9-1-15
How the hell do I live without you?!
I told her, "We're family- him and I."
And she didn't take it.
Everything inside me was breaking before
But now it's dying.
I can't stick up for myself.
I just get on my knees
And I take your advice,
I pray until something happens.
How the hell is this happening?!
How the hell did it get worse?!
The real family I had,
Even if it wasn't blood family,
Is being taken away from me.
How the hell do I explain that and not make it sound like your suspicions are true?!
How the hell do I keep fighting?!
I need to breathe again.
I need to fall asleep without anxiety and insomnia ripping me apart.
I can't live anymore
But I do
And I don't know why
But I keep going,
Stuck in a haze.
I need the sunlight.
God, help me. God, help me. God, I need you.
- (m.m)