon saying that. Kate looked at me quizzically. She didn't know about what happened for the last 3 months and a half while we were in the US. Even though she was my friend, I didn't tell her about the identity of Scarlet's father. I just told her once that I left him.

Scarlet hugged me tightly and nuzzled her face on my neck. She was already sobbing softly. I groaned inwardly as my chest tightened.

"Sweetheart, please don't make this hard for mommy. Remember, it's not good for mommy to be sad" I said while rubbing her back comfortingly.

"B-But I miss daddy. I want to talk to him" I heaved a sigh and sat down on the nearby chair. I sat her on my lap and took my phone out from my pocket. I didn't want to do this but I wanted to make Scarlet happy. She didn't do anything wrong. She has the right to talk to her father.

I dialed the number Regan used to contact me the last time. Someone answered it after the third ring. I knew it was still very early in New York right now.

"Hello?" It was Nilda.

"Hello NIlda. I'm sorry for calling so early but I just want to talk to Regan. Is he awake yet?" I looked at Scarlet and her face brightened upon hearing me said her father's name. I squeezed her cheek affectionately.

"I don't know. I'll check if he's already up" After a minute or two, I heard Regan's husky voice. It looked like he just woke up.

"Hello?"

"Hello" I almost closed my eyes. Just hearing his voice making me want to forget all the anger I was feeling at the moment. I wanted to but something was preventing me from doing so. I didn't know what though. I was confused.

"Hello Kitten. Thank God you called me. Please, let's talk about what happened. Let me—"

"Scarlet here wants to talk to you" I interrupted him and gave the phone to Scarlet. I didn't want to hear anymore of his explanations. Honestly, I am tired of it all.

I just stared at Scarlet who looked very happy hearing her dad's voice. She got out of my lap and sat on the chair across us. Kate looked at me and then laughed at Scarlet.

"Looks like your daughter wants a privacy" Kate said amusedly while watching Scarlet. She was talking to her dad cheerfully.

"Are you okay Carina?" I looked at Kate and she was staring at me intently. I avoided her gaze.

"I'm okay Kate" I just muttered and she sighed.

"I know when you're feeling down okay? When I first saw you yesterday, you looked fine. In fact, you were radiant even though you were crying because of what happened to your father. But now, you're totally different. Fight the depression. It's not good for you and the baby" My head snapped back to her, in shock.

"How did you know?" She smiled.

"The moment I saw you yesterday, I already had a suspicion but when I heard what you told Scarlet a while ago that it's not good for you to be sad, that confirmed my suspicion" I bit my bottom lip.

"Yes. I'm pregnant" I admitted.

"It's the guy that we saw at the club before right?" I nodded. I didn't know why but tears were threatening to well down my eyes again after I heard her mentioned about Regan and I hated myself more. Maybe because of the pregnancy hormones that I was extra emotional like this.

"So you got back together? Then why are you sad? You look like you've been crying since last night" I looked at my daughter who was giggling happily. Regan must be telling her something funny.

I felt Kate's hand and squeezed my hand gently. Thankfully, she was here with me. I have been friends with her for more than four years now and she's been always at my side whenever I needed someone to talk to.

Then I found myself confiding everything to her. After I finished telling her everything, tears were already spilling from my eyes. I looked at the other way around in order to hide my tears from my daughter.

"Judging by your story, Regan really loves you. Always been loving you since then. About the picture, I think you should have a proper talk to him. I have a feeling that this is all just a big misunderstanding. Don't let your jealousy and anger cloud you rational judgement" I was about to say something when I saw Erick who was approaching us.

"Hello Carina. I heard what happened to your father so I came as soon as I heard that you came back" He said full of concern and gave me a hug.

"Thank you for coming Erick. Dad's fine now. The surgery was successful so we don't have anything to worry about" I said and tried my best to appear okay. He stared at me intently.

"Are you okay? You look like you've been crying" I heaved a sigh and forced a smile.

"I'm okay Erick. I---" I was interrupted by my daughter.

"Mommy, daddy said he'll be with us on my birthday" Scarlet giggled happily while handing me my phone. I saw Erick's forehead frowned upon hearing that.

"Y-You got back with your ex?" He asked hesitantly. I smiled faintly and nodded my head.

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